JadedJude & SprightlySue

2010-08-09T00:30:00.001+08:00

counting down to the days that i can leave kpl n go back to the peaceful muar... reli can't wait to walk out of this hell 1 day, bid gudbye to those pts drs bss that r alwiz pain in the arse. arrghhhh!!!!

i'm reli thankful to have gone tru my hardest time in jb wif a bunch of reli gud frens. i know i'm very much blessed to have these ppl who reli understand me from inside out, who c pass my shortcomings my sotongness n all the silly mess secondary to my sotongness haha. i'm alwiz so comfortable to b wif them bcos these r the ppl that allow me to b me, my imperfect self. thank u.

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when i c xhui cried i shed a tear too. yes, i wil miss them so much n yes, 3 of us wudn't b eating dinners tgt like this anymore. no matter wat promises made, it wil nvr b the same again.

suddenly i felt that everything may b happening for a reason. ya well i'm posted to johor. i lose sum but i do gain sum, mayb more. hidden territories explored. new friendships formed. this is the nite when i got very emo.. not bcos i'm sad or wat.. juz that suddenly.. i missed all my housemates that i used to stay wif. from glasgow JBC G7 to Tmn Sg Abong Indah 3 to Larkin Residence. all the crazy times v had tgt. all the joke that v poked at each other. i luv u all.

别再去担心我的若无其事
也不用怀疑我嘻哈大笑的背后是否在遮掩什么伤痛
因为你们根本不需要为我承担任何东西。
有你们关心有你们相挺我已经很欣慰了。
我每天都有好好过。
或许不是今天可我总会有完全好过来的一天。

hokkaido!!

2010-07-23T01:35:00.005+08:00

yokoso japan!!

from ultraman to gongqijun to shinchan to bleach to death note to the countless make-me-cry-1L of tears-super-emo japanese dramas to all the sony products in my house to the toyotas, i'm reli mesmerised by japan since i was a kid. tho i got myself in conflict after i went to nanjing yrs ago. but ah.. let history b history..

i'm so in luv wif japan after this hokkaido trip. so in luv!! that i don mind going there for an annual pilgrimage no matter how broke i can get.

tho there's not much to c in hokkaido compared to tokyo, kyoto n other cities, i stil think it's a great. can spend sum quality time wif my family. n thanx to the brilliant tour guide (a msian who's based in japan since his uni life), i've learnt so much abt japan.. the land, the ppl n their culture.. by listening to all his 1st or 2nd hand experiences n moz of them were downrite hilarious due to the cultural clashes.

i began to wonder in those european trips, i c a lot. but wat do i gain apart from all those pics? ask me wat's the name of that building, howz the ppl n culture like... don think i can tell much. is that reli the meaning of travelling? felt like i missed out on sth important. watever let's blame it on the financial n time constraint.

it's a reli cool country wif reli cool ppl tho they quite sei-oi-min n 1-pattern.
man i don c ugly ppl on the street every1 is so well-groomed, hair wif no 1 bit of frizz (jelez betul!) n all wearing clothes n shoes that r to die for.
i can carry my bag feeling very safe n whenever i shop, i get the value that i paid. it's like they reli practice the nilai-nilai murni in moral class.. berhemah tinggi haha.
i'm so impressed wif their ultra clean toilets n nvr ending toilet rolls.. they have these cute buttons for seat heating (this is very syok!), washing n flushing sounds to mask ur embarassment while u r shitting haha.

but the best part is.. amidst the modernity, they stil preserve n uphold their rich culture.

oh wait.. there's stil shopping!! heaven for shoppers!! reli wanna curse my feet for not growing bigger. it's damn disappointing when u can't get the shoes that u reli reli heart juz bcos there's NO SIZE n u know that u definitely won ever find such luvly shoes in msia. kanasai how come my feet so small.

n unlike those shampoo in msia/china hotels that wil tangle n roughen up ur hair, shampoo n conditioners provided in their hotel made my hair felt like silk. omg omg juz wanna throw my shwarzkopf (lazy to google for spelling la watever) into the drain.

the hot bath! lavendar!
n the crab! !scallop! abalone! n kobe beef! walao eh...
samo their education system.
n the great service spirit. HAI! *samurai*

when i touch down klia.. i was so compelled to change things. change the attitude change the mindset the gov the society the country.
it makes me want to put on my biggest smile say hi how r u to my pts... dispense wif my utmost zest answer all their queries n end it wif a thank u.

++ back to kpl, got scolded bcos of no plastic bcos of 1 mth again bcos of jump numbers bcos of long waiting time, wth! screw it man.. samurai spirit can't b applied in msia when our ppl stil act like barbarians.

nvm.. whenever i'm angry or down.. i'll picture myself immersing in the tranquility of that shinto shrine. che wa so zen=)

it's indeed a trip that clear the mind, soul n erm intestines. they serve reli healthy non-oily food over there.

ah i wil get my peace sumday.

n i wil go back to japan again! hopefully nx yr!

2010-07-05T00:41:00.002+08:00

信任这两个字好像没什么太大的意义。

当你最害怕的事真的发生了，到底会是怎样的感觉？
。。原来就是这样。
可能已在预料中，可能真的已身心疲惫到快不行了。。麻木了。懒得去给予任何反应。
没什么。。只是证明了人心的变幻莫测可以很可怕。

曾经看过这样的一句话这门东西就像在剥洋葱，流泪剥到最后才发现是无心的。当时觉得很好笑，现在觉得很贴切。

也不知是有幸还是不幸
虽是多了一份阴影却不必再过那种压迫感十足惶恐不安的日子。

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老爸好像买了索尼α500数码单反相机。
要去日本啦！
要忘记。
要开心=）

2010-06-28T00:06:00.005+08:00

after a hard day at work, v went home n strut our stuff in the kitchen.
v had soysauce chicken. siubakchoy. cabbage soup. yummy=)

the laughters while bitching n the tears while shredding onions..
gosh for a moment it felt like James Blyth Court, it felt like.. Glasgow.
juz diff weather, diff kakis.
b it nostalgia or escapism, it's the moment that v all wan to go back to so badly but v can only look back.

as v eat, v talk abt childhood memories.

rmb that milo truck during sports day or sum random day. u queue up for that precious cup of cold milo n nowhere in the world can milo taste soo refreshing soo happyfying! aww.. the magic truck that served the best milo in the world.. when can v drink from it again?

rmb that brush teeth campaign. on a weekly basis, v all had to squat down by the longkang, brush our teeth n gargle at the old cement basin. brushing technique blabla, it's juz plain fun spitting the toothpaste foam away n gargle wif the cute minnie mouse cup that mom gave me. back then i was more of a fan for komodo, the flavour is so good that i actually EAT my toothpaste instead of brushing my teeth wif it!

i went on talking like they juz happened ytrday, stil so fresh in my mind. they started to test me. haha pc of cake!

wat's the number plate of my skoolbus? 8813, 9054.

wat's the phone number of my fren? oh c'mon i can even rmb that red riding hood sketch/ the hawaiian dance i performed during my kindergarten's annual concert n the lil senseless conversations i had wif my tadika frens.. wat more their housephone numbers.

fuiyoh n so they were reli impressed wif my long term memory power. but they oso pity me cos obviously i've passed my prime wahaha dammit. i can juz walk into the pantri for a quick bite of goreng pisang when 5 secs ago my dispenser told me i had a counselling to do. v went on to joke abt how i've used up moz of the giga/ terabytes when i was young hence now my brain is left wif limited memory space, which kinda explains my extreme blur sotongness kaka.

aww.. all the therapeutic factors for a luvly homecook dinner. n it is this kinda warmth that kept me going. i'm smiling again.

n juz today.. i work tru an evening shift. i hate evening shifts since i got here. it kills my cells n soul. i drove home wif tears welling in my eyes. there r times when u wud wan to hit the accelerator real. hard. feel the thrill n juz forget abt the world n this is it. 'course not, stil have my sanity intact.

got home. as i walked the long pathway from the visitor parking to my block, i had to suppress my tears. there's this weird feeling in my throat again.. like u swallow sth hastily n it got stuck there.. it's juz.. very unpleasant.

i've seen a funeral. i've watched the departure. even the dead is to b treated wif dignity n respect, wat more a living person wif a beating heart, flesh n soul. if u've struggled so hard to swallow the anguish n let go of this shit, if u've plucked up the courage to step forward n make peace, if u have the pure intention of only doing gud, wat wud u feel when u r shunned completely.. completely.. like a dead, like u nvr exist bfor?

.. disturbed.. very disturbed.

y am i nvr given the closure, the ultimate thing that i needed so badly?

up n down. everytime when i tot i can tell the world that i'm fine already, i'm alwiz taken aback by sth, i alwiz have that weird feeling in my throat. ppl think that i'm blessed wif gud memory power but when u have sth in ur head that u rather forget, that u wanna delete once n for all, u don call it a blessing. it juz get stuck in ur head n bring u down.

it's like snake n ladder. oldskool stuff, played a lot when v were kids.

it felt like i was at 97, bum into a long snake n slithered all the way down to 7. i try to climb my way back but this min i got on a short ladder nx min i bum into a snake. n it gets quite devastating cos u can only watch helplessly as the dice rolls. being the luckless me, the dice nvr stop at six or any number that wil get me to a long ladder. i juz cudn't find the shortcuts to seal the game.

ahhh mayb i juz gotta b patient.

i've got nth to lose, reli. play my own game n as the sole player, i need no ladders, juz 1 step at a time. i'll have all the time to bring myself back to 100. juz gotta blif in myself again. think i'm at 57 now.

2010-05-27T00:36:00.011+08:00

终于病倒了。终于累坏了。

十天前女孩依偎在男孩怀里。。拥抱、说笑、依依不舍。。
十天后男孩犹如陌生人冷冷地对女孩说　其实我对你没有感觉了。

十天以内
四百多公里的距离
几通甜言蜜语的电话
几通海誓山盟的短讯
一通晴天霹雳的电话
一通哭得死去活来歇斯底里的电话
一天的冷静
还有几封恐怕是女孩这一生人最读不下去的几封短讯
一个最难过的农历新年

就这样。。。

就这样。。铸成了女孩一世都磨灭不了的阴影。

不可思议。第二次了。
女孩这次又是毫无防备莫名其妙地被同一个男孩狠狠地刺伤了同一个地方。
女孩束手无策，只好武装自己。
她很man地与男孩道别，很若无其事地撑着每一天。

女孩觉得男孩精明成熟
她试着从男孩的角度去消化整个过程
一直安慰自己男孩总该有他的理由。
武装了一些时候不知是沉淀接受事实还是逃避
女孩脑袋里就是有着一千个一百个问号。

她知道
错在她的粗线条她的不拘小节
错在她不善于表面功夫不善于表达
错在她不知要怎么在男孩工作家人朋友自己之间取得平衡点。

女孩从小看戏看到大。
什么勉强没幸福的烂桥段早就在港剧里看腻了早就明白这所谓的道理。
可她就是不明白。。

不要忽冷忽热行吗？
不要什么都隐藏在心里口是心非行吗？
不要践踏别人的自尊行吗？
不要伪装欺骗制造假象行吗？
不要等到事情发展成这个地步才来解决行吗？
面对面说行吗？

都不行。

女孩终日被这些坏情绪困扰着
加上白天工作掏心掏肺为民服务还要让成千的病人与上司压得喘不过气来
深夜里低头哭泣只觉得自己像一坨垃圾。
扯！慢慢地。。觉得越来越痛、越气愤、越心里不平衡。
不知所措自信心被打垮
受够了为什么凡事无所谓的人都会被欺负？
为什么做好人就要跟受委屈画上等号？

女孩真的真的身心疲惫了。
她立志要卸下怨气卸下包袱
潇洒地继续走下去找回自己。
她希望有那么的一天她终于可以释怀了。。
在街上与男孩碰面可以像旧朋友一样寒暄几句给予关怀。
无论男孩以后会是怎样她还是可以诚心地献上祝福。

女孩从来不要求些什么只希望得到一个像样的交代。。
她只需要一份对于彼此的尊重几句真心诚意的话一个肯定
就能刻划出一个圆满的结局。就能卸下包袱。

于是女孩拨通了这个似成相熟的号码心里一片平静。。
可是往往事与愿违以为过了这一天一切会更好
怎知换来的是绝到不堪入耳的话。
女孩真的被逼疯了真的崩溃了。

奇怪为什么从以前到现在都被误会、原意被扭曲？
为什么要恶言以对？！
都已经把人刺得淌血了怎么还可以那么理所当然地再去伤害人？

算了。

错就错在女孩笨到危机临头时还以为风平浪静
以为委屈求全就可以化险为夷
就算走到此地步女孩还是很傻很天真
以为可以退一步海阔天空
以为只要待人真诚人家也会这样对回她。

其实道理很简单当他的心里已经没有她的时候
无论女孩在背后做了一百件为他着想的事他都是不以为然
几句无心的话都会让他觉得刺耳难听
相反地只要是对的人在他的面前不经不意地做了一件不怎么的事他就可以觉得很称心

那究竟何时何刻开始他的心里已没有了她？
嗨想到这里活了那么多年
没有一天比这一天更心寒更心淡

真的很痛。。

2010-04-20T00:21:00.009+08:00

the serene view in nirvana memorial park where a loved one was laid to rest in peace. the sizzling thai steamfish wif ex-colleagues. the tranquility in a luvly apartment wif a switzerland guidebook n chuppa chupps. the high decibel screams on the rollercoasters ride in genting. n the failed hair makeover session where i dyed my virgin hair! have i found my inner peace?

close? .. not even close.

not reli.

