i miss... GLASGOW

my emotion had been taking a rollercoaster ride for these past few weeks... well moz part of the ride actually felt more like a deep plunge, n my heart's sinking.

n juz like any ride.. i wan to SCREAM!!! ahhhhhh.. until my lungs burn.


like that's not enuf to crush my insanity, here i am.. facing the fact that i'm gonna move to another stage of my life. being the chicken wif battered self esteem n diminishing confidence.. yes, i do fear. the only reason that's keeping me enthusiastic abt work is.. financial independence. aikks where's the passion of a noble pharmacist who's willing to go to ulu places to serve the underprivileged ones?? passion. enthusiam. wth..

heard frens kena kelantan, sarawak. n juz when u so gan jiong where u'll b posted, u got another update that those r invalid. no more news on posting. u juz gotta wait. WAIT. y am i put in such helpless position again?

huuuuu..... things r not moving on the rite track.

u seek solace.. in those ppl u trust n oso.. in the beautiful past.

whether they make me move on or stay stagnant in my life, i do cling on to memories. n the beautiful memories that i have in this recent yr r... the many wonderful trips around europe, the road to graduation n of course, the place that i grew fond of after staying for a yr...

THAT ROOM.. small, untidy, but warm n cosy=) oh, n wif a WINDOW=)

susah payah cari my pic folders but can't find a photo of my luvly window! arrggh.. how can i take my luvly window for granted?? i shud've camwhore wif it to my heart's content!

luckily i stil have pics of the VIEW from my luvly window.






the sky at summer 9.30pm.




autumn





winter


one day after watching drama... my eyes got tired so i turned around. rmb i was in room3 so the window wil b on the left. whoa!! *i was exclaiming* *full of surprise~* the trees out there suddenly caught my eyes. since when the leaves grow back again??!!

n that's when i smell the arrival of sweet spring.

such r the wonders of my luvly window. it's not a mere window, it's my connection to the outer world... sunny day, gloomy day, peaceful night, chilly night. i kiss the sun, the rain, the breeze, the wind, the gale, the hail n the snow. looking at the luvly sky n breathing in fresh air, it either sent me daydreaming, or pondering over random to intimate thoughts. BLISS=)

i felt that i was embraced by nature's arms even when i was in my pig sty. i nvr draw my blinds. the moon n the stars accompany me to sleep. n my soul wil wander into slumberland once i curl inside my duvet. the sun shines in the morning, it's luvly but i nvr bother, i was juz so reluctant to leave my bed. BLISS=) oh.. i miss that bed.

ahh.. baka! yet again.. i took that bed for granted n don have a pic of it.

#a conversation wif peiling today had reminded me that i reli saw bigger n rounder moon in glasgow. as the saying goes, wai guo de yue liang bi jiao yuan. it's true! muahaha~#

n i hate the fact that i din reli take time to walk n get lost in glasgow. i've nvr taken other paths in glasgow apart from those leading me to grocery n clothes shopping. i wish i can get to know this city n the ppl more. in fact, i wish i can have more time in scotland. more time to check out other quaint towns. more time for adventurous trips to explore the scottish highland.. the isles, the lochs n the mountains. i let this 1 yr slip past me so easily. i regretted, i juz can't get enuf of scotland. regret. wth.

i wish i can lie on the green carpety grassland more often. i miss the grass.

blame the speedy internet connection. i was so thrilled by the speed of loading movies n drama series n youtube that i was so glued to my laptop.

my beloved cup

my workplace/ entertainment corner



hehe... illegal stuff.. like hanging sockes over heater. showing ya socks instead of the usual panties. don wan to make my entry look tak senonoh.... well act, i damn paiseh to let ppl c my auntie panties wakaka!




fooling wif the light wif my cacat toes. had get used to studying under yellow light by then.

look!! that snackie rack!! forever stock up wif walkers n pringles! nvr empty. ahh watching drama while munching chips.. BLISS=)

MIRROR mirror on the wall.. who's the late to class queen of P105??

tadah!! she's the late to class queen of P105. (as quoted from ti3nd.blogspot.com). kekeke....

wa so ugly... i mean the jackets hanging on the papan! ok i oso mean the perempuan in the mirror.

ah got a glimpse of my bed... so precious.

1st time got mirror in my room. so convenient! can squeeze pimples whenever i turn my head to the left.


i miss life in G7-3, jbc, glasgow, scotland.

i miss the freedom.

i miss the time i had wif the gals. i miss gossiping wif them.

i miss the time i had wif dear. i miss seeing him everyday.




