wait wait wait i stil haven't finish blabbing. u know wat... v saw NAMEWEE! u know... that COOL DUDE who sang negaraKUKU, 麻坡的华语, n almoz got his butt at kamunting detention camp.

yes v freaaaking bump into NAMEWEE at the buntayan food court last week! he juz randomly da bao sum food over there n by the time v realised IT's HIM.. he walked pass the foodcourt n disappear. ahhhh! *totally starstruck!*... okla not that kua jiong. but reli wan to run up to him lo.. take a pic, have a small chat.. at least i'll have proof that i din chia dua pao at my blog. he's hair is kinda long now n he ties them up wif a white bandana. ah! stil as cool as ever.

watch out ppl! mayb i'll b featured in his NEXT MUSIC VIDEO... who knows haha! there he goes rapping...

麻坡的 pharmacist
jin jia beh pai
他们办事很快
他们很可爱
人见人爱
patient 可以信赖
doctor 也要闪开

wahahaha.... perasan!!!!!!! issh i hate myself.
but at least it rhymes! my 1st attempt writing lyrics.. in like 2 mins.. che wa!

seriously if v get to make frens wif him, that's like godsent for getting muar kakaka.

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ohya i'm not done yet. KLites.. pls look out for me!
i need to get a standing mirror.. y'know those kind wif wheels.. cos i'm a considerate tenant *ahem* i don wan to bang a paku on phek joo's walls. i've been wearing contact lens wif my instinct n urrgghh... very mang zang.. it's reli hard to fit it onto ur iris properly esp when u r kinda groggy in the morning. and and.. my hair. my clothes. do i look fine? i seriously dunno. see! need to get mirror.

mirror aside, i need to get a hi-fi! live w/o music seriously sucks. juz realise that the music library in my laptop is kinda pathetic. n youtubing is reli a pain in my arse. by the time i finished blogging.. the song is not even 50% loaded. *vomit blood* no mood to youtube watsoever. reli crave for those high end hi-fi but i cudn't afford. so price muz b reasonable wif gud sound quality cos i need to blast tmn sg abong indah wif nirvana neil young n sum psychedelic rock stuff, muz b able to fit into the car boot.. bla bla.. i juz wan to get a nice hi-fi asap.

my room is seriously in need of these 2 things. do check out for me!

week 2 & 3

n there i was at inpatient.. or better known as far.ma.si. be.ka.lan. wad. blardy hell that's 7 sukukata altgt! it juz get on my nerves when i'm on the phone...

at 1st i'll go helo! selamat pagi! farmasi bekalan wad! *enthusiatic tone* to

helo! farmasi bekalan wad. *sopan tone* to

halo. farmasi.. *boh mood tone* to

ya.. farmasi.. *tak syok tone*

n on bad days.. halo.
then let the nurse go on blabbing n then she'll stop at 1point n ask eh ni farmasi bekalan wad kan? then only i'll reply ya. keke only 3 sukukata.. ha.lo... ya.

there goes my enthusiam. there were juz TOO MANY calls!!! deng! it's so irritating. i need to stop watever i'm doing get up from the chair walk down to the phone take msg pass the msg then come back to my seat again n pick up those prescriptions that r scattered on the floor bcos the fan juz blew them away bcos v at far.ma.si. be.ka.lan. wad don have air-cond!

nurses r damn kacau k! not like they call everytime for anything urgent or wat.. n 40% of the calls were asking for mr. tan like hey i know his da' man in inpatient dpt, juz call directly to da man's room la! damn I'M NOT a RECEPTIONIST!

wat i do? record new prescriptions or sambung bekalan/ floor stock into the comp then fill the rite drugs into the rite sampul. ya it's pretty mundane. *yawn yawn* even masalah polypharmacy can b detected by the comp. so wat i've been doing is juz calling the wad nurses y r they giving ranitidine n pantoprazole tgt.. n they'll alwiz tell u oh doctor sudah off pantoprazole la... oiii!! then y did u send in both the sambung bekalan sampul n the new presciptions tgt in the 1st place!