NOT YET.

beneath this pale n calm skin, there's a violent turbulence of emotions that's wreaking all the nerves n capillaries n every single damn cell in the body.

i'm alwiz in a state of unrest ever since this compulsory service n posting crap came into my life. muar. not too gud but stil fine. jb. sucks! when.. when can i ever settle down in a place of my choice n carry out all the plans that had to b postponed indefinitely? prp requirements, endless oncalls, now the faraway jb n the arrythmia inducing workload.. i've been dragging this worn out body, travelling upnorth downsouth almoz on a crazy weekly basis.

shoot i forgot. gee i gotta hurry. is that the latest news oh i hadn't read the papers for ages. yay i can have homecook dinner. damn y don u approve my leave. huh kursus. aww i had to cancel that gals' nite out. c ya i need to catch the bus n then my heart wud sink. cool y not! .. ah i need to.. gosh nx time.. *adrenaline pumping n pumping*.. ok wat was it where was i...

while i tot i was striving to achieve a balance out of everything, i'm actually chipped into such tiny weightless fragments.

this posting has drained me so much more than i tot. not only that, it tore the mask of a hypocrite n reveal a ruthless heartbreaker underneath. it's going to b 3 months but those lies n irresponsible acts r stil haunting me.. those cruel words r stil echoing in my ears.. like sharp blades piercing tru my cardiac muscles.. during me time, bus time, shower time, bedtime. it's the last thing i rmb bfor i go to bed n the 1st thing in my mind when i open my eyes in the morning. ya.. call me zombie.

everyday i tell myself i muz b strong n i'll live life as it is. but sumtimes i feel like i'm so gonna collapse.. like rite now.

it's a very complicated algebra, v were too bz n careless to take into account the many variables, instead v only look at the constants. no matter how much ur distorted mind wud perceive, i know i was putting all my heart n soul to solve the equation. u don rub if off silently.. in the mean time promise to solve the equation TODAY n out of a sudden, throw the blackboard away TMRW n THEN only tell me u don wan to solve it. if u think that (wow took u 4 yrs) the equation can nvr exist cos it can nvr equalise, at least have the courtesy to tell me nicely abt it bfor u rub it off the blackboard.

i care abt the equation more than u've tot n i owned 1 half of the blackboard. i woke up 1 day 400km away to the horror of realising the blackboard was gone!! i was this silly fool who don even know wat's going on or when u started erasing the equation. it was awfully traumatizing to fall off a burst bubble. cud all those b fake? even if it's real it's juz as fragile as the chalky flakes that dispersed into thin air. i'm not left wif anything to hold on to bcos memories cud b a form of deception. lies were sugarcoated to sound like promises. insincerity was skilfully masked wif cold companionship.

it's so disturbing to c that relieved face n bear wif that ok-i'm-sry-but-wat-do-u-expect-me-to-do tone. u can throw the blackboard rite away. juz. like. that. cold blood runs in ur veins. felt like a piece of trash. reli. was once recycled. n now. so disposable. so unworthy of anything.

it pissed me off when there r ppl who cudn't convey a simple msg or a simple tot. wat's so difficult abt it? reli. the world wil b a better place if ppl wud communicate n treat each other wif sincerity, honesty n respect.

nth stay in my mind for more than 15 mins. names. faces. anger. frustration. mayb cos im a big whiner or gossip queen. but this.. this has stayed on for so long. 2 months.. 3 months.. it's eating me up.. like gangrene. so wat i've got all the antibiotics. at the end of the day mayb my immune system is too weak to fight it. mayb the wound is too deep seated it's impenetrable to any sort of cure.

i've tried.. very very hard to shrug it off n get a new life but it had been a big part of my life. taking that away wil make it so frighteningly hollow. i have to learn to live wif that sudden big hole. this is totally pushing me to insanity. all i can do is cry hopelessly in the dark.

i have a lot of energy n enthusiasm. but for the past 4 yrs i've learnt it the hard way that too much of enthusiasm n energy can only bring abt more disappointment n misunderstanding. i'm not programmed to think. but everything abt it made me think a lot. when a person who's not supposed to think starts to think very hard, it juz went wrong. i dunno how to express myself n there's a wall btw me n other ppl. simply bcos i don blif in myself anymore. i was going tru this identity crisis wif paper thin self esteem. alwiz yearning for approval, or security, or therapeutic comfort but to no avail sumtimes. there may b inner conflicts but no man's a saint. i'm an optimist n moz of all i blif in the equation, i chose to walk this bittersweet journey.

so no matter how hard i've tried, i have yet to accept it or probably i can NVR come to terms wif it in this entire life. there wil alwiz b this unrest in my jammed up brain. tot i'm gonna get better as days or months gone by. but hell no, it gets crappier instead. i juz keep drowning deeper n deeper as the emotional baggage gets heavier n heavier. living in denial or psyching myself that i'm fine .. watever izzit.. i juz gotta stop running away n face the painful reality.

did a bit of retail therapy to clear my mind a wee bit. went in evita peroni. grab like 1k worth of accesories in my basket n when i was abt to pay, it juz hit me that hey, even if i'm down n dejected it doesn't give me the rite to splurge lidat. ok i have a penchant for head accesories mayb i have bad hair uhuh.. anyway i painstakingly empty 3/4 of the basket n paid, only to realise later that i actually like 1 of those that i didn't buy. issh! well that's life.. many a times when u need to make a choice, it's not abt wat u had chosen, it's more abt wat u had to give up. juz random tot.

i walk around the dirty streets. breathe in polluted air n listen to the chaotic notes of the buzzling city. it makes me so humanly again to live in sync wif imperfections. for that moment i felt so alive n liberated like y do i care.. it's time to unleash that spirit in me!!

tot i found myself back. but bfor i sleep.. i'm stil asking myself.. wat's wrong wif me? y am i not gud enuf?? dang. hell ya.. it's the same question tat had bugged me n put me down for 4 yrs n stil counting.

arrgghh... i need sum peace!!!

blardy sickening.

2010-03-01T00:54:00.002+08:00

i can't fall asleep after i switch off the light n pull the blanket over myself.. almoz every other nite.
n i'm getting better at putting on an i'm ok face during the day.

i walk out from this, more like tossed out from this.. battered n crushed.

i wish i can go to that place in northern ireland.. where i'll be standing on the tip of the cliff n b surrounded by the vast blue sea.. where i can scream my lungs out so the gale n the seawater can carry my pain away.. where everything wil become so insignificant in comparison to the majestic scenery.

that is. i wish. i wish for a lot of things.. like how i wish this wil nvr happen.

i wanna hide n recuperate at sumwhere comforting, therapeutic. i think of that room which i nvr bother to clean. i think of muar. that very peaceful town that i can't wait to get out from once upon a time.

BAD LUCK is...

2009-08-09T23:35:00.011+08:00

when u were sooo mentally drained, the boss refused to approve ur leave!!

weiii i only take leave like once in a blue moon WTH y ppl take leave so easy i ask for ONE day off oso cannot! the best part is.. i was at the moz mou liu dpt in the entire jabatan farmasi called DIU. manatau that day i wan to take leave i was told to cover tpn. -_- lll

when ur weekend was ruined by the isa protest.

man it had to b on a sat when i wanted to indulge myself in a bit of retail therapy. ok i'm reli against isa but man there r juz too many moronic ppl high up there that arrhh lazy to care liao. damn i juz wan a well-deserved nice weekend but due to the horrible jam the bf had decided to turn away n guess where v ended up.. ENDAH PARADE! wah pathetic dao~~! n the bf juz cudn't understand y u r so emo abt it. halo i only come back to kl twice a month y wud i wan to waste my time at god sake's endah parade?! but ok la at least v had a k session at dunno wat box.. definitely more lau yiah than green box.

when u felt that u r often misunderstood or ur efforts r not appreciated.

i know i have attention deficit disorder n i nvr bother to sugar coat my words. but hey being forgetful doesn't make me an irresposible person. gasping for a breath at this sec doesn't mean that i was not working my ass off at other times. it's so sad when i c the responsible frps were alwiz bullied n stressed out wif heavy workload while the lazy unproductive ones stil get paid the same. urrggghh this whole gov service sucks!

when u got into an accident while attempting a 3 point turn.

issh i dunno how or why, totally unexplainable.. brain terlayang sumwhere n juz for that 1 sec it shut down (another symptom of ADD i guess).. tot i was hitting on the brake but i hit the ACCELERATOR instead. n bang!! i ram into a wira's back, parked at the side (wahaha wira again! any1 driving wira pls avoid this cute lil kelisa nx time).

panick la of course so i quickly fled to another street to check on my car n mayb get sum help bfor ppl wanna keng sou wif me. but muar.. being such a SMALL town.. haih the nx thing i know a kepoh uncle catched me up wif his bike n said hey u damaged ppl's bumper adi la. go n talk to him la... he's a teacher. juz go. -_- lll speechless... caught redhanded wahaha.

oklo.. teacher.. then i not so scared geh. so went back again. phew reli a nice person. v agreed that he wil fix his car in the workshop that i recommended then i'll pay the bill. aww uncle.. i'm reli reli sry. but til now i stil cudn't get this uncle.

when the lightbulbs oso want to buli u.

there r 2 lightbulbs in my room. 1 spoilt so i survived wif only 1 lightbulb for 2 weeks due to procrastination to fix it. when i finally changed it to a new1, the previously surviving lightbulb spoilt 2 days later. -_-lll sigh.

Edited: i changed the lightbulb by my own this time, w/o any help. whoa sense of achievement gao gao.. roarrrr!! i feel so manly.

u juz had to work on THAT weekend.

tot of a having a free n easy sat cos tpn on call only 1 pt. but due to sum stupid reason, stayed back to cover fbw n choked at the air that i was breathing. not kidding the haze was that bad in muar. ok i'm not complaining abt this cos not that i have anything to do had i got home earlier.

ok SUNDAY.. 2 seperate shifts which add up to 8.5 hrs. i juz had the CRAZIEST weekend shift.. EVER. stupid H1N1 causing such a PARANOIA among the ppl n causing me to dispense until i almoz fainted. was soo nauseous that since then i nvr care to wear face mask anymore. n after my shift, i sat in the pantry juz to BREATHE for half an hr until i think i'm fit to drive back home. at least the A&E drs r smart they got a stamp for the std combo, damn v pharmacists shud oso have a recorder. juz hit play if u c the PABET combo (PCM, Actifed, Benadryl, EES n Thymol gargle) coming ur way.

n then like that's not enuf the pts juz had to come on a sunday wif their repeat rx. u told me ur sad o' story bla bla hou fan ah (no sympathy watsoever when 6 out of 10 pts say they wan to go outstation or singapore.. YA RITE). tho v don need to accept repeats at out of office hrs, cudn't juz turn them down.. wat if they reli run out of meds or they susah payah come from far far away.. haih damn hard to make a gud decision in opd 1 ok.

omg it juz made me boil whenever i had to argue wif pt on the repeats policy. n there were these few pts who reli pushed me to my boiling point. GRRR!!! so wat if i lompat ur number i told ya! HUH!!... so wat if u r oso a chinese! HUH!

n the 2nd shift.. fulamak it was sooo OVERwhelming that the ppf had to make a s.o.s to the boss. the boss did sent help.. n oso made a new ppf shift schedule (doubling the workforce) after that.

u found that u r left wif the last pc of toilet tissue when u r in a gud mood to negotiate a big business.

off i went econsave. once i get outta the car i juz had to stepped on a pc of yucky chewing gum. wa y got so uncivilised ppl 1?! ILL. n then when i was at the cashier, felt that there's this random 1 or 2 fella looking at me in such a weird way while whispering to 1 another.

haih.. muar being such a SMALL town again.. halo ur frenly gorgeous pharmacist oso need to shit n use toilet paper 1 ok! oh wait.. mayb i was not being nice to them.. mayb they were whispering.. wa zhe ge yao ji shi... hen shiong o! hen shuai de wo jiao ta gei panadol ta bu yao gei hai dui wo hen bu ke qi. huh don care don care.

when 3 out of 10 patients u dispensed to r either difficult pts or that their rx has query so u have to deal wif difficult drs. watever.. cos both outcomes r the same. u juz feel like slapping them rite in their face bcos they reli get on ur nerves.

urrghh n i had to go tru the horrible experince of pt snatching his meds away from me AGAIN. i hate that i hate that I HATE THAT! it's sooo insulting!! man i was running around like a headless chicken, trying my best to find the key n let u in the counselling room asap. sry for the 1 - 2 min wait.. but halo!! that doesn't mean u can barge in, scold me AND snatched ur meds away from me... BY FORCE!!

man when i refused to give u the meds i reli have a reason. it's WARFARIN.. u told me u dunno wat izzit.. wat r the side effects.. wat r the high vit K vege.. walao wat do u mean by TAK PAYAH!.. babi dao~~! i wudn't wan to curse but don u ever blame the pharmacist if anything happens!!!

n there's this dr n that dr. when u inform them that they made a mistake they'll expect u to solve the prob n if u don.. they have the cheek to look down on u n give u that tone.. eh stupid pharmacist.. so how?!.. walao my dear dr, u r the 1 who made this mistake i shud ask u SO HOW?! dunno who's more stupid. Ish!

when the DD did not tally on the week that u were in charged.

i cudn't do checked & found correct cos the 1st bakul of the day contains DD oredi. when i tried checking in between, the record n the physical stock of not 1 but FEW were not tally. pfffttt... frps were too bz to care abt it. i got stressed out when all these were written C&F correct bfor me.. eh betul ke ni?! n to make things worse i once mixed up clonazepam n lorazepam during peak hrs.. haiyo all zepam zepam.. luckily was detected bfor supplying to pt. so i had to stay til 10pm 1 fine day, squinting my eyes going tru comp records fulamak, juz to get the whole thing rite.

when u fail to break this stupid curse.

everyday the LAST rx i dispensed bfor i go home SURE got prob 1!! walao.. alwiz overtime lidat damn sien ok!! i tried staying at the filling place when it's 4.55pm that day hoping to break the curse but dammit by 5pm there's a transient bz moment so the frp asked me to give number n once i gave the number... A&E rx wif Augmentin!! n the funny thing is pt claimed to b allergic to amoxicillin!! zha dao.. i strategise nice nice oso can't escape the curse!

Edited: so i break the curse today yoohoo (20/8, cos the luvly yeongru shoo me away at 5pm haha)!

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i know the bad luck had been around for awhile now. but i superstitiously think it's augmented by this incident.

1 day after evening shift, went to get my car (around 9.45pm). ok drag nite-shift-ming along cos i'm so chicken lidat. then on the way.. v saw 2 ppk pushing a katil sorong mayat. aiyak!! nowhere to escape n i clutched ming's arms so tightly while passing that thing. choi choi choi!! ok tho i think it's empty but it's freaking spooky weh!! then the courageous n gorgeous colleague suddenly pointed out.. hey i think there's sum1 there.

WAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

i screamed n PECUT-ED 100m leaving poor ming behind. sry that was self-defense mechansim my brain din process that move ok. no ghost story la.. that was dr loo. wa that fella c he tall n not bad looking oo bit of acne prob.. but huh! he juz drove past 2 helpless pharmacists wandering in the dark. minus mark! oh watever the ending of the story is.. after going tru all these terrifying episodes.. actually my car was NOT parked there. dssh -_-lll i juz happen to mix up where i park again.. which happen very often lately wahaha.

ok moral of the story is rmb where u park, n try to avoid that katil sorong mayat, bad chi.