BACK TO KL


there was time when i fill up my water bottle wif tap water only realising later that i was no longer in scotland.

i miss that luxury of drinking fresh water from the tap.


n then... there's this inefficient transport network. waiting for the lrt or ktm is reli pain in the arse. when i'm out on the streets, i'll b so paranoid, either clutching my handbag tightly or observing whether there r any sickening goldfish man lurking around the dark corner. *stress gao gao*

i miss the days i roam abt sauchiehall, buchanan n argyll then back to jbc alone... n feeling secured. oh talk abt security.


these r all my precious memories which i can't afford to lose. it's been 2 months since i bid farewell to scotland. but it felt like so long ago. i'm afraid that i'll forget this part of my life, few yrs or even months down the road. i hope i can eternalise this piece of memory in my heart n in this entry. in case 1 day i have senile dementia.

it's too beautiful to forget.

Paralympics n Olympics

this morning read the star, came to know that msia won a bronze medal tru powerlifter siow lee chan. *clap clap!*


hoo-hah frontpage material wif catchy line like POWER BRONZElifter in big big font..

lei zau siong..

it's featured at page 2 nia. cos nowadays definitely effortlessly got bigger n more shocking news. but nvmla she got 100k. not bad wor.


well act i got an unfinished entry abt olympics i wrote at sum bloody hot afternoon back then. but i din finish it long after the olympics so decided not to finish it anyway. like wat for rite.. posting super duper outdated entry takda feel la, jin beh syok.

hence the birth of this entry. at least those bits din go to waste kaka. see i'm gud at RECYCLING.... not only plastic bottles n papers.. hoho so proud of myself.


btw, i tot astro wil show bits of the paralympics... if not the event itself at least highlights of the events la or at least opening ceremony. so hook on to opening ceremonies since BEIJING OLYMPICS... absolutely flawless display of artsy bigsy performances.

i luv:

.. the opening where they countdown wif the beatings of those square drums.

.. 5 olympic rings was lifted from 2D to 3D.

.. scroll unfolds.

.. the dancers draw wif they body as they move gracefully.

.. the boxes shuffle to form the word 'he' n the youths pop out in the end.

.. the taichi mega circle .

.. the mega ship wif the mega oar.

.. those cute lil children sing.. it's kinda controversial... the super duper cute gal was act lip synching. n the poor gal who act sang was not chosen cos she's not cute enuf. aww... like so sad rite.. i think it's unhealthy.. to this lil gal who grow up wif this thing haunting her.. n to the entire image-obsessed society. so the best thing is.. let both gals take the centrestage tgt la keke.

.. that every athlete lent their footsteps to finish up the pc of drawing which was drawn bits by bits from the beginning.

.. the dramatic torchlighting.

.. the li yi xiao jie in the finest gowns.

.. zhang yi mou. luv him since the days of 'yi ge dou bu neng shao' up til 'hero' but lost respect to him when he caught the martial art fever, esp that golden glittery flashy cleavage-overloaded flick (forgot wat name).

all held in this jawdropping bird's nest. i'm not an architect, but after watching on tv how it was build.. i can say this is architecture brilliance!

all in all.. at this enourrrmous scale.. it's pure magic!!

this is wat a nation wif population of dunno how many billion can do when every1 unites!
n this is where my ancestors come from.. wo de zu guo.. *bangga bangga*

was glued to the tv everyday watching artistic then rhythmic gymnastics. dreamt to b a gymnast since i was a lil gal haha, graceful n yet full of thrills kan. mom say wil break bones wor. so i had to forget abt it when i aged n all i can manage is a yat zi ma.. boo. anyway i was soo attracted to the poise of nastia liukin.

n oso basketball!!.. only when either all star dream team usa or wo de zu guo china was playing. man it's ever so entertaining to see power lebron james up against yao ming.. whom the broadcaster described as a WALKING great wall of china. muahaha.

n of course following n supporting lee chong wei tru to the finals. chance for gold is quite slim la but i expect it to b like 21-19, 19-21, 21-19 which wud send my adrenaline pumping to the max fuyoh.

