n juz like any ride.. i wan to SCREAM!!! ahhhhhh.. until my lungs burn.
like that's not enuf to crush my insanity, here i am.. facing the fact that i'm gonna move to another stage of my life. being the chicken wif battered self esteem n diminishing confidence.. yes, i do fear. the only reason that's keeping me enthusiastic abt work is.. financial independence. aikks where's the passion of a noble pharmacist who's willing to go to ulu places to serve the underprivileged ones?? passion. enthusiam. wth..
heard frens kena kelantan, sarawak. n juz when u so gan jiong where u'll b posted, u got another update that those r invalid. no more news on posting. u juz gotta wait. WAIT. y am i put in such helpless position again?
huuuuu..... things r not moving on the rite track.
u seek solace.. in those ppl u trust n oso.. in the beautiful past.
whether they make me move on or stay stagnant in my life, i do cling on to memories. n the beautiful memories that i have in this recent yr r... the many wonderful trips around europe, the road to graduation n of course, the place that i grew fond of after staying for a yr...
THAT ROOM.. small, untidy, but warm n cosy=) oh, n wif a WINDOW=)
susah payah cari my pic folders but can't find a photo of my luvly window! arrggh.. how can i take my luvly window for granted?? i shud've camwhore wif it to my heart's content!
luckily i stil have pics of the VIEW from my luvly window.
the sky at summer 9.30pm.
one day after watching drama... my eyes got tired so i turned around. rmb i was in room3 so the window wil b on the left. whoa!! *i was exclaiming* *full of surprise~* the trees out there suddenly caught my eyes. since when the leaves grow back again??!!
n that's when i smell the arrival of sweet spring.
such r the wonders of my luvly window. it's not a mere window, it's my connection to the outer world... sunny day, gloomy day, peaceful night, chilly night. i kiss the sun, the rain, the breeze, the wind, the gale, the hail n the snow. looking at the luvly sky n breathing in fresh air, it either sent me daydreaming, or pondering over random to intimate thoughts. BLISS=)
i felt that i was embraced by nature's arms even when i was in my pig sty. i nvr draw my blinds. the moon n the stars accompany me to sleep. n my soul wil wander into slumberland once i curl inside my duvet. the sun shines in the morning, it's luvly but i nvr bother, i was juz so reluctant to leave my bed. BLISS=) oh.. i miss that bed.
ahh.. baka! yet again.. i took that bed for granted n don have a pic of it.
#a conversation wif peiling today had reminded me that i reli saw bigger n rounder moon in glasgow. as the saying goes, wai guo de yue liang bi jiao yuan. it's true! muahaha~#
n i hate the fact that i din reli take time to walk n get lost in glasgow. i've nvr taken other paths in glasgow apart from those leading me to grocery n clothes shopping. i wish i can get to know this city n the ppl more. in fact, i wish i can have more time in scotland. more time to check out other quaint towns. more time for adventurous trips to explore the scottish highland.. the isles, the lochs n the mountains. i let this 1 yr slip past me so easily. i regretted, i juz can't get enuf of scotland. regret. wth.
i wish i can lie on the green carpety grassland more often. i miss the grass.
blame the speedy internet connection. i was so thrilled by the speed of loading movies n drama series n youtube that i was so glued to my laptop.
my beloved cup
my workplace/ entertainment corner
hehe... illegal stuff.. like hanging sockes over heater. showing ya socks instead of the usual panties. don wan to make my entry look tak senonoh.... well act, i damn paiseh to let ppl c my auntie panties wakaka!
fooling wif the light wif my cacat toes. had get used to studying under yellow light by then.
look!! that snackie rack!! forever stock up wif walkers n pringles! nvr empty. ahh watching drama while munching chips.. BLISS=)
MIRROR mirror on the wall.. who's the late to class queen of P105??
tadah!! she's the late to class queen of P105. (as quoted from ti3nd.blogspot.com). kekeke....
wa so ugly... i mean the jackets hanging on the papan! ok i oso mean the perempuan in the mirror.
ah got a glimpse of my bed... so precious.1st time got mirror in my room. so convenient! can squeeze pimples whenever i turn my head to the left.
i miss life in G7-3, jbc, glasgow, scotland.
i miss the freedom.
i miss the time i had wif the gals. i miss gossiping wif them.
i miss the time i had wif dear. i miss seeing him everyday.
BACK TO KL
there was time when i fill up my water bottle wif tap water only realising later that i was no longer in scotland.
i miss that luxury of drinking fresh water from the tap.
n then... there's this inefficient transport network. waiting for the lrt or ktm is reli pain in the arse. when i'm out on the streets, i'll b so paranoid, either clutching my handbag tightly or observing whether there r any sickening goldfish man lurking around the dark corner. *stress gao gao*
i miss the days i roam abt sauchiehall, buchanan n argyll then back to jbc alone... n feeling secured. oh talk abt security.
these r all my precious memories which i can't afford to lose. it's been 2 months since i bid farewell to scotland. but it felt like so long ago. i'm afraid that i'll forget this part of my life, few yrs or even months down the road. i hope i can eternalise this piece of memory in my heart n in this entry. in case 1 day i have senile dementia.
it's too beautiful to forget.