special thanx to yeong ru n boon chuan who taught me from abc 123 to the xyz of how things work at far.ma.si. be.ka.lan. wad from day1. if not for them i'll b COMPLETELY LOST. muar has a lot of gud souls u know. *batu pahat prps i'm talking to u*

n our boss mr .tan is another nice but stressed out frp. he'll suddenly sit down n test ur knowledge abt the antibiotics n i'll either hentam a bit or go 'erm... *trying to think very hard but act i don even need to think cos i KNOW that I DUNNO*... erm.. bu zhi dao... or wang ji le... or hao xiang you ting guo... haha wtf. then he'll say nx time don key in the prescriptions blindly... uncle! the pembantu say v were very slow liao leh! no time for this! btw, he's considered the moz eligible bachelor for hos.pi.tal. pa.kar. sul.ta.nah. fa.ti.mah.'s std. so he's a hot item between cyee n hming muahaha.

don get me wrong . i'm very happy in there=) time passed very fast in far.ma.si. be.ka.lan. wad cos i've been bz all the time but the great thing is u'll stil get to breathe... curicuri munch a snack bar in the pantry.. chatting wif colleagues n pembantu. it'll turn to slow pace during the afternoon n that's when it's quite relaxing.

but i seem to work overtime compare to the outpatient prps cos blardy nurses have the bad habit of sending in their prescriptions at 4.45pm... n sumtimes tepat tepat at 5pm! oi! y buli us lidat! but v pharmacist sayang our patients=) so even if it's 5pm... v stil dispense the drugs.

as for drama, it'as as gud as zero. the only time when i got a bit pening was when wad 6 n icu requested for bactigras AT THE SAME TIME, n both for URGENT CASES. n then v at far.ma.si. be.ka.lan. wad only have 1 MISERABLE BOX which contains only 10 patches! damn kao cham ok!

in the end i open up the box n give 5 to wad 6, 5 to icu. n then pinjam another box from satelite so at last it's 15 patches for icu. BUT THEN, heard that it's for a patient who's got his WHOLE BODY BURNT! for gudness' sake, i dunno wat's the size of the patient, imagine wat can 15 miserable patches do???!!! can't even cover 20% of the fella's body. i juz felt VERY. SORRY.

that's y.. prp in hpsf has the 'privilege' of getting another kind of training that i bet prp from other hosp wil not have. BEGGING for drugs!! seriously weh! v r this poor ok. everytime hosp melaka, tangkak n batu pahat pick up the phone, juz by hearing the word hosp MUar, they so wanna yell buggers, v don have drugs for u!! or hang up immediately. pathetic rite? guess at the end of this 1 yr, i'll b acquiring a new skill keke.

the birth of a baby is celebrated. the death of an old man is mourned. it's happening within 2 days in my maternal family. wat an irony. i tried to walk down memory lane, searching for those moments v shared wif him.. ya v had gatherings in taiping on cny n his bday. but i nvr reli have a nice chat wif him, nvr hold his hand n stroll in the park. i felt bad. then i cudn't attend the entire funeral procession.. n not doing my part as a granddaughter, now i'm feeling VERY bad.

i took only 1 day's leave to pay my last respect. for the 1st time in my life, seeing a dead body lying inside a coffin rite in front of me, tot it's gonna b scary but when i look at that peaceful face, all i felt was calm n serene. it's a relief that he passed away w/o much pain n suffering. yes, v din shed a tear bcos u told us not to. r.i.p grandpa.

human beings r claustrophobic in general, well at least i am. but come to think abt it, u were enveloped in ur mom's womb when u were stil a foetus, but u r not realising it. n when u die, u'll b enclosed in a coffin, oso nvr realising it. so.. wat am i trying to say.. i dunno. juz having sum tots.. not to deep.. n juz feeling weird.. yeah.. yet again.

working as a pharmacist: week 1

MON

to those who think that i can nvr b the 1st to reach jabatan kesihatan johor *wink wink mying i'm talking abt u*, i was the 1st!! *issh bangganya!* ok 2nd.. cos peiling was like few secs earlier than me. it was 7.30am. sat in front of the bz-chatting staffs but were treated like sum transparent beings wth. watta do.. not their work time yet.

n u know wat... come 8am batchmates started to flock in. like oiiii.... my crafty display of kiasuism serves no purpose at all in the end! finally they distribute the borang. suddenly v were like on AMAZING RACE. every1 was convinced that the posting was on 1st come 1st serve basis. every1 wans to b the earliest to report at menara sarawak (which was 5 mins away from jabatan kesihatan johor)! it's like pitting against each other to get the hosp of ur choice! well or izzit juz kiasuLin haha... so gan jiong u know. *STRESS gau gau*

after handing in the borang (DENG!!! only to fill in 1 page of borang!!! babi!!! y can't v fill in ALL the borang in menara sarawak at 1 go n not let us drive around!!! the office boy can go over to collect wif his bike ok!!!) i rushed down only to find that my kao fu hadn't arrive to fetch me to menara sarawak.