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all these physical n mental stress had finally taken a toll on me. it's 1st manifested as fatigue, bad mood, short temper, LOA (my std not the general population std), worsestil backache, myalgia, n now i wake up to find a sore achilles tendon n had to drag my rite feet a little. how how how later stil have to watch eason leh!

Edited: ok now it's not dragging a little.. it's the limping kinda dragging.. uhh that's so awful esp along that long walkway where i'd bum into pakar toh!

Edited (20/8): ok it swells like roti now no kidding.

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all prps who r having a bad time. come. shout wif me.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok now to all OVERWORKED prps in the state of JOHOR. come. shout it out LOUD wif me.

AAARRRRRRRHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

random weekday outing in MALACCA

2009-08-07T23:32:00.006+08:00

... back in oh-shit-i-forget-when but ming was stil in THAT hairstyle... muz b long ago. Edited: ok that was 3rd june, 2009.

it's 1 fine wednesday when v tot v were so sick of muar so v had a afterwork getaway at malacca which is actually not too faraway. c'mon try me! ask me the direction.

so i had my 1st experience of satay celup. serendipity. 1 wrong turn led us to this super famous satay celup place.. CAPITOL.

mmm~~ the potentially salmonella or hep A colonised herby satay sauce bursting into ur mouth at 1st bite of the zhan zhue bao. n a sip of that refreshing coconut water. whoa~~ that was sooo therapeutic after a long day of stress at work!!!

wee ~~ finally there r pics on rhapsodisiac!

ah ming... that's a cool earmuff muahahaha!

stop using prawns as the prop.

introducing our shy shy mr. wee AND...

the food. keke.

but satay celup is strictly a once in a blue moon indulgence. the 2nd time i had it in july (this time bside Capitol).. no more THAT therapeutic factor. yep it's overrated but so? the queue outside capitol is stil NVRending.

watched TERMINATOR SALVATION after that. too bad it din appeal to me. i like the 2nd instalment more.. ya i'm so old skool lidat. the bat ji soh wai CLEAR dandruff shampoo commercial bfor the movie was much more entertaining wakakaka.

haih. after almoz 10 months of prp posting in muar.. this is our ONLY random weekday outing. ya go on laughing.. life is pathetic over here at times. v only have tanjong emas, wetex n ktv maharani.

but who knows many yrs down the road... i'll miss the simplicity n the tranquility in muar.

ya n that's when i retire.

aww my dear fungus infested blog

2009-07-19T21:58:00.008+08:00

sek sek.

am now back to a full blown drama addict. shall check for buttocksore but it's ok i can alwiz curi sum duoderm gel. heck lately i'm watching the sandra oh talkshow. Edited: oops that's YANG in grey's anatomy. (come to think abt it... i think i have a bit of yang in me minus the reli smart part i juz like to berlagak pandai muahaha. oo gee no wonder i'm so not likeable.) ok back to the topic... ya i mean SANDRA NG. gossips of hk entertainment scene r alwiz so yummy. it may b waste of time watching sth so senseless but that boisterous trandemark laughter juz kept me glued to the monitor muahaha.

n i've got nth more to write other than ranting abt my work. cos sumhow i juz got myself into a series of minor unfortunate events... again.

...like the warfarin clinic.

called for md yusof bin A n he walked up to me. he insisted he took 4mg instead of 1.5mg as written in the warfarin booklet, me n the frp can only think of haih another lou mong dong uncle or worsestil, medication dispensing error!

2 hrs later another pt's name was called. md yusof bin T. pt walked up n said i'm md yusof bin A which pushed a panick button in every1.. eh md yusof bin A went home wif his meds liao not meh?! a look at md yusof bin T's booklet n shit he's on warfarin 4mg. so desu neh~~

there were 2 md yusof. the bin A juz now is act bin T n the md yusof that came in 2 hrs later is the REAL bin A. bin T whom v tot is subtherapeutic was overwarfarinised while bin A whose subtherapeutic cudn't get his dosage adjusted cos his booklet wif bin T. finally bin T was called back to the hosp n every1 was relieved end of story.

it's ok if u don understand wat i'm talking abt but anyway... v were like sooooo close to make a reli BIG mistake wif consequences i cudn't bear to think of, which v may be held responsible.. partially. no incident reporting lucky lucky. all this in front of THAT MO wif THE aura who doesn't reli care abt pharmacist recommendation. haih.

...like the MDI counselling. issh she juz had to laugh non stop.
when i demonstrated how to picit dan sedut serentak she went hysteric n reached out for a towel to wipe her tears.
INSULTED DAOoooooooo~! halo wat's so funny?!

but then it's reli funnny that she can laugh until lidat on sth which is totally NOT funny in the end i tot it's TOO funny so i oso laughed so hard bfor i realised my sayang shy shy pakar toh n THAT MO wif THE aura were looking at me. uurrggh berbuat malu lagi! 2nd time i crushed my image as a gentle, sophisticated, dedicated, n gorgeous pharmacist in front of shy shy toh.

y can't he ever c me in action when i'm in gentle, sophisticated, dedicated n gorgeous mode?! shall rebuild my image by supplying him 1 whole tube of bonjela nx time instead of piciting 1/3 of the tube into a small container.

...like the W17 incident.
shoot i know i did looked very very stupid in front of this particular paed MO but since then i juz have to bum into him again n again every single day!!! arrghh!! n sumtimes wif her gf rite bside him n when u c both of them giggling n were looking at me wif the corner of their eyes, i'll b terasa that he's sharing the stupid incident wif the beloved gf which the beloved gf may share wif every1 else in the medical ward. dsshh.

...like my poor stomach.
was soo hungry after lunch call n then i went to my fav chicken rice shop for a plate of chicken breast rice + a plate of steam vege + soup + drinks then in the middle of counselling a type 1 DM pt i suddenly have the urge of puking so i had to tell my pt oh i need to get u sum needles n ran asap to the pharmacy building's toilet to puke to my heart's content then went back to him n said hey here comes ur free needles. che wa talk abt profesionalism.

cudn't tolerate orally the entire day, severe gastric discomfort d/t hypersecretion of acid, shaking in hunger.. nauseous.. ALONE.. huuuu... mummy where r u??

n the irony was that the nx day i had to do on call TPN shift, preparing TPN bags for pt who cudn't tolerate orally. T__T

n that's y i'm not reli in a mood to blog. oops i did it again... wahaha... another unintentionally lengthy ranty blog. ok... i shall post pics n write not more than 50 words in my nx entry. promise!!!

bfor that i shall neutralise it wif sum recent accomplishment in my life like...

learnt to pump air into tyre yeh yeh.. shhh don tell daddy my tyres pressure were holy shit! as low as 9kPa! it's more like running on the rim instead of the rubber. 29 to 9.. siao!

1 day makan makan trip to malacca. *satisfaction gao gao* except for the reli dumbass movie called obsessed muahahaha tak bleh tahan nowadays stil got ppl wan to make stooopid movies lidat.

finished hiv presentation slides overnite.

had a surprised party for july babies.

survived wif 1 lightbulb in the bedroom.

rmb to empty the pockets of labcoat when i spin it in the washing machine. no more damaged pens, hosp tag, name tag or shredded prescriptions.

spent on lotsa lotsa CDs n i think my collection has hit 100 yoohoo!

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ehhhh i wan to watch super band concert!!! i luv zhang zhen yue!!! si nian shi yi zhong bing.. 0~ 0~ but so sad by the time i knew abt it all the cheap tickets were sold out... watta do i live in an era w/o newspapers. pls don ask me to go check out thestar.com.my cos i only like to flip tru newsPAPERS that stained my fingers black.

how nice if sum1 wil call me up on this sat n say hey i can't go to the super band concert AND i have 2 tickets for u. NEH.. impossible!

FINE. i'm gonna watch eason's concert on 16th aug then. ahhh i wan to watch it so badly *fingers crossed* cheap tickets stil available.. pls.. pls. don care. take leave! wow workaholic-lin (cheh wa betul ke ni) taking a break finally.

n oh ya... PAINTBALL! i wan to play paintball too! ah ming shud v start organising a paintball outing for end of aug? .. ok shall talk abt this later i stil dunno which case to choose for my clinical presentation.

i think i have a crush on this MO

2009-05-31T22:23:00.007+08:00

so there he was. examining his pt professionally n discussing the case wif his HO (well more like imparting his knowledge n experience selflessly). MEN (esp DOCTORS keke) who r dedicated n serious at work r simply irresistible!! gee don u all agree?

then he turned over n acknowledged us, the tpn pharmacists, wif a smile that aww melts mah heart. n the nx thing v know.. he started to TALK to us! omg so unexpected... *heart fluttered at 120 beats/min, BP raised to 160/100 mmHg, face.. bloodshot!*

he's sooooooooooooooo polite n softspoken my gudness!! where got MO so angelic 1?! *hmmph juz think abt 'kanasai'*

he said sth like planning to wean off pt's tpn, increase feeding n increase the tpn request. so he asked us POLITELY to recalculate everything wif a higher calorie n volume. mm mm mm me n ming juz nodded all the way. occasionally adding in sum senseless words like..

me : ya sure v can recalculate it. or

ming: no prob, v can compound from scratch.

to which he said.. no prob rite? u can juz add few scoops into it.

mm.. mm. stil nodding. *eyes open wide suddenly*

SCOOPS?! nani?! did he juz said SCOOPS?!

BWAHAHAHHAHAHAH!!!!

apa la ni u tot v bancuh fernleaf milk ah HARH!!! 3 scoops of fernleaf milk powder, 2 scoops of soya powder, 1 teaspoon of sugar bla bla.. eh halo v use needles syringes n spikes under strictly aseptic laminar flow condition 1 ok... scoops?! wat the?!

aikss... instead of bursting into my wildest laughter or correcting him wif a sarcastic statement like the above or watever, v act did nth but smile=) ahhh there u go.. 2 spineless pharmacists.

n it's only until v got got out of ward that v realised.. eh did he juz say wean off tpn? but y does he wan to increase pt's tpn load? shudn't v taper it down?! ok all these queries started to spring into our mind 1 by 1. omg this is bad. our brains juz stop functioning properly when he's within our sight.. no it's more like slow/delayed release formulation, n he's the inhibitor for the release haha.

luckily v get to sort things out wif the dietician later. yes it's tapering down tpn v r so rite.

so this is wat i called STARSTRUCK!

HE is Dr. 'William Sou Wing Hong'.. or i shall address him affectionately as dr. so in my blog. no i'm not kidding... he RELI looks like this!

talk abt resemblance, on the scale of 1 to 10, i wud say 8! but if compared to the pic above taken from healing hands, it wud b 9.6 out of 10!!! serious! akakakkakakak!

woot now only i realise HE HAS EXACTLY the SAME HAIRSTYLE as the character kong moon yuet in the show!!

OMG.... BWAHAHAHHAHAHA!!! *hysterical liao*.. where got so ngam 1?! mayb he got inspired by sou wing hong in this drama, he told himself.. hey i wan to look like that too! so since then he started to comb his hair that way n the rest is history.

that hair... juz nvr fail to make my day=) =) =) v alwiz wonder how much gel he use every morning to style that hair? n ky said... few SCOOPS mayb. *rofl*

sheez starstruck gao gao. signs n symptoms of dr. william so effect..

-elevation of BP n HR

- impairment in thinking, reversible if inhibitor is removed

-woobly feet (that's ming),

-fainty (that's me).

shyz.. no la not crush la. he's happily married by the way. aww... so luvly.

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so i luv tpn bcos it's quite a chill dpt. early morning u clerk the case n ogle at dr. so (to much of my disappointment dr. so's pt off tpn liao). hmm i reli enjoy this sorta collaboration btw diff professions, so cool lidat. n i reli enjoy going to ward (correction: ward wif air-cond! medical wards.. no NO!) then u go into the sterile room, u do things at ur own pace wif no patients to stress u out, after that yayz it's time to claim sum off petangs cos u'll b so darn free!

but i tak nak buang bubble! i hate i hate i hate. grrrrrrrrrrrr.... every1 who knows me wil know how impatient i am.. those bubbles juz get on my nerves!! asking me to buang bubble is like asking me to walk gracefully in 3 inches heels or stitch tiny sequin beads on those kemahiran hidup project. tsk tsk... such delicate stuff. i'm too man for that yo!

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my short term memory has been terrible all these while but lately.. my level of forgetfulness has srsly gone up few notches. that day after finishing tpn.. i push the trolley out using the laluan produk while i went out using the laluan orang which then connected to the tpn office. mins later, ming called.. jom have lunch! to which i replied yayz c u in opd.

n i freaking left all my tpn bags n heparin saline there. rite outside the door of laluan produk!! luckily kak mas saw it. i only knew it like half an hr AFTER i was back from lunch.

holy shit!! those things totally slipped off my mind once i stepped out of the laluan org. WHY?! HOW can this happen?! tho i din kena for this cos it's juz tpn bags.. but wat if it's other things? sth urgent? sth to do wif lifes? i'm going to b an frp in half a yr's time wif lotsa responsiblities n boy, if my mind is deteriorating at the rate that it is now, i'm going to get myself in BIG trouble.

so wat do i do? does gingko helps? i wonder.

*oh oh i'm in trouble.. sth's gonna stop me from being in trouble yeh yeh*

romeo take me sumwhere v can b alone

2009-05-24T22:37:00.008+08:00

i'll b waiting all there's left to do is run
u'll b the prince n i'll b the princess
it's a love story baby juz say yes

it's kay's ringtone.
it's sinlee's caller ringtone.
it's on yahoo video.
it's on suria fm.
it's on hitz. fm.

it's officially THE opd song.

i've went from liking the song to sick of the song to liking the song n then sick of the song again that i'm not too sure whether i like this song or not but i find myself singing along n jiving wif it, n am stil humming it now. shit.

yeah that was pretty much my weekend in muar.. indie gal catching the love story bug in opd.

ah so sick of work srsly. the last time i took leave was during cny holy moly can u blif it?! so for the heck of it i act took an off from work last mon n moz importanly, i wanted to catch a gig on the sunday itself. turned out i was late for my fav band n the not so indie bf tot that it's no longer worth paying rm40 for the ticket so v went on duke highway (saje.. i have sense of direction 1 eh) to go to 1u. *no.. i'm not trying to blame u or wat. jgn terasa.*

v ended up watching angels n demons (tho it sounded impromptu here but no! it's in our plan keke).

ANGELS n DEMONS!! how can v not b excited of it!! esp thoses of us who happened to lepak around pantheon on the afternoon of 18th june 2008!!