unfortunately it's not even close. lcw is fun to watch, consider moz talented n all rounded in my time, pandai 'yam' haha. but he's up against the dynamito.. lin dan! that cockiness. that perfect skillz. powerr gilerr. samo had to wear bicep-showing shortsleeves! wa *drools drools drools!*

but the fate of paralympics is not so gud. less sponsors. no live telecast, not even delayed. frankly, am i interested to watch any paralympic event? i dunno, nvr watch bfor. but 1 thing's for sure tho, there r no heartthrobs or superstars to attract viewership. *sigh* this is reality. hope that sum day they deserve more than this.

cuteness n stupidity

bsides BOREDOM, guess these r the nouns that pretty much wrap up my past week. eh~~ i act blog almoz on a weekly basis hehe.


oh n oso HAPPY MID AUTUMN FESTIVAL!!

suggested mom to cook asam laksa on this merry day. yalar it's bit of going against tradition but who cares, it's the semangat of tuen yuen that counts. n hor mom's buntut dah kembang teehee... cos her asam laksa tastes like those famous penang asam laksa che wah n wat's more.. it's so fishy! ah the beauty of homecook food... ZHENG.



let's get to the cutesy part.

1. wall.e=cute=sweet=lovey dovey

i luv the movie.. don reli care abt the msg, duh like i dunno! i wud've become an environmental campaigner had i not study pharmacy. wat strike me was the chemistry between wall.e n eve.

it's so simple! thumbs up for pixar AGAIN! n y'know wat.. u don need long witty dialogues to make the characters come to live! all those actions n gestures juz speak it all... even fire extinguisher can b a tool de amour kaka! n wth, even robots can b more romantic than ur bf. how la lidat.


2. my cousin- daniel. lil kids r alwiz cute but he's EXTRA cute. imagine a 3 yr old sneeze 'hah chee' n in a moz cutesiest tone, he said oh~ excuse me wif an innocent smile.

aww.. sooo amusing!!! aih make me wanna melt.

the manners, is wat's missing in many grown ups n the innocence, is wat's lost in every grown up. oh kids r juz so enlightening sumtimes...

++++

went to hkl for medical check up cos it's foc, cos my parents pay tax. smart consumer yeh i am. i tot i was even smarter to bring along a mag. n gee... it was my turn after i've read only 1 page! *surprise surprise.



stupidity

1. ms. nurse gave me a papan wif this shape.
apa ni?

then she brought me to a small room for eye check up. was told to close my left eye n read the alphabets on the board. so i used my HAND to cover my eyes.

ms. nurse: eh bukan guna tangan!! *wif the look that she's not seen such stupid ppl for a very long time*

ahhhh~~~ soh desu neh. so that's the function of that papan i was holding all this while. kakaka. i'm not blonde nor busty, y am i so stupid????


2. i peed into the 2 bottles. tighten the cap. shait! i haven't fill up my name. aikks writing ur name on a cylindrical surface which may b contaminated by ur own urine was juz arrgghh!


3. primary skool fren ajak me to have tea, literally. after calling n searching, his car was finally at my doorstep. i saw his car, waved n open the grill door. then i continued watching a taiwanese entertainment show.


......................

20 mins passed.

ya he called. n at that very moment i realised... ALAMAK! so there's a miscommunication.. or rather.. my stupidity. i was expecting my fren to COME IN my house for tea haha n i juz din care y he hadn't come in all this while.. i was juz glued to the tv show.

n for that 20 mins, 1st he tot i was changing. but wth changing won take THAT long.. takkan i put on makeup rite.. so he tot i muz b having a shower, since he knew i damn muka tembok can let fren wait lidat haha.

finally he lost his patience at the 20th min his bladder was on the brink of BURSTING. i think he reli wan to bang his head on the stering when i said i was act watching tv show while waiting him to come in. WAKAKA.


aiyoyo... i grow fungus at home. lost touch wif msian culture. lack exposure to buzzling life of kl. lack the communication wif ppl. see i forgot that have tea wif fren act means GO OUT n have tea wif fren.


anyway no matter how stupid i've become, given the scenario of a yong soi lou who label chinese akin to jewish, a reporter who reports that, an MP n a blogger, at least i can stil tell who shud b thrown to ISA detention. now who's threatening racial harmony? n who's being more stupid? *a big sigh*

++++++

BOREDOM is like poison. it slows ur organs' function. it burns ur neurones. it numbs ur senses. it took away my COMMON SENSE.

man i'm alwiz afraid to come back to this state of life... mundane, powerless. i got no money no car no full control in life. i'll go berserk depressed jaded! HELP! ya whining patheticly like a loser that's all i know. LOoooSER!