*panick* man i'm in a race!! n the funny thing is that i was the 1st but now i was the LAsT.... LAST!!! can u imagine it??!! wat if i can't get muar?? *panick attack*

luckily pfong gave a lift to menara sarawak. muahahaha how vain i was. the posting was conducted in the same session. n eventually, every1 was happy to get the hosp of their choice. i got MUAR.. *leganya* which is like 2 hrs away from my home sweet home. which is y i make myself so kiasu in the 1st place but act i don even need 1 bit of kiasuism to get it haha.

n i tot i'm gonna sleep in sum kinda creepy hotel in muar or tumpang like a parasite at sum1's place. it's absolutely RIDICULOUS that v only get to know the hosp on the very day u lapor diri AND expect u to work on the very same day AND expect ppl from outstation like me to find a proper accommodation IMMEDIATELY.. blardy stupid inconsiderate garvehmen!

manatau that day my lucky star was twinkling ever so brightly! apparently pj got a house in muar, n i get to sewa a room from him. a big room! n his house got all the facilities a tenant can dream of (even huiming is so tempted!). omg! it's settled IN A DAY! eh so EASY y am i worrying in the 1st place!

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n that's how i ended up in muar. the hosp that i'm working is hosp pakar sultanah fatimah. i don understand y they wan to change from the simple hosp muar to a name so la gao like this... fatimah... juz hear the name oso know tak efficient adi. n pakar... kononnya.

it's a hosp where v have INSUFFICIENT budget to buy drugs so patients end up blaming pharmacist for not supplying all their medicines. where patient lose their patience n throw colorful words like CCB at u cos they have to wait 1 to 2 hrs to for their turn. where sum1 tak boleh tahan anymore n write to the column of berita harian to complain abt its lack of medicines' supply. where hardworking n efficient pharmacists like me r working but stil cud't make things any better.

n it's a hosp wif 7 day back to back NIGHT SHIFTS ahhhhh! ok ok i heard that it's easy n stressless to work at nite. but huuuuuu.... i takut hantu! how la lidat?? i won dare to go to the toilet!! but i can't possibly tahan my bladder for 11 hrs rite! huuuuuu... n need to work on weekend oso can't go back kl. n i'll have sleeping probs.. like jet lag.. then my biological clock wil go haywire.. then pimples all over my face. ahhhh! so not looking forward to it.

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TUES-THURS

in STOR department. i was pretty much like a storekeeper clerk secretary assistant officeboy. photostating faxing double checking, running errands for my senior,... count dd stock, supply dd, keep the key to d locker, call pharmaceutical companies, type borang pesanan.. nvr ending documenting work.. 1 leg kick.

my senior frp is a CHINESE.. so v jiang hua yu! yeh yeh! can communicate easily which leads to greater efficiency!! she's fast furious but stil keeping her cool when under pressure from everywhere. being an frp in stor is reli a sucky job. it's ur fault when hosp got not enuf medicine but padahal it's the blardy garvehmen who din allocate budget properly. neh neh those big portions go to hkl n hsa lo. BOOO.

she's very nice. she'll ejek me when i do things slowly... not that i don wan to b efficient... i'm blur, not gud wif m. excel, have sucky short term memory n digest verbal instructions slowly!! when my stomach is growling she'll offer me CHOCOLATE!!

1 day i was being fidgety as usual.. SUDDENLY... my leg accidentally kick the computer's power supply n the comp black out immediately n SHIT i need to retype everything i juz did! instead of scolding me like a zhue tau bing, she said that i'm the moz 'cho loh' prp she's ever seen in her life. muahahahaha... only 2nd day working wif her she knows i'm cho loh adi! smart ah. normally ppl used to b deceived by my innocent face keke.

n u know u r this new kid on the block. need to introduce urself sumtimes when u work wif other ppl. n then it's alwiz ppl get reli confused, whether they shud start their conversation wif me in malay english or mandarin. it's alwiz... u mix ke? u keturunana BABA ke? after introducing myself, it's alwiz like 'oh CINA ke? ingat MELAYU ni... ISSSSHHHH!

it's damn funny to c their embarassed face when they mistaken my race. *slabbing my face wif extra generous amount of skin whitening lotion as i'm typing this wakaka*