...there was a huge crowd. v were so curious that v squeeze our way amongst the crowd n v instantly got the news that tom hanks were filming. yao mou?! tom hanks weh!! toes tipping like a ballerina n neck stretching out like a giraffe.

there. i. saw. tom. hanks!!

v saw the crew filming there!! v freaking saw tom hanks!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!! *squeals of a fan* n dear the smartypants figured out that it's angels n demons. bingo 'kim'!!

i went to the cinema w/o any expectation cos i tot da vincci code totally suck sry i juz don get it n i've nvr read any dan brown books. correction: not like i read ANY books other than shin chan. gosh y am i so shallow. ok where was i.

oh ya. but when the movie started i was like a hyper fidgety kid pointing at the screen pulling the sleeves of mom (err bf in this case) n whispered... oh hey i've been here... oh hey i've been there.. ohh see... ohh look... ohh i miss this place... ohhh... n eagerly waiting for THE very scene v saw in rome. n yep only ppl like us wil act pay attn to the otherwise neglected corner of the scene.

*spoiler's ahead*

it's the scene where the italian police officers r doing their thang ala crime scene investigation while talking to robert langdon so v the curious fans fit in perfectly as those busybody curious onlookers. AH HA this is so genius... rmb to check this out yo.

CAST

suilin tan....... curious onlooker #123

n arrggh i shud've known that the person who is moz unlikely to b the bad guy IS the bad guy. but i stupidly let myself FOOLED til the end!!! hmm let's guess wat wil my score b if i do a mensa test.

man u juz gotta blif that camerlengo patrick has the heart of a saint when the person playing it is noneother than EWAN MCGREGOR! wif his earnest n handsome face how can any1 have the heart to think of him as the villain?! aww... *stil in denial.. i'm not stupid.. i'm not stupid. *

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back to my weekend. lying on the bed doing absolutely nth on a sat n sun morning, wif an ipod.. that's a newfound bliss=) n the luxury where u can refuse to get out of bed... is priceless! i don need to b awaken by irritating alarm n off it n let it snooze again until i finally get up at the 3rd snooze. but nvrtheless i'm stil rushing like a headless chicken to work.

sat bcos of ugly betty.

sun bcos of csi miami... u know... that man is full of secrets.. n zap! commercial break.
WAT THE!!

so wat r the secrets?! i'm dying to know!! but i have to get my ass off the couch cos it's oredi 12.46pm. n i've yet to put on my contacts change my clothes n fill up my water tumbler.. n i stil clocked in at 1pm=) see! how can i not love muar.

there was i revisiting my glorious days of being a couch potato n hey i only had national tv back then no fancy fancy wah lai toi or axn. it's a thurs nite in muar.. me n cyee juz tuned in to 8tv for fei tin.. n the nx thing v know.. there's flaming butterfly AND americal idol final 2 woohoo!!

i've nvr watched any episode of americal idol this season but i'm lucky enuf to catch adam lambert in the final 2. it's so damn obvious that he's the better of the 2 esp when both of them r singing no boundaries. kris has pretty much ordinari-fy the song until u had to wonder ehh the same song ah?

n omg! the rendition of we are the champions, n for that few secs it felt like adam was possessed by freddie mercury!! (hey come to think of it y many of my idols either commit suicide or died a tragic death 1 ah?) but too bad he only solo-ed for a wee while.. i juz cudn't get enuf of that voice.. urrghh sending chills down my spine.. (oh hey interesting fact #2- freddie n adam r both gay!) i juz wished i can take kris off n let adam strut his stuff alone truout the whole song.

haih so it's this flawed voting system again. wat's wrong wif being gay? wat's wrong wif being gothic?! oh mayb there's sth wrong. so i shud stop wearing black baju ketat to work everyday haha.

watever it is, i'm stil a true blue couch potato after all these yrs! yayz.

hail the couch potato! hail lin-sama!

of see-saw n many things random

2009-04-12T23:06:00.011+08:00

i seriously think i have this inability to exist as a whole at any 1 place at any 1 time. like my body n soul r in 2 separate dimensions. n that my heart n my mind r seesawing btw idealization n reality, btw 2 opposite characters, or juz any 2 extreme points.

tots in my mind r like scattered lil pieces of jigsaw puzzles that form an abstract painting. ya at the age of 24 i stil cudn't get the whole pic. i'm stil this lost kid who cudn't articulate her tots... ah hell.. emo bemo lynno can juz cry when listening to 'lost' over n over again.

i've not written any blog in march. but i don rmb studying for my forensics either. all i rmb was.. oops.. i did spent A LOT of time lying on the bed. daydreaming or sleeping. sumtimes it irks me that i spent so much time doing nth.. despite many resolutions i'm stil doing NTH every single day. it's pretty scary how time flies truout the prp yr. it can only mean 2 things.
1) i'm stil a noobie after half a yr.
2) i may b nearer to the day of getting posted to sum ulu kk... huuuuuuuu.

talk abt forensics exam, i alwiz have this fear that i cudn't pass. cos of KARMA. for commiting a crime that i was not brave enuf to confess! the day bfor forensics, i drove out for dinner tgt wif housemates. did a reverse while discussing n getting stressed out on the past yr questions. n the nx thing i know.. BAM!!!!

OOPS i forgot to look at the MIRRORS!!! *quickly turn to the back to check out wat's going on!*

i BANG a WIRA!!!!

AND

i caused a DENT on the car!!!!

OMG!!! it.juz.happened. how how how how *panick attack*

n i did wat all noob drivers wud do.. LEAVE the crime scene as quickly as possible!! NOTE: under the advice of housemates hor.

was uneasy the whole day.. i wanted to leave a note but unfortunately i hadn't finish studying!! wat if the owner's a gangster n beat me up?! or a fierce uncle who'll scold me all the way?! i cudn't risk getting emotionally disturbed or causing unnecessary stress to my housemates.

if this incident were to happen on any other ordinary day n not a day bfor my forensics, i'll write an apology note, i'll pay to compensate for the dent. yes, for sure. i'm NOT an irresponsible person, oh lordy pls let me pass forensics... it's simply excruciating to read those sections n regulations which rarely contain a comma or a fullstop.. AGAIN.

eh btw it's april , the month where gor gor leslie cheung n kurt cobain, 2 of my fav idols, decided to take their own lifes. read kurt cobains suicide note.. man it's so destructive to feel jaded. i do feel jaded every now n then, izzit sth alarming? no worries they r like mega-superstars weh, u gotta get til that high up to drop til that low in ur life.

sumtimes my heart wil b dancing so happily like doing a jai-ho.. omg that's like the moz infectious song wif the moz infectious dance scene lately. i'm so driven to sign up an indian dance class like.. rite now.

see i can b a very energetic, enthusiastic n pasionate person.. but of course u need to b in the rite time rite place wif the rite bunch of ppl to set the fire ablaze.

there r oso times that i think i can do sth great.. sth that can change the world (che wa.. like morphing into a power ranger, do a bono, al gore or angelina jolie sorta thing. haha ya i know.. wat on earth am i thinking rite??)

y do i stil feel useless? i've got a degree, i'm sorta financial independent, i have a car. i have a room of my own, i'm away from kl for at least 20 days in a month. y do i stil feel so stiffled every now n then??

i've read my prev blog entries, n then i read other ppl's blg.. urrgghh i juz find my blog very dumb sumtimes. it's juz like i've got nth eventful or insightful in my life so i blab abt day to day irrelevant stuff. n not that i have beautiful english to flaunt watsoever. haih...

well the a bright side to this is that i can act fit into life of a small town folk, gee i'm such an easily moulded person. i'm able to find joy in tiny weeny irrelevant stuff... juz like sum1 once taught me the goal of life is JUST to live happily every single day.. simple yet so hard at the same time. i'm stil learning.

i don reli have much passion (mayb 40%) or satisfaction (mayb 30%) in my job. watever i do now doesn't require me to study things down to the cellular or molecular level, which is practically the entire MPharm program. since it's a bloody tempting twinning program, i'll get to go to scotland, tour around europe n chill at crazy music festivals WHY NOT?! tour around europe i did tho i missed out on the music festivals.. see.. it's not abt any great expectation or my future.. such is the shallow thinking of a person w/o a vision in life. BUT!

i found out that i can b very serious when it comes to work. when i get bz i'll have this adrenaline rush which is totally sensational (not in clinical dpt tho, alwiz whining abt the heat in the ward n then went MIA haha) gee i didn't know i'm such a WORKAHOLIC! nvr underestimate my capabilites yo!

felt like tying 2 chun li buns, wear a cheong sam to work n kick sum ass... there r so many ass i feel like kicking in a day. *omg random fantasies again* hmm no baju ketat when the stor kecemerlangan auditors r here on tues to thurs.

there r sooo many things to do.. from trivial things like downloading the latest japanese drama to important stuff like filling in borang kaunselling or adr or drug info request (i've not even completed 1 after almoz half a yr). but i'm JUST TOO LAZY once i get back home idling on the bed or in front of the laptop.

sumtimes i realise i'm a spiritual n zenny person, i don give a damn abt materials n i don reli care much abt earning loads of money, as long as i continue living the middle class lifestyle. ya rite.. juz got myself an ipod nano. n i can act rant 1 whole day when the taxi driver charged me a whopping rm7 from muar bus station to the hosp which is like sports complex to sainsbury. haiyo ah pek u think u drive limo ah!! isshh i nvr fail to contradict myself.

sumtimes i juz hope that i can grab my backpack, wonder off sumwhere ALONE, hmm which 'me' wil i b that time or wil i finally exist as a whole. anyhow i juz cudn't muster the courage to get anything started. every now n then in lecture halls in bekalan wad my mind wil juz slip to a faraway land, to another realm.. mayb by merely doing so it is oredi a form of escapism for myself. LOSER!

oh well, guess i juz need to accept the fact that whichever shape i take, it's stil a part of me, hence it's stil ME. it's plain stupid getting emo n struggling on this so-called identity crisis.

i need another mogwai concert... i need sth psychedelic. n i juz missed oasis concert in spore...SHAIT!

i dunno y.. but almoz every nite... i'll b so bogged down by negative tots or negative emotions... i think i seriously need to clean my room, do a 5S... oh yeh baby sumtimes i do blif in feng shui.. all these negative chi r snowballing in my dirty n untidy room for a very long time. it's time to expel the negative chi n welcome sum positive chi into my room.

y did i ever name my blog jadedjude n sprightlysue, 'nuff said.

sicko kiddo, when can u ever find ur equilibrium?

episode 134: nite shift

2009-04-01T21:54:00.012+08:00

THE SIMPLE LIFE

starring

paris LEEDY hilton (don even try to figure out y the heck izzit leedy unless u r oso from hpsf haha)

season 5: MUAR

ep. 134: NITE SHIFT.

co-star: kak najwar (1st & 2nd nite), kak yani (3rd nite), jshen (4th & 5th nite), fahmi (6th & 7th nite).

task 1. get to know ur dispensers

juz got up from 2 hr nap. staring blankly at the shelves in satellite.. when suddenly i heard karma police. yao mou? at 6am in the morning! am i hallucinating or wat? so i juz check out the tdm room n guess wat...

that's kak najwar n her yahoo music!! *red sleepy eyes popping out instantly*

a small town dispenser who has given birth to 4 or 5 children actually likes listening to RADIOHEAD... WOW!!

i got so excited that i told her how much i luv radiohead n how i miss the concert at glasgow green blabla.. while jamming tdm wif paranoid android=) gee... don u think this is sooo damn cool?!

=task 1 accomplished: kak najwar has gud taste in music=

bimbotic moment: planned to make tuna egg SANDWICH for my 'lunch'. happily packed the egg in a tupperware but totally forgot abt the BREAD!! CIS!! there goes half a loaf of bread.. serving as a cosy breeding ground for moulds.

task 2: self development - bravery

che wa i can act run MANY times to DIM-LITTED opd, TAKING MY TIME to grab sum meds ALONE in the WEE HRS W/O ANY FEAR n W/O IMAGINATION RUNNING WILD!! ok i know i know wait til i go bekalan wad n have a look at that nvr ending walkway. but sheez i'm very proud of myself. *purposely capitalletter-fied the words juz so u guys get my pt keke*

=task 2 accomplished: leedy is no more chicken yo!=

bimbotic moment: cursing bloody A & E doctors only AFTER hanging up the phone. issh if i have the courtesy to call u can u pls have the courtesy to cooperate a bit. yerr not like it's my fault that v run out of syrup amoxicillin.

task 3: get along well wif jshen

i finally got to work wif jshen the GREAT but WOOT! i freaking skip my sleep cos v were talking truout the whole nite!! cheH~ wa. instead of doing the typical jshen's HARH lidat oso u dunno ah? when i was being hopelessly noobie, she act smiled.. mind u.. SMILED=) n said.. aiyoh! y u so cute 1? see ky, it's ur prob, u yong suih la.

=task 3 accomplished: humanly side of js detected.. even tho it's only a wee bit=

bimbotic moment: attempted to replace the ribbon of the label printing machine. put on serious thinking cap, activated analytical brain, trying to figure out how to pasang that damn ribbon. but No! it's stil not working!! until shahril came in the morning.

shahril: u ada pasang salah ke?

me: TAK MUNGKIN!! saya tengok ribbon yg lama tu memang pasang mcm ini. gulungan yg tebal tu kena hala ke luar.

shahril: -_-III ah suilin!!! ribbon lama tu dah habis jalan 1 cycle!!! skrg ni kita nak pasang ribbon BARU yg belum jalan lagi!!

eh YA HORRRRRRRR!! *walau can juz throw my brain into the tong sampah*

task 4: cover for fahmi so that he can go out to watch man u vs inter milan (oh btw man u kena thrased by liverpool *OH OH OH.. liverpool!!*

the 2 nites wif fahmi-the-ever-so-cuddly-teddy-bear-wif-seductive-barble doll-y-eye lashes were reli DA BOMB!!

bimbotic moment: i accidentally drop sth on the floor.. forgot izzit a pen or wat. while v both bend down to take it the tip of our fingers came in contact. n

ZAP!

v both kena electric shock for a sec, LITERALLY!! i'm not kidding!!