916: wil the government change? i hope. sum batchmates wil start work, i wish them luck. more badminton session wif neng, but she's back to taiwan. more steamboat session wif secondary skool frens, but they r bz. anyhow theres' stil many things to look forward to.

i shall b a motivated person tmrw=)

rainy saturday n the tale of luen mou lin

gloomy, lazy n stil sick. after back in kl, i alwiz feel BLOATED, itchy n sleepy. n on the 4th week, my immune system kena k.0-ed by flu bug. been healthy truout a yr abroad, but shui tu bu fu in my own country?!.. how farnee is that ~issh~


dear's opinion: i've been eating frozen, almoz expired or expired food for a yr n suddenly now i'm eating nice fresh food, my GI system has a hard time adapting... ya rite.
i think: cos i din bring back glasgow's yummy water to campur wif kl water... HA-HA. (my fren once told me that drinking the mixture is the way to cure shui tu bu fu, like.. R U SERIOUS??!!).


i blog today for a sole purpose - to keep me from sleeping (got up at 12pm sleep again at 3pm) keke. yalar i reli got nth better to do in life. arrgghh damn sien lo! THEN..
i rmb a request by minti3n, that name who unintentionally cause so many confusions n jokes. here's his comment on my previous previous post... ei show one picture of your new image :P


dang! it juz hit me that i'm such a LOUSY blogger!

moz bloggers have photos for EVERY lil detail, it's like they already have the entire blogpost in their mind the moment they start to take those shots! n they have a topic to write cos their life is so eventful. *salute salute. see..

1. usually, there's not even 1 miserable photo in my post, cos:

a) LAZY.. adding photos is damn ma fan! slows me down n wastes my time.

b) i juz feel very kekok taking pics of myself.

i shy shy camwhoring is defly not my kinda thing y'know. that oso explain y am i so impatient when i c ppl spending soo much time taking pics wif the SAME damn background. wat for??!!
i reli don understand lo! like how kim hoe n darren can nvr understand y v go toilet every half hr in amsterdam wakaka...


2. usually, i don have a clear point on wat i wan to write. so the beginning of my post may not b related to the ending of my post. sumtimes i read back i like to add in bits that i forgot.. cos i luv to rmb those lil details in life. randomness, i like=) alas it turns out to b another cheong hei rojak post.


ok ok watever, back to tien's request.


here's a story.


Once upon a time, there's a short hair gal called luen mou lin who had several encounters where ppl mistaken her as a BOY! my gudness. but can't blame those lao hua uncle auntie cos she's got no big boobs to prove them wrong wth. when she finished secondary skool she decided to keep long hair. however those unruly frizzy long hair failed to boost her feminity, it's only gud as a low grade broom. *sigh*

1 day she was introduced to rebonding n holy shait, it worked wonders! yeh whoever who created this thing called rebonding, THANK U! u saved luen mou lin from the days of siu fong fong-in-her-80's!! ppl.. don u dare laugh at luen mou lin again muahaha.


well yrs later, she got tired of flat straight hair. n now, luen mou lin is back to being luen mou lin again!... wif bigger n puffier curls. woohoo.


-THE END-


ta-dah!




shan, u say u din get to c the bear bouquet, here's it. keke... cute kan? i bought it from shan's auntie, cos v dah fren sangat after 19 days of touring tgt kaka... the moz sampat florist i've ever known. oiii this sound so advertorial... i shud b paid for this man!!



wif a level ji muis at pavillion.

i have 3 similar photos here. it's bcos i wan u to look at them, stare at them, NEH~ these r those naughty fan cheongs who laugh at luen mou lin 1 lo. so bad hor...








n bfor that i alwiz wonder y my curls r so messy n out of place. yalar those frizz r inborn 1, i know i can't have smooth silky sleek hair, that's oredi a fact that i can't bother to change. even s'teng was curious how come my curls turn out to b so different. notice that 2 big SPRINGS hanging there??

after sum discussions wif pfong n guys, mystery solved. *jeng jeng* the reason lies in the way i make my hair everyday after i shower!! i tot, to maintain those curls i need to twist them wif my lil finger. so i TWIST vigorously, hence the 2 big springs wakaka! all i need to do is simply crunch my hair, not twist wif fingers for god's sake. muahaha... sumtimes i can b very stupid.

hmm does the word crunch even exist. i assume it does, cudn't bother to check dicitonary.


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