FRI

well this is the best part of working in garvehmen sector. 2 n half hrs of lunch break! woot can u blif it! went to a jap restaurant... not bad got aircond on a hot sunny n can refill green tea til it turns to colorless tea. n the greatest thing is they have seats where u need to take off ur shoes!! smelly tired bruised feet can finally get out of the socks n breathe sum fresh air! *godsent to my toes* n they serve gud bibimbab too! it's reli great for muar's std u know.

bought bus ticket. reach office like 3 oredi. imagine only left 2 hrs to finish ur stuff! of course can't finish la. in the end i ot for half an hr DENG! time to get out was 6.15pm. haha quite stupid oso. i count count the time.. eh stil can bathe. so i fast fast bathe, change n was on the go by 6.15 lo. but... after u wear shoe reverse car close the gate wait at the junction make a few turns to another tmn, wait at junction again, stuck awhile at town.. it's oredi 6.30pm by the time v reach the station.

n u know wat!!! v freaking MISS the 6.30pm transnational bus!!

the counter told us it's 6.33pm now... pffff the bus had taken off at 6.30pm! kanasai since when msia's bus so punctual 1! my phone was stil 6.30pm lo *follow punch card time*. AHhhhhhheeyoyo! how can i miss the bus?? then the freaking transnational lady told us to KEJAR BAS! w/o knowing which direction v asked pj to kejar down the road hahaha.. NO not initial D style.. it's like driving to the mamak near ur house style... - _ -l l l... v don need 3 master of pharmacy graduates to figure out that IT'S IMPOSSIBLE TO KEJAR lo!!!

went back to get another bus.. hasry.. the very bus that hming told us that it's not reliable. dammit.. v both tot it's mayang sari!! cos v remembered sth like 'areee' haha.

reli very sry to angeline. bcos of ME, she missed the bus. boh mood. wasted rm16. reached home more than an hr later than expected. all my life only know how to trouble ppl n leave ppl wif bad impression. seeeee! char siew! arrgggghhh!

that nite i slept on my comfy-pigsy bed in my the PIG STY. yieeepieee!
the weekend was great. nvr too tired to tell every1 all the stories n dramas. AND i practised driving.

SUN

back to muar... *goldfish eye* again

it's kinda weird

i can't sleep but i'm feeling very calm n zenny. ah heck, y izzit so...

i'm looking at the pile of boxes n luggages n bags lining on the floor. yeh i pretty much lug everything in my room except the furnitures. *perempuan!* 3 months later, n i'm packing again. this sucks! it's 95% done rite now, at 12.56am. ni la padah nya to pack last min.

shud i bring along my tilam? rice cooker? pots? ahh =SiLai Lin= in da house. nah, didn't bring any of those tho i wish to.

going off to jb tomolo. so that i can lapor diri on monday once the kementerian kesihatan johor buka pintu. *kiasuism at its best* so that i'll b posted to muar. so that i can go back to kl effortlessly every weekend. che wa 1st time in my life so homesick!

all this while, i live by the motto "when the ship goes near the bridge it'll b straight". *uh i don mean it literally, translate in cantonese la pls* i'm alwiz the last person to worry n i'm lucky that things kinda fall in place.

but now.. huuuu.. 1st time in my life i'm facing so many uncertainties. i dunno where i'll b posted. i dunno where i'll b staying. i dunno whether wil i get to rent a clean, strategic room in the heart of muar so that i can walk to the hospital, eating place n the shopping complex bcos i can't drive n i don have a car. n yeh.. i'm working.. wif no inkling on wat i'm gonna deal wif.. wif only a wee bit of memory on things i've studied bcos my brain is pretty much occupied by memories of my europe trips. i'm so gonna get scolded from my seniors bcos of my stupidity.

la la la la la la.

scared? not yet.

things juz haven't kick in yet! issh issh issh y do i alwiz lack the sense of urgency.

but when things start to kick in... OMG! i'm so gonna have a panick attack. i'll freak out more than any1 else. i'll b soo damn nervous until i can cry non stop. yeh i used to cry everytime skool reopen, from kindergarten to imu. not in glasgow tho cos i felt like i was on vacation haha.

i can foresee myself having swollen goldfish eyes every monday morning! buuuhuuuuhuuuuu. y am i such a crybaby.

ok stop blabbing. i'm juz trying to say i'm feeling............. weird.