BWAHAHAHAHAHHAH!

there's this strong static electric field. it's juz like those scenes on tv where both eyes met n there's this imaginary high voltage in between their eyes but dammit ours is FOR REAL! ah hah *face as red as tomato* *SHYZ zhor.*

n omg i juz burst into the wildest laughter when i stumbled upon his darkest secrets. shhhh. *ah hiok ah hiok* *omg i juz luv to do this goofy laugh lately!!!* *ah hiok ah hiok*

n i almoz finish 1 season of scrubs within these 2 nites. juz when i was halfway in this sesuai utk ditonton oleh semua lapisan masyarakat comedy, a ward attendant freaking ram into satellite asking for vanco STAT.

wahpiang! it all happened in a few sec that i cudn't minimize the screen in time n of all scenes, mind u, OF ALL SCENES, it juz HAD TO paused rite where elliot was being horny in her SEXY LINGERIE!! n the naked guy was wrapped under a blanket.

arrghhhh! can the timing get any better than this?! *i juz wanna dig a hole n jump in*

i don dare to look at his face WAT IF he winks back. ILLL!

n who knows after this i'll get... *touch wood* ..

incidence reporting #1. prp watching porn during nite shift. i'm so doomed!! hahahaha.

incidence reporting #2. disturbing patients wif hysterical laughter. omg y is scrubs so nonsensically amusing!

so i was eating chips n sipping water truout n there's his scene where the alwiz kena bullied ted suddenly flew in a projectile motion n landed in a pile of sand.

AKAKAKAKAKAKAKA! can it get more comical than this?!

n there was i.. executing my ear-piercing laughter but dammit i FORGOT i was DRINKING WATER at the very same time!!!!

so i juz spewed water at a pressure high enuf to produce that same ted projectile. AKAKAKAKAKAKAKA! if i ever kena incidence reporting i shall juz go across the causeway n make a living there, replacing the merlion yg disambar petir hahaha.

fahmi escaped the wet shower narrowly n he laughed so hard that he had to hold his big tummy awwwwwwwww so KIIIIIIIIIIIIOOooooooOOTTTTTTT! while i almoz choked to death, kanasai.

=task 4 accomplished: rewarded wif 2 hrs of sleep, lemon ribena, nasi lemak n loads of scrubs=

task 5: get a nice hairstyle

oh wat doing sth to my hair again?! oh yes i'm forever so impulsive.

bimbotic moment: megada-ly wanted to attempt a rihanna bob.

but it's not advisable by hairstylist cos my hair is super thin . ok, juz trim n rebond.

n WTH truout the whole week, i was basically ridiculed wherever i go. volume-less flat hair. pathetic strands of weird-looking cleopatra-wannabe fringe. end product: super cannot make it.

have to bear wif housemates n colleagues evil laughters. OUCH!
random pharmacy ppk came up to me juz to say they prefer my prev hairstyle. OUCH!
n then shahril started to call me BUDAK SPASTIC. HUuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu bloody hell.... this is way too OUCH!

no 1 gud comment until today. fine fine fine fine. sumday my hair wil b bigger n my fringe wil get thicker.

=task FAILED FAILED FAILED FAILED!!!!=

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oh n it's only fair that the guest star of the episode get sum credits too. thanx for coming all the way to accompany me n adjust to my erratic working hrs. it reli feels like v r living in the same dimension but yet in completely diff time zone damn funny haha.

guest star: dear.

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director cum producer cum editor: leedy=)

forget, forgot, forgotten

2009-02-16T22:32:00.008+08:00

ooh wow... looking at the no. of posts for feb, seems like ranty aunty had not been ranting for quite sum time. great!

ok lo.. i admit i stil like to bring up that inhaler incident every now n then in any random conversation wif any random person yalar i know i am this very irritating drama queen keke.. but then it's the fastest way to get things off my chest n now, i'm able to relate the whole incident w/o anger choking my throat anymore. it's like i've got 1 more not so ordinary experience under my belt now. oh yeh baby *muz do that ming's style.. as in BAYYYYY~~ BEH*

yep life goes on. juz finished a month at clinical. omg i was SUPER DEMORALISED. makes me wonder y do my profession even exist in this world??? oh yeh i have a long list of demoralising events.. gonna blog it sumday, if not i'll sure sound like a cheong hei aunty wif sagging boobs AGAIN.

juz hanging out my clothes which were left in the washing machine for 2 bloody nites! yes let's now dedicate the rest of my entry to hail my

FORGETFULNESS.

i mean hopelessly forgetful.

woot hope mom doesn't read my blog. n omg let's hope that my colleagues won ask me where the unpleasant odor come from cos i 'm not gonna wash that pile of clothes again. *sniff sniff * ok pass. it doesn't stink when u r 25cm away from me.

n oh well, not gonna iron it cos i'm hiding underneath the labcoat moz of the time. save electricity che wa i'm such an environmentalist. my housemates act got culture shock that i nvr reli iron my clothes truout my life, n when i was in high skool i juz stack dictionaries (yes not kidding u, those thick thick ones where u can baling to the dogs n they pengsan straight away) over my pengawas pusat sumber uniform truout the whole nite, u know to give sum pressure juz so i get a wee bit of ironing effect w/o making any effort of ironing wth.

n oh wow... i act have culture shock that these ppl IRON THEIR JEANS. like... halo... it's juz jeans! haahaha.

n u know on mon frp tan kecik called to check if i'm supposed to do lunch call n the nx thing i know the myvi that was heading to 99 foodcourt was shaken by a loud AHHHhhhh SRY!

yep. exactly. i totally FORGET to do LUNCH CALL!!

for gudness sake how can i ever forget my shift? neurones degeneration i guess. n thank gudness frp here r reli kind souls n juz so happen that opd is aman damai that day so they don need a pro there. eeks tak tau malu. ok talk abt malu, there's another incident to share.

not only that i'm blur, my england is oso very poor. i used to pronounced waived as in wat if w/o the 't' like wa-eef... u know since my high skool days cos i tot i heard cs pronounced that way too eesshh tulah padah suka nak tiru org yg cakap mcm glamor sangat.

wahhhh... for all these yrs y no 1 ever have the courtesy to correct me?! WHY?!

until when i said that word in front of ming n ky, they both laughed their lungs out. oh yeh... so it's waived.. as in wave..

KAKAKAKKAKAKAKKA.*malu*. n the joke is that... ming reminded me that naive is stil... na-eef not.. nave...

BWAHAHAHAHHAHAHA! walau eh! halo. this 1 i know ok!

btw... evian, the so atas mineral water, when spelled backwards, is NAIVE. cool heh!

dunno leh... hahaha my uncle shared this wif me once upon a time.

ah looking at my room, green n pink n white papers over the floor. cp1, 2 , 3 flying all around when i on the fan. wat a sore but beautiful sight. not that i care to do any pharmaceutical care issues cos obviously there's none. n i've not reli made any intervention so far.. BOOOoooo. master of pharmacy degree hor.

law books r oso forever lying on the floor.. hogging for attn 'hey read me' wif it's bright violet cover but i juz don give a damn abt it's existence. forensics' on 23rd march n yawn yawn, adrenaline not pumping yet.

n oohh, i'l b presenting my research outline to js on fri. she told me to read up, give a brief account on intro, objective, literature review. i shud b able to define wat's daily defined dosage n y do v quantify antibiotics using this. oohh wow tot i'm NOT gonna study journals ever again after CPP... n then i got this cpe presenation on mid march on warfarin n the clinic... oooh wow march is not a gud month for me...

if sth as slien as Raf/MEK/ERK signalling cascade n erm generate new hits that target MEK1 using virtual screening can b done in 1 week, DDD for antibiotics sounds like it can b handled in a day. NO? i dunno. let's count how many "HARH?! U DUNNO AH?!" i'll get from js on fri keke.

ok stil no motivation yet.

don get me wrong i 'm all hardworking, responsible n serious at work, *yes yes i can c all frps nodding their head* juz that when i stress out i like to walk up n down aimlessly or termenung at the comp screen or go pee in the toilet *omg alwiz kena caught by cyee, which means she oso like to snake at the toilet hahaha*.

randomness aside.. my current life has been a weird ride so far. forget, forgot, forgotten. ah watever. i was alwiz caught by lil surprises here n there. i juz take it 1 at a time n go wif the flow. u know surprises like...

ahh... like... omg i have so many to list out. make that my nx post. i'm dead tired now. n i'm so excited! cos i know i'll b seeing pfong this weekend, n oso all my batchmates at johor! see ya guys!

oh wait this post was act written on feb 26th. tersambung wrong entry liao haha.

MOGWAI LIVE at KLCC!

2009-02-03T22:37:00.004+08:00

EUPHORIC!!!!!!!!!!!!

of TDM n a week where i broke 2 records

2009-01-12T23:20:00.007+08:00

finally get to b in a rather interesting dpt. 1st week was wif a frp who is pious enuf to pray many times n oso happens to have high metabolism rate so she gets hungry easily. *pls pls get my sarcasm lol* n only care abt ta-pauing drugs as souvenirs bfor leaving our hosp.. for gud. n the moz important thing was NOT taught.. dose recommendation. issh.. if only i'm as handsome as kyong hor *hpsfians wil get me*.

the nx thing i know the pengganti frp was at niteshift n suddenly i have so many samples to run n suddenly 7 out of 10 samples r out of range n suddenly ms. dunno nth at all was ALONE.. ON HER OWN, recommending dosage regimen to doctors. woo! expected Css? WAT?! targeted concentration? NANI?! for gudness sake, i hope those patients r all alive! i did follow up these cases n yeah.. they pretty much survived! phew!

oh ya n v sent ciclosporin samples to HSA cos our reagents dah EXPIRED (see.. poor hosps can't afford expensive reagents hor!) (oh wat's more has expired? premarin? clarinase? the list goes on). as usual HSA pharmacist wud call to inform us the results. so ya i picked up the phone n was talking to this HSA pharmacist while jotting down the results.. n i was like..

hmm this voice is sooooooo FAMILIAR.. oh wait... i know this voice!! *having this particular person in mind*

so i juz chip in randomly, hey may i know who am i talking to? n 'ms. wang' was her reply. AH HA! HSA. JB. pharmacist. ms. wang. that voice. CONFIRM!

so i yelled out... JING MEIN! wo shi sui lin ah..
wa hell.. was embarassed at 1st cos she stun a bit n cudn't recognise me lidat hahaha cos she nvr expect me to b in muar hosp. but anyway.. this is it.. v can stil b keeping in touch wif batchmates during working hrs muahhaha.

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ok so it's abt the week where i broke 2 records.

#1. i've been going back to kl every weekend since the day i was posted to muar. n this is the 1st weekend (10-11/1) that i had to stay back in muar.

huuuuuuuuuuu... there goes my triumphant record of balik kampung streak!

dammit! our hosp is doing fine all these while w/o this ridiculous slot called tdm on call. n y la dunno which geh poh chee wan to start this tdm on call thingy in the yr of 2009. n DENG! my shift wil b on 24-25/1 which is the cny eve weekend where u do spring cleaning n eat reunion dinner wth. alas swap shift wif luvly shu n ya there i was... waiting at tdm room to run samples..

but NO! there r no urgent samples to run watsoever not even therapeutic confirmation samples on sun.. n sumtimes i even evilly hope that there'll b samples to run so that me staying back in muar to do all this shit is justified! *sigh* such a waste of human resources.

#2. long story.

was getting the hang of working in tdm. y'know.. the ego n the superior mentality of docs. working in tdm makes u take pride a bit in being a pharmacist cos they listen to us nyeh nyeh! they need our advise on the dosage regimen nyeh hehehehe!

well in the midst of my evil laughter.. to cut long story short, i was transferred back to OPD n no longer in TDM. well due to my own confusion n blurness

so there was i.. dragging myself back to bloody OPD.. GOSH! little did i know that i'm gonna have terrible weeks ahead.

<ok kyong.. pls leave this blog now cos i so gonna bring up that inhaler incident that u've heard for the umpteenth time u'll b so sick that u wanna puke at ur laptop but ya i'm stil gonna blog it here. so SHOO! don say i din warn u.>

it's a bloody long n tiring week wif all the usual hassle of OPD. n yeah! it's fri! 4.55pm so i was dispensing to this last patient.

oh so rx got inhaler.. let me explain a bit. in muar it works lidat.. u bring ur empty inhaler to exchange a new1. i saw the old inhaler in this guy's bakul so i shake it n ooh... stil got much liquid inside so i told him.. encik pam yg lama ni masih ada, guna yg lama dulu baru guna yg baru ya.

ok let's name this man psycho babi.

psycho babi: @#$%^! eh apasal bagi yg lama. nak yg baru je la.

me: oh.. saya memang akan bagi yg baru. tapi juz nak bagi tau yg lama ni masih ada lagi, jgn bazir ya.

psycho babi: @#$#%@$** (forgot wat shit he said but kinda like cursing me for giving him back the old inhaler wtf)

me: *ok i've met wif a lot of rude pts in OPD so i tot i can handle this plus it's almoz 5 rest assured i'm in perfectly gud mood=) meanwhile making my point that he shud finish up old inhaler bfor using the new inhaler* (tsk tsk.. how angelic i am stil got patience to deal wif difficult patients like this, samo help hosp to save inhalers)

well this go on for sum while until this psycho babi suddenly shove his hand into the counter n slam away his bakul!!! yelling TAK NAK BAGI TAK NAK BAGI LA!! wif that face. THAT FACE.

OMG!!! he FREAKING SLAMMED THE BAKUL AWAY!! u know where meds drop off n i have to pick it up.

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

fat dou yao foh ah! this triggered my anger rite away walao eh i yelled back at him "ENCIK, WHY ARE YOU SO RUDE TO ME??!!" (haih stupid me.. as tho this uneducated babi wil paham inggeris.. tula don wan to brush up my malay.. now wan to scold ppl dunno how to scold pulak )

halo! it was an abosulutely polite n unprovocative statement.. y wud any1 in his sane mind OVERREACT to this extent?! obviously he's not in his sane mind. mayb he doesn't even have a brain.
i wish that i can juz yell back at him lu cakap tak nak bagi punya ah.. n confiscate all his meds. isshh isshh ishh but i'm juz an inexperienced prp i don think i have the rite to do so.

me: "awak tak perlu buat macam ini lo. saya hanya cakap jgn bazir saje!" raising my tone n trembling in anger.

psycho babi: "hah awak cakap macam ini la.. nanti saya beritau pengarah awak siap.

me: *showing that OK! FINE! face**raising tone up another notch* SAYA HANYA BAGI TAU JGN BAZIR LO! SAYA MEMANG TAK SALAH! *yes yes yes i did sound very harsh by that time*

psycho babi: @#$%$%*

me: *keep my composure n tell myself i stil gonna dispense this profesionally* so i dispense his other meds.. ni cair darah.. setengah biji bancuh air minum selepas makan.

psycho babi: AH CAKAP BYK LAGI! BAGI UBAT!!! *snatching his meds away from me WALAO EH BABI!!*

me: *gek sei ngo* so i dispense all his meds SLOWLY.. telling him the indication n makan brp kali tiap kali makan brp biji. hah..

ok so finally here comes the inhalers.

me: ok encik ni pam yg baru.. *reminding him salbutamol use when needed n budesonide need to use everyday*(wa dei i'm so damn professional)

then i pick up the old inhalers wif an 'oh btw' look...

me: jgn bazir pam yg lama ni ah..

n wat he did nx was my breaking point.

he took the salbutamol inhaler, open the mouthpiece n

FREAKING SPRAYED THE CONTENTS TO MY DIRECTION while mumbling AH NI MANA MASIH ADA? NI MANA MASIH ADA?? *continue spraying to his heart's content!!!!*

like that's not enuf... he picked up the budesonide inhaler, open the mouthpiece n FREAKING SPRAYED WATEVER'S THAT'S LEFT INSIDE INTO THE AIR!!! again.. mumbling ni mana masih ada?

n FREAKING THREW BOTH INHALERS BACK ONTO THE COUNTER!!!

AAARRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

RAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!

F*CK!

F*CK!

WTF!!! i clutched my fist so tightly i can juz explode like an atomic bomb destroying anything within the radius of 1.5 metres including that psycho babi!!! *bsshh ba boom*

clutched my fist ya i did but i was too stunned to react to wat he had juz done. i juz stoned there instead of spraying him back wif my pepperspray. SHAIT! y didn't i take down his name n ic n deny his right of collecting meds in muar hosp for the rest of his life?! ma de! he juz insulted a pegawai farmasi gred U41 ok!!!!

i went to the filling area behind.. n looked at my fellow colleagues .. n of all things.. i said sth like gor gor dou hai sui yan lei ga..

n then TEARS started to stream down my cheeks!

ohh NOOOOOoooo! that's not wat i wan. y i failed to control my tears at public once again?! hou yu ah! n like that's not embarassing enuf.. i cudn't stop my tears for the nx 20mins. haha motherly/angelic madam lye n yshan tried so hard to console me.

that mdm lye damn funny la now she see me everyday she'll ask.. eh ni zhen yang ah? ni ok ma? like i'm sum kinda yong yi sao siong dek lui yan.. *faye wong's song playing in the background kaka*

so yeah... this my my another record... crying for the 1st time at work! DENG! BARBARIANS! i shall not b nice anymore!

p/s: this entry was super outdated n by now my anger has subsided la tho i can stil get very gek dong if i ever gonna talk abt it again. can't get to post it up last week even when i'm so bored in muar cos got no router over the weekend *ahem*.

supposed to b a recap n resolution entry but turned out to b sth else

2009-01-07T23:16:00.005+08:00

it's exactly a week since having a blast counting down to 2009 wif fellow prps n frps at our house. shud b time for an entry on recap n resolution. but now that i have a faint heart, a tiring n sumtimes mundane 8 to 5 job, i wudn't dare n cudn't bear looking back at 2008... a yr of uncovering hidden paths n exploring new territories. a yr where dreams became reality n the reality was merely sum kinda delusion. everything... it's been crazily exciting, beautiful n painful.

2009 n i'm 24 but who cares i juz celebrated my 23rd bday. hoho u have all the rite to get jealous at dec babies like me i won mind. nth too fancy nth too elaborate *c my frens r not that creative u know* (my sec skool frens were juz too lazy to coordinate a surprise until they cudn't even bother to hide the cake or the present n poor bday gal had to fake her delight at seeing the cake n the present wth.) but stil it's so warm at heart=) mmm thank u ppl!

this yr 1 more grp of ppl celebrated my bday. my current housemates. by now i think u guys shud now who they r.. pjoo, kyong, n cyee. like who wud've tot that v r gonna stay tgt sum day rite? ya my life is getting more n more random i know!

there's this thurs nite where i was catching my million dollar deal in the loo. n cyee the irritating nx door housemate who shares the same bathroom was yelling.. oi lei zou gan mat yeh ah?

so i yelled back... O SI AH! in a grumpy tone. cos i was RELI close to catching that million dollar deal n juz sending the msg across that i need A BIT MORE TIME in the loo.

n yes.. deal was successful. so i flush victoriously n walk out of the loo n out of my room. n AT THAT VERY SECOND...

HAPPY BIRRRR~~~THDAY TO U!

HAPPY BIRRRR~~~THDAY TO U!

n the nx thing i know the geli landlord was holding the bday cake.
the irritating housemate nx door was clapping her fragile hands away.
n the narcissistic housemate from downstairs was strumming his guitar gleefully.

AAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

stunned! shocked! embarassed! happy! surprised! delighted! watever. man it's a bag of mixed emotions.

so the song ended n i'm supposed to blow the candles but every1 can stand no more n burst into their wildest laughter.

i'm celebrating my 20th bday instead of 23rd!!! kakaka!!! get it get it??

sheeeshh! of all time....

y wud they wan to surprise me wif a coffee bday cake at that time when i'm making my own choc cake?

y wud i make my choc cake at that time when they wan to surprise me wif a coffee bday cake?

y is the timing sooo GOOD?

the thing is.. they had lighted the candles when cyee was yelling at me to check out wat i was doing in the loo.......

OMG!!!!! BWAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHA!!!!!!!

n they wudn't wan to blow off juz in case i get out of the loo suddenly. of course i didn't know their plan la... do big business mm gap dat lei 1. so i juz took my own sweet time.

so by that time i get out of the toilet n finished the bday song.. the 3 small candles, tho stil lit wif weak flame, had totally melted omg! coating the surface of the cake PINK! so left the 2 candles stil standing as if i'm only celebrating my 20th bday!

OMG!!!!! WAKAKAKAKAKAKAKKAKAKAKKAKKAKAKKAKA!!!

this celebration was seriously funny!!! tho it's downright simple, i'll nvr forget this SHITTY bday surprise. notice the pun hehe.

CUTI CUTI CUTI

2009-01-05T20:55:00.005+08:00

those were the days when i juz had to guai guai dei sit thru eos exams n a long holiday wud b there waiting for me. u know juz like... rite there!

HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIIIIIIIIIHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! ok u get my point it's a long sigh.

cny is around the corner n v all chinese at hpsf dah kiasuly berebut-rebut to take leave. how la lidat?!

wat if i take cho 3 cho 4 cho 5?... doink! in my dreams. no i don even get to dream often. hmm does that mean i don have enuf REM sleep? izzit bad? am i overworked? watever.. 3 consecutive day offs.. i can c pn. yati stamping a big BERAMBUS! TAK MUNGKIN DILULUSKAN! on my borang cuti.

wat if i take cho 3 cho 4? deng! then come back muar on thurs nite work on friday then after work go back kl again! wah! gam hou hei! i wudn't mind if the distance back to muar is like my house to imu or if mayang sari is like donald trump's limousine wif a driver as handsome as daniel wu. delays. dirty seats. rude drivers wif dental caries. man the reality is alwiz harsh.

wat if i take cho 3? harh... 1 day leave where got enuf ? pack n go back muar on cho 3.. when every1 is stil munching pineapple tarts kue ka pek spitting out gua zhee's shell bz gambling n collecting ang pau n i'll b working my ass off in the ward... huuuu! samo less ang pau less income aiyoooo. y am i so pathetic?

HOU FAN AH!

n then cny's eve need to eat reunion dinner samo! huuu... last yr i miss the reunion dinner n i have a bad feeling i may b missing it this yr... ohhhh NOOOOOO~! cos i have TDM ON CALL til 1pm! y la y muz i have the shift at THAT weekend of all weekends.... the hosp is working fine ALL THESE YRS w/o this shift n y do they even need to start it at jan 2009?! the very month wif cny!

isn't that 1 silly shift? juz make every1 tag at tdm so those doing the bekalan wad can come do the emergency tdm la. not like there's a lot sample to run on the weekends. don care die die oso muz find ppl ganti... but who else bside faris... WHO ELSE... HOU FAN AH!

n then i'm teochew nang need to bai tee gong. how can i miss bai tee gong la rite? the roast chicken roast pork the gambling session oh so merry! so have to take leave samo on the following mon n tues. but that's 2 days more.. n i'll b in clinical by then.. 1 n a half week gone liao! how am i going to fulfill my quota or learn anything?? how la lidat?!

ahhhh!!! HOU FAN AH!!!! *echoed by the sot poh nx to my room* *i think she's stil staring at the shift schedule this month* *at least i'm being productive by venting this on my blog*

well if i'm posted in kl... it wud save me all the trouble! if not all... say 70%. man i wud not even need to take leave on the following mon n tues ok.. can stil get up nx day n go to work as usual...

WHY AM I NOT WORKING IN KL???!!!

tho i don get that eos exam stress now, see i stil get the stress on how to apply my leave wisely.

like my mood is not bad enuf.. there's alwiz sth...STH to make it WORSE. MY HAIR!=.= padan muka.. alwiz like to do things at the spur~ of the moment. ya gud.. now i look like siu fong fong AGAIN! AGAIN! arrrghhhh!... y do i have to relive this nitemare?

i juz wan to trim off the split ends n the tangled parts which alwiz get on my nerves... so i told the gal to make my hair bao yi dian, duan yi dian... when i wear my specs after the cut.. i was like.... AHHH! gao meng ah!!! it's now bao HEN DUO! duan HEN DUO! very yok chek leh... my rm400-worth curls r gone! gone in 20 mins!!

scissors r such a brutal weapon u know.

very sim tiah! very sakit hati! very xin tong! wat more languages?

n for 5 months i tot the sexy curls r gonna help me tremendously in nurturing my ladylikeness or womanliness... gone! GONE WIF THE SCISSORS!!!! haih she wanted to make it into those cool layers but aiseh.. i'm luen mou 1 ok. it stil looked acceptable at 1st but once the salon effect (u know wat i mean.. the VIDAL SASSOON EFFECT) wear off.. i'm back looking like a nerdy teenager who stil have to obey curfews set by pappy n mommy n who knows nth abt drugs except panadol. WTH.

haih... this is wat happen when u blog on a monday.

2008-12-24T22:47:00.002+08:00

jing jing jingle bell jingle ur head~~~ dammit. y does xmas have to fall on a thurs n not fri? *super jealous kat kyong n cyee!! well at 1st. but all sympathy n empathy for them now ah y am i stil so full of sympathy after a month in opd*

chill chill.. i'll better b having sum gud time at malacca wif fellow prps tmrw keke.

i wan to blog abt life in muar.. my new housemates.. my bday.. the disastrous badminton outing.. sth random.. many things! but uh.. dah tak larat la. post opd syndrome.

n y is this sucky feeling creeping all over me again?? when wil i ever gonna get over this?? shucks. i SHUD NOT listen to coldplay in the 1st place.

gudnite. n merry xmas!

OPD

2008-12-13T23:33:00.007+08:00

EEerhh~~~AAahhh~~~ *juz stretching my arms n legs all u dirty minds* how i wish i can indulge my senses in sum kinda luxury spa wif aromatherapy, do sum acrobatic stunts at a thai massage, or get a ticklish n scream-inducing chinaman foot massage!

or or i can alwiz have retail therapy ngeh ngeh... when oh when can i get my 1st ever paycheque??.. ok not 1st la... 1st from lousy premiership 2nd from blue arrow... only 3 paycheques at glasgow tat can't even total up to 100 pounds.. i'm such a lazy ass. ok my point is.. my 1st paycheque as a PHARMACIST... ~tra la la la la...... la la la la~.... get it? get it? that ever so poplular xmas tune! nvm. ain't it great to have ur paycheque out like RITE BFOR festive seasons.. shop n boom the country's economy.. ah i know i'm patriotic.

was thinking how to heal my sore legs n now i'm talking abt retail therapy.. ya gals r contradicting.

yes ppl i'm at OPD. outpatient. or acronym for Otak Pening Department. it is. literally. this aptly explains y i've not been blogging for so many weeks. well hmm it oso means that i'm slowly getting a LIFE in muar! MUARhaha!

1st week was all abt having face as thick as great wall of china n learning from scratch.

i confidently told the patient to cuci kepala wif cetrimide shampoo until she gave me that 'harh? wat's wrong wif my hair ' look. omg! how wil i know that shampoo can ALSO b used to wash face n treat acne wor?!

i told patient to sapu chlorhexidine at his luka (antiseptic wat not meh?!) when pjoo cut in n said ni utk sapu pusat bayi. nani?! -_-lll *embarassed n demoralised*

n then on haji i had to work from 6pm to 9.30pm. DAMN sucky to work on a public holiday ok! but hey i'm a profesional, i'm here bcos the ppl need me. che wa! instantly felt better until....

1st i dunno how to handle the comp, then i can't spot common mistakes in the rx n then i was not sure wat's the suitable dose of cefuroxime n augmentin to recommend to the doctor ALL of which the pembantu can do it effortlessly. *shame shame*

well there r juz too many times where i felt embarassed n demoralised until i forgot wat r those incidents. sumtimes i juz wonder does the 3 n a half yrs of tertiary education plus the master of pharmacy certificate (che wa so yeng lidat rite... MASTER!) actually prepare me to b a qualified pharmacist in msia's hospital setting. see.. frust again.

ok at least the gud thing abt opd is.. time passes sooo damn fast cos every sec u r doing STH.

juz when u tot screening is juz pressing numbers n assigning the rx to diff counters...
eh can i get it faster? i got 1 medicine only ma. eh i stay very far 1 la come here take medicine very cham 1 la. eh my son not free to fetch me here can give me all in 1 go? eh who who who die adi i need to go back faster give me 1st la! *then go private hosp la! haiyoooo!*

or there'll b situations like eh this 1 no cop doc i can't dispense to u. can u go back to the doctor n get it? (walao u think i write myself 1 ah.. u call the doctor walk down n cop for me la!) *chill man chill! i can't do anything ok! it's the doctor's fault go n scold him la y come n scold me wor!!!*

oh ya i can now dispense like a robot. ni ubat darah tingii 1 biji sehari ni ubat jantung 1 biji makan 3 kali sehari ni ubat cair darah setengah biji larut dlm air minum selepas makan... brain cells totally in dormant form when i was mumbling those stuff. n sumtimes u juz wanna pity the patient taking ALL the classes of antihypertensives available n i seriously wonder... yao mou! yao gam kua jiong mou?! like do u reli reli need all 6 antiypertensives at 1 go.. wahpiang! izzit reli that all these patients' bp r not controlled or r they juz not being compliant n doc wil tot that adding 1 more antihypertensive wil solve the prob. dahlah v dot not enuf medicine simply prescribe samo n patient not taking medicines n then it'll all b wasted n there goes our meagre budget n the taxpayer's money n the prob is STIL never ending like when is this gonna end WTF!

many patients like to hand over their numbers to u n say oh ni dah terlepas n u'll have to squat down n ransack that humongous pile of bakuls to find THAT PARTICULAR NUMBER. halo! can v have a better system... imagine squatting down n get up every 5mins... postural hypotension gao gao ok! after few terlepas prescription.. i'm seriously NAUSEUOS i'm not kidding!

man n then u freak out cos u can't find the number, u search the entire opd high n low for the number but stil nowhere to b found. more bakuls r piling behind. STRESSED! then the patient wil continue to irritate u. where r my medications? cb y u all so inefficient 1? huuuu my parents oso nvr scolded me lidat.

or or u'll find urself arguing wif sum very stubborn pts n slow everything down. y the medicine diff adi 1? (diff but same function 1.) last time not this color 1 leh! (it's same thing juz diff brand!) but they juz DON'T wan to listen to u n keep arguing that it's different n n keep insist they wan the prev med!!! DUUHHHHH!!! [n hor sum schizo pts damn hard to deal wif lo!] weii y color diff adi 1? (mayb ur condition is getting better n doc decided to reduce ur dose=) wat shit r u talking abt! wat getting better! i need that color i wan that color! (**man i shud juz call the doc to maintain the prev dose cos he's OBVIOUSLY not getting any better! then he'll oso go back happily getting the drug of his preferred color win win situation wth dispense to schizo pts oso got yam yeng adi**) n pts r forever asking for panadols or lactulose or any cream for their itchness even tho they understand that v CAN'T supply them when it's not stated in rx. boleh la boleh la can la can la ke yi la ke yi la! (grrrrrr! SHUT UP!)

well after like 1 or 2 days i totally completely absolutely have ZERO EMPATHY / SYMPATHY to rude ppl! can u not b so rude??

then there's this fella who keep snacking in the pantri all the time who can sms while filling who works slower than a snail omg who don give a damn on the number of patients waiting out there and and tis other fella who nvr admit her mistakes who nvr wan to print label n send u searching high n low again for that particular label. they r such a powerful force n the whole gang may boycott me if they accidentally bum into my blog i'm so gonna die i shall live a miserable prp yr ahead wtf but i don care anymore cos it's my blog n i'm gonna rant rant rant rant rant til my heart's content cos there's nth i can do to change the situation cos bosses high up there don reli understand wat v r going tru bla bla bla

rawrrrrrrrrrrr! i'm at my breaking point! i'm impatient anyway since the day i was born. i'll cry n yell until mom stucks the feeding bottle into my mouth muahaha.

it's reli a pressure cooker at muar opd. i mean like where in msia that u'll get such severe medicine shortage prob??!! patients r alwiz in bad mood cos they r forever waiting for their medications for more than an hr n after that v'll tell them v don have this v don have that or v fail to contact doctor. n then all these bengang patients wil come lashing at innocent pharmacists like me. aw!

can v ever have a proper system to inform the doctors that v don have this v don have that so they won keep prescribing this prescribing that so that v won end up calling them n tell them that v don have this v don have that. HOU FAN AH! *ala cyee style*

i'm afraid that a yr from now i'll b this evil cold blooded pharmacist who don give a damn thing abt pt's healthcare n well being anymore. oi meh!

ok rantings aside.. do u know that v act have a pembantu who create this computerised labeling system like wat v had in strathclde pp3. omg! i'm so proud to b a muarian! v don manually write those labels halo hkl ppl.. how COOL v r keke!

all v prps sayang each other n v r lucky to have very helpful frps around. like in opd, v have the ever so chill en. azhar who nvr show any expression even when he's cracking a joke. i was alwiz wondering.. err.. did u or did u not juz joke wif me? (ky says he look like fan shu xian sheng in lao fu zi) n then v have xiao long nu, the moz si man frp whom u'll probably nvr hear her raise her voice in her entire life who oso happens to b the object of pj's n ky's syrup making fantasy. ILL!

n then there's abang mad who alwiz tickle my bones when i was damn tension who told me that it's no fun if patients get their medications w/o waiting when he sees that i was furiously RUNNING around getting my job done n he'll b like JGN LARI! n oso kak yani who secretly type me labels when i failed to find the mysteriously missing bakul!

at the end of the day, if the pt says thank u n left opd wif more understanding on the medications that they r taking, i'll feel like my work is appreciated n i'll b happy. teehee. see.. i'm not alwiz in bad mood like those menopausal aunties wif sagging boobs ok. who knows 1 yr from now i'm this angelic zenny pharmacist dispensing the drugs lovingly to all patients no matter how rude they r... o mei toh fat.

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ah forgot to post this entry haha! so outdated liao. i've finished my 4 weeks in opd! byebye opd n sore legs ~~n yummy chewy orange flavoured vitamin c~~, tdm here i come.

n yooooooooooooohoooooooooooooooo! i got my paycheque! weeee! so.... nano or touch? touch or nano? kekekeke. yeh yeh!

2008-11-24T22:08:00.002+08:00

wait wait wait i stil haven't finish blabbing. u know wat... v saw NAMEWEE! u know... that COOL DUDE who sang negaraKUKU, 麻坡的华语, n almoz got his butt at kamunting detention camp.

yes v freaaaking bump into NAMEWEE at the buntayan food court last week! he juz randomly da bao sum food over there n by the time v realised IT's HIM.. he walked pass the foodcourt n disappear. ahhhh! *totally starstruck!*... okla not that kua jiong. but reli wan to run up to him lo.. take a pic, have a small chat.. at least i'll have proof that i din chia dua pao at my blog. he's hair is kinda long now n he ties them up wif a white bandana. ah! stil as cool as ever.

watch out ppl! mayb i'll b featured in his NEXT MUSIC VIDEO... who knows haha! there he goes rapping...

麻坡的 pharmacist
jin jia beh pai
他们办事很快
他们很可爱
人见人爱
patient 可以信赖
doctor 也要闪开

wahahaha.... perasan!!!!!!! issh i hate myself.
but at least it rhymes! my 1st attempt writing lyrics.. in like 2 mins.. che wa!

seriously if v get to make frens wif him, that's like godsent for getting muar kakaka.

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ohya i'm not done yet. KLites.. pls look out for me!
i need to get a standing mirror.. y'know those kind wif wheels.. cos i'm a considerate tenant *ahem* i don wan to bang a paku on phek joo's walls. i've been wearing contact lens wif my instinct n urrgghh... very mang zang.. it's reli hard to fit it onto ur iris properly esp when u r kinda groggy in the morning. and and.. my hair. my clothes. do i look fine? i seriously dunno. see! need to get mirror.

mirror aside, i need to get a hi-fi! live w/o music seriously sucks. juz realise that the music library in my laptop is kinda pathetic. n youtubing is reli a pain in my arse. by the time i finished blogging.. the song is not even 50% loaded. *vomit blood* no mood to youtube watsoever. reli crave for those high end hi-fi but i cudn't afford. so price muz b reasonable wif gud sound quality cos i need to blast tmn sg abong indah wif nirvana neil young n sum psychedelic rock stuff, muz b able to fit into the car boot.. bla bla.. i juz wan to get a nice hi-fi asap.

my room is seriously in need of these 2 things. do check out for me!

week 2 & 3

2008-11-24T21:19:00.004+08:00

n there i was at inpatient.. or better known as far.ma.si. be.ka.lan. wad. blardy hell that's 7 sukukata altgt! it juz get on my nerves when i'm on the phone...

at 1st i'll go helo! selamat pagi! farmasi bekalan wad! *enthusiatic tone* to

helo! farmasi bekalan wad. *sopan tone* to

halo. farmasi.. *boh mood tone* to

ya.. farmasi.. *tak syok tone*

n on bad days.. halo.
then let the nurse go on blabbing n then she'll stop at 1point n ask eh ni farmasi bekalan wad kan? then only i'll reply ya. keke only 3 sukukata.. ha.lo... ya.

there goes my enthusiam. there were juz TOO MANY calls!!! deng! it's so irritating. i need to stop watever i'm doing get up from the chair walk down to the phone take msg pass the msg then come back to my seat again n pick up those prescriptions that r scattered on the floor bcos the fan juz blew them away bcos v at far.ma.si. be.ka.lan. wad don have air-cond!

nurses r damn kacau k! not like they call everytime for anything urgent or wat.. n 40% of the calls were asking for mr. tan like hey i know his da' man in inpatient dpt, juz call directly to da man's room la! damn I'M NOT a RECEPTIONIST!

wat i do? record new prescriptions or sambung bekalan/ floor stock into the comp then fill the rite drugs into the rite sampul. ya it's pretty mundane. *yawn yawn* even masalah polypharmacy can b detected by the comp. so wat i've been doing is juz calling the wad nurses y r they giving ranitidine n pantoprazole tgt.. n they'll alwiz tell u oh doctor sudah off pantoprazole la... oiii!! then y did u send in both the sambung bekalan sampul n the new presciptions tgt in the 1st place!

special thanx to yeong ru n boon chuan who taught me from abc 123 to the xyz of how things work at far.ma.si. be.ka.lan. wad from day1. if not for them i'll b COMPLETELY LOST. muar has a lot of gud souls u know. *batu pahat prps i'm talking to u*

n our boss mr .tan is another nice but stressed out frp. he'll suddenly sit down n test ur knowledge abt the antibiotics n i'll either hentam a bit or go 'erm... *trying to think very hard but act i don even need to think cos i KNOW that I DUNNO*... erm.. bu zhi dao... or wang ji le... or hao xiang you ting guo... haha wtf. then he'll say nx time don key in the prescriptions blindly... uncle! the pembantu say v were very slow liao leh! no time for this! btw, he's considered the moz eligible bachelor for hos.pi.tal. pa.kar. sul.ta.nah. fa.ti.mah.'s std. so he's a hot item between cyee n hming muahaha.

don get me wrong . i'm very happy in there=) time passed very fast in far.ma.si. be.ka.lan. wad cos i've been bz all the time but the great thing is u'll stil get to breathe... curicuri munch a snack bar in the pantry.. chatting wif colleagues n pembantu. it'll turn to slow pace during the afternoon n that's when it's quite relaxing.

but i seem to work overtime compare to the outpatient prps cos blardy nurses have the bad habit of sending in their prescriptions at 4.45pm... n sumtimes tepat tepat at 5pm! oi! y buli us lidat! but v pharmacist sayang our patients=) so even if it's 5pm... v stil dispense the drugs.

as for drama, it'as as gud as zero. the only time when i got a bit pening was when wad 6 n icu requested for bactigras AT THE SAME TIME, n both for URGENT CASES. n then v at far.ma.si. be.ka.lan. wad only have 1 MISERABLE BOX which contains only 10 patches! damn kao cham ok!

in the end i open up the box n give 5 to wad 6, 5 to icu. n then pinjam another box from satelite so at last it's 15 patches for icu. BUT THEN, heard that it's for a patient who's got his WHOLE BODY BURNT! for gudness' sake, i dunno wat's the size of the patient, imagine wat can 15 miserable patches do???!!! can't even cover 20% of the fella's body. i juz felt VERY. SORRY.

that's y.. prp in hpsf has the 'privilege' of getting another kind of training that i bet prp from other hosp wil not have. BEGGING for drugs!! seriously weh! v r this poor ok. everytime hosp melaka, tangkak n batu pahat pick up the phone, juz by hearing the word hosp MUar, they so wanna yell buggers, v don have drugs for u!! or hang up immediately. pathetic rite? guess at the end of this 1 yr, i'll b acquiring a new skill keke.

2008-11-19T22:25:00.006+08:00

the birth of a baby is celebrated. the death of an old man is mourned. it's happening within 2 days in my maternal family. wat an irony. i tried to walk down memory lane, searching for those moments v shared wif him.. ya v had gatherings in taiping on cny n his bday. but i nvr reli have a nice chat wif him, nvr hold his hand n stroll in the park. i felt bad. then i cudn't attend the entire funeral procession.. n not doing my part as a granddaughter, now i'm feeling VERY bad.

i took only 1 day's leave to pay my last respect. for the 1st time in my life, seeing a dead body lying inside a coffin rite in front of me, tot it's gonna b scary but when i look at that peaceful face, all i felt was calm n serene. it's a relief that he passed away w/o much pain n suffering. yes, v din shed a tear bcos u told us not to. r.i.p grandpa.

human beings r claustrophobic in general, well at least i am. but come to think abt it, u were enveloped in ur mom's womb when u were stil a foetus, but u r not realising it. n when u die, u'll b enclosed in a coffin, oso nvr realising it. so.. wat am i trying to say.. i dunno. juz having sum tots.. not to deep.. n juz feeling weird.. yeah.. yet again.

working as a pharmacist: week 1

2008-11-03T21:20:00.008+08:00

MON

to those who think that i can nvr b the 1st to reach jabatan kesihatan johor *wink wink mying i'm talking abt u*, i was the 1st!! *issh bangganya!* ok 2nd.. cos peiling was like few secs earlier than me. it was 7.30am. sat in front of the bz-chatting staffs but were treated like sum transparent beings wth. watta do.. not their work time yet.

n u know wat... come 8am batchmates started to flock in. like oiiii.... my crafty display of kiasuism serves no purpose at all in the end! finally they distribute the borang. suddenly v were like on AMAZING RACE. every1 was convinced that the posting was on 1st come 1st serve basis. every1 wans to b the earliest to report at menara sarawak (which was 5 mins away from jabatan kesihatan johor)! it's like pitting against each other to get the hosp of ur choice! well or izzit juz kiasuLin haha... so gan jiong u know. *STRESS gau gau*

after handing in the borang (DENG!!! only to fill in 1 page of borang!!! babi!!! y can't v fill in ALL the borang in menara sarawak at 1 go n not let us drive around!!! the office boy can go over to collect wif his bike ok!!!) i rushed down only to find that my kao fu hadn't arrive to fetch me to menara sarawak.

*panick* man i'm in a race!! n the funny thing is that i was the 1st but now i was the LAsT.... LAST!!! can u imagine it??!! wat if i can't get muar?? *panick attack*

luckily pfong gave a lift to menara sarawak. muahahaha how vain i was. the posting was conducted in the same session. n eventually, every1 was happy to get the hosp of their choice. i got MUAR.. *leganya* which is like 2 hrs away from my home sweet home. which is y i make myself so kiasu in the 1st place but act i don even need 1 bit of kiasuism to get it haha.

n i tot i'm gonna sleep in sum kinda creepy hotel in muar or tumpang like a parasite at sum1's place. it's absolutely RIDICULOUS that v only get to know the hosp on the very day u lapor diri AND expect u to work on the very same day AND expect ppl from outstation like me to find a proper accommodation IMMEDIATELY.. blardy stupid inconsiderate garvehmen!

manatau that day my lucky star was twinkling ever so brightly! apparently pj got a house in muar, n i get to sewa a room from him. a big room! n his house got all the facilities a tenant can dream of (even huiming is so tempted!). omg! it's settled IN A DAY! eh so EASY y am i worrying in the 1st place!

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n that's how i ended up in muar. the hosp that i'm working is hosp pakar sultanah fatimah. i don understand y they wan to change from the simple hosp muar to a name so la gao like this... fatimah... juz hear the name oso know tak efficient adi. n pakar... kononnya.

it's a hosp where v have INSUFFICIENT budget to buy drugs so patients end up blaming pharmacist for not supplying all their medicines. where patient lose their patience n throw colorful words like CCB at u cos they have to wait 1 to 2 hrs to for their turn. where sum1 tak boleh tahan anymore n write to the column of berita harian to complain abt its lack of medicines' supply. where hardworking n efficient pharmacists like me r working but stil cud't make things any better.

n it's a hosp wif 7 day back to back NIGHT SHIFTS ahhhhh! ok ok i heard that it's easy n stressless to work at nite. but huuuuuu.... i takut hantu! how la lidat?? i won dare to go to the toilet!! but i can't possibly tahan my bladder for 11 hrs rite! huuuuuu... n need to work on weekend oso can't go back kl. n i'll have sleeping probs.. like jet lag.. then my biological clock wil go haywire.. then pimples all over my face. ahhhh! so not looking forward to it.

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TUES-THURS

in STOR department. i was pretty much like a storekeeper clerk secretary assistant officeboy. photostating faxing double checking, running errands for my senior,... count dd stock, supply dd, keep the key to d locker, call pharmaceutical companies, type borang pesanan.. nvr ending documenting work.. 1 leg kick.

my senior frp is a CHINESE.. so v jiang hua yu! yeh yeh! can communicate easily which leads to greater efficiency!! she's fast furious but stil keeping her cool when under pressure from everywhere. being an frp in stor is reli a sucky job. it's ur fault when hosp got not enuf medicine but padahal it's the blardy garvehmen who din allocate budget properly. neh neh those big portions go to hkl n hsa lo. BOOO.

she's very nice. she'll ejek me when i do things slowly... not that i don wan to b efficient... i'm blur, not gud wif m. excel, have sucky short term memory n digest verbal instructions slowly!! when my stomach is growling she'll offer me CHOCOLATE!!

1 day i was being fidgety as usual.. SUDDENLY... my leg accidentally kick the computer's power supply n the comp black out immediately n SHIT i need to retype everything i juz did! instead of scolding me like a zhue tau bing, she said that i'm the moz 'cho loh' prp she's ever seen in her life. muahahahaha... only 2nd day working wif her she knows i'm cho loh adi! smart ah. normally ppl used to b deceived by my innocent face keke.

n u know u r this new kid on the block. need to introduce urself sumtimes when u work wif other ppl. n then it's alwiz ppl get reli confused, whether they shud start their conversation wif me in malay english or mandarin. it's alwiz... u mix ke? u keturunana BABA ke? after introducing myself, it's alwiz like 'oh CINA ke? ingat MELAYU ni... ISSSSHHHH!

it's damn funny to c their embarassed face when they mistaken my race. *slabbing my face wif extra generous amount of skin whitening lotion as i'm typing this wakaka*

FRI

well this is the best part of working in garvehmen sector. 2 n half hrs of lunch break! woot can u blif it! went to a jap restaurant... not bad got aircond on a hot sunny n can refill green tea til it turns to colorless tea. n the greatest thing is they have seats where u need to take off ur shoes!! smelly tired bruised feet can finally get out of the socks n breathe sum fresh air! *godsent to my toes* n they serve gud bibimbab too! it's reli great for muar's std u know.

bought bus ticket. reach office like 3 oredi. imagine only left 2 hrs to finish ur stuff! of course can't finish la. in the end i ot for half an hr DENG! time to get out was 6.15pm. haha quite stupid oso. i count count the time.. eh stil can bathe. so i fast fast bathe, change n was on the go by 6.15 lo. but... after u wear shoe reverse car close the gate wait at the junction make a few turns to another tmn, wait at junction again, stuck awhile at town.. it's oredi 6.30pm by the time v reach the station.

n u know wat!!! v freaking MISS the 6.30pm transnational bus!!

the counter told us it's 6.33pm now... pffff the bus had taken off at 6.30pm! kanasai since when msia's bus so punctual 1! my phone was stil 6.30pm lo *follow punch card time*. AHhhhhhheeyoyo! how can i miss the bus?? then the freaking transnational lady told us to KEJAR BAS! w/o knowing which direction v asked pj to kejar down the road hahaha.. NO not initial D style.. it's like driving to the mamak near ur house style... - _ -l l l... v don need 3 master of pharmacy graduates to figure out that IT'S IMPOSSIBLE TO KEJAR lo!!!

went back to get another bus.. hasry.. the very bus that hming told us that it's not reliable. dammit.. v both tot it's mayang sari!! cos v remembered sth like 'areee' haha.

reli very sry to angeline. bcos of ME, she missed the bus. boh mood. wasted rm16. reached home more than an hr later than expected. all my life only know how to trouble ppl n leave ppl wif bad impression. seeeee! char siew! arrgggghhh!

that nite i slept on my comfy-pigsy bed in my the PIG STY. yieeepieee!
the weekend was great. nvr too tired to tell every1 all the stories n dramas. AND i practised driving.

SUN

back to muar... *goldfish eye* again

it's kinda weird

2008-11-02T00:53:00.003+08:00

i can't sleep but i'm feeling very calm n zenny. ah heck, y izzit so...

i'm looking at the pile of boxes n luggages n bags lining on the floor. yeh i pretty much lug everything in my room except the furnitures. *perempuan!* 3 months later, n i'm packing again. this sucks! it's 95% done rite now, at 12.56am. ni la padah nya to pack last min.

shud i bring along my tilam? rice cooker? pots? ahh =SiLai Lin= in da house. nah, didn't bring any of those tho i wish to.

going off to jb tomolo. so that i can lapor diri on monday once the kementerian kesihatan johor buka pintu. *kiasuism at its best* so that i'll b posted to muar. so that i can go back to kl effortlessly every weekend. che wa 1st time in my life so homesick!

all this while, i live by the motto "when the ship goes near the bridge it'll b straight". *uh i don mean it literally, translate in cantonese la pls* i'm alwiz the last person to worry n i'm lucky that things kinda fall in place.

but now.. huuuu.. 1st time in my life i'm facing so many uncertainties. i dunno where i'll b posted. i dunno where i'll b staying. i dunno whether wil i get to rent a clean, strategic room in the heart of muar so that i can walk to the hospital, eating place n the shopping complex bcos i can't drive n i don have a car. n yeh.. i'm working.. wif no inkling on wat i'm gonna deal wif.. wif only a wee bit of memory on things i've studied bcos my brain is pretty much occupied by memories of my europe trips. i'm so gonna get scolded from my seniors bcos of my stupidity.

la la la la la la.

scared? not yet.

things juz haven't kick in yet! issh issh issh y do i alwiz lack the sense of urgency.

but when things start to kick in... OMG! i'm so gonna have a panick attack. i'll freak out more than any1 else. i'll b soo damn nervous until i can cry non stop. yeh i used to cry everytime skool reopen, from kindergarten to imu. not in glasgow tho cos i felt like i was on vacation haha.

i can foresee myself having swollen goldfish eyes every monday morning! buuuhuuuuhuuuuu. y am i such a crybaby.

ok stop blabbing. i'm juz trying to say i'm feeling............. weird.

of deepavali n DRIVING!

2008-10-27T15:54:00.005+08:00

yeh HAPPY DEEPAVALI! which means HAPPY HOLIDAY! don u juz love to b in msia?

suddenly every1 got no work n no classes. suddenly every1's coming back from outstation n oversea (i mean singapore haha). suddenly every1 is free to meet me. n wth moz of them juz had to b free on sun. suddenly i'm bz wif calls n smses to coordinate these outings. man i've not been doing this for a long time. suddenly every1 can't confirm cos every1 has other commitments including me. suddenly i'm stressed n confused.

i need to choose.. prioritise.. n SACRIFICE!! weii i've been rotting at home all these while, y all the events had to happen in a day?? on the same day!! i hate to sacrifice.. y can't things space out a lil? well in the end.. i had to fly an aeroplane to my primary skool frens.. gosh i feel bad=(

from secret recipe in times sq down to ichiban bonshi in pavillion. gals... i reli had a great day catching up wif u all. it's been a long time since i had a great day. i hope i can have more of this even when i'm working!! NO NO NO i'm not gonna b a stressed out pharmacist who has no life. triple layered eyebags severely underweight hair loss backache headache giddiness drowsiness ARRGGHH!! ok let's not scare myself 1st.

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well after back from pavillion.. got bit excited n ask dad to let me practise driving around the taman. dad was like serious??!! cos lin-sama has not land her butt on the driver's seat since like errrr.. 1.. 2.. 3.. 4.. huh! a gud 5 yrs!!! now this is the ultimate acquired skill which i seriously doubt whether it's stil anywhere in my limbic system.

now yeh.. adjust my seat. push to 1st gear.. rite leg on accelerator.. ahh! the car's moving!! n it's a smooth ride baby=) i was born to drive!

ya rite...

scenario 1

dad: hey hey u wan to turn left muz show signal now.
me: yahor, ok!
*doosh doosh doosh wiper moving left n rite left n rite*
me: ahhh!! wiper?!! *in disbelief* how come the wiper is moving??!! eh how to stop the wiper now?? *panick*
dad: bcos u press wiper la.. AIYOOO.. *stop the wiper*
me: then where's the signal??
dad: HAIIYOYOOOOOO!! *heart attack* how u pass ur driving test when u dunno where's the signal??
bro: right hand side!!
me: ohhhh.. *excited at new discovery* *happily flashing the signal*

scenario 2

i was driving on a wide straight road n u know dad told me to b observant. n i was! i saw a car gonna come out from the little lorong on my left. n i immediately brake the car. then there's few secs of awkward moment when the car was waiting for me to pass while i'm waiting for the car to pass kaka.
dad: how can u brake suddenly??? so dangerous! n do u know that u r on the main road? u have the right to drive straight thru! it's the car from the little lorong that needs to stop n let u pass.
me: ohhhhh... no wonder that awkward moment juz now haha. *excited bcos i learnt sth new*

scenario 3

everytime i make a corner turn or a u turn or watever turn, n there's a car parking rite at that angle or mayb a divider, i nvr know i'm like 1 freaking inch away from it. only my dad n bro knew, n they had a tachycardia over it haha. well i kinda forget that i'm driving a car, a BIG RIGID CUBOID. i alwiz tot that the car i'm driving is only as big as my driver seat n that it can glide gracefully around any corner like a snake. wth.

scenario 4

switching to 2nd gear.
dad: y u alwiz switch to 2nd gear when the car is slowing down?
me: bcos u told me 5 yrs ago that i shudn't drag 1st gear for too long.
dad: but u muz b gaining a certain pace 1st then only u can switch to 2nd gear.
me: harh.. i tot in order to gain that certain pace, i need to switch to 2nd gear 1st!
dad: but u change to 2nd gear when the car is oredi very very slow, where got energy lidat? the car shud b moving at a certain pace 1st then only u switch to a higher gear to move at a faster pace!!
bro: i'll explain to u again later.
me: ok. *stil insisted that dad told me not to drag 1st gear for too long, 5 yrs ago*

scenario 5

side parking. so i switch to reverse gear. n then i turn my stering to the rite.
dad: STOOooP!! *forcefully turning the stering into the other direction*
me: *puzzled* hey i wan the car to move to the rite. so i turn the stering to the rite la!
bro: jie, u r now in reverse gear.
me: uhh.. i know.. so??
dad n bro: *pengsan*
me: oh oh oh i think i kinda get it. wait ah let me digest 1st.
dad: park the car 1st la. go home only digest. *very impatient liao*
then i was parking the car by listening to dad's directions, w/o using my brain cells haha.

end of 1st driving lesson in 5 yrs. the moment i get down the car. omg! i was pale n dizzy. i felt like i'm juz gonna collapse there. so i quickly took a deep breathe, walked into the house n lie flat on the floor for the nx hr.

it's either my motion sickness has gone from bad to worse, or that my BP (86/56mmHg) is too low to cope wif such stress. i'm stil dizzy until the moment i woke up the nx day, no kidding.

partly bcos of my motion sickness, partly bcos i like to talk crap, i nvr observe how ppl drive haha.

no wonder i like spongebob sooo dearly. bcos i can totally identify wif him. yes i'm juz as SILLY n STUPID as him. aho! n wat's more, i'm a sponge!! i juz absorb n absorb w/o further analysing n understanding.

man i shud hire a chauffeur for the rest of my life!!!

=spongeLIN squarepants=

Zaanse Schans & Volendam

2008-10-25T00:43:00.018+08:00

10th April 2008

go holland muz see windmills n buy clogs rite?? *typical tourist* so after an exciting day at the city, the next thing wud b exploring the countryside.

it took us 35 mins of train ride from amsterdam city to arrive at zaanse schans.. don ask me how to pronounce.. i have no idea too!

when v get off the ferry, v saw this. n v went WOW! such clear reflection!

don u juz love countryside houses?

n yey, that's wat v r here for! windmill!

this 1's a mustard mill if i'm not mistaken.

once upon a time, there r thousands of traditional windmills here but now their job r taken over by very high-tech fugly-looking thin white windmills. hence there r only 10 gud o' windmills or so left, stretching along the lakeside to please tourist like me. *sigh* the world's changing ..at such a fast pace.

such beautiful scenery muz have ME in it.

issh leg kangkang!

luckily i have back up this time!

can u spot 2 smiley face in this pic? ngeh ngeh... so cute!

sawmill

we paid 2 euros to visit 'de kat'. the owner sayang his cat very much so he named his windmill after his cat. so it's called de kat, as in the cat. haha so lame...

need to climb lotsa narrow stairs to get here. n apparently, it has sth to do wif producing dyes.

at the balcony of the 'de kat'

overlooking this field. the view at the balcony is simply refreshing!

trust me, the windmill at the background is turning!! *excited* org bandar nvr see bfor.

wonder wat i do i mean by balcony? now see this.

can u spot the difference btw these 2 photos??? 1..

2..

3..

4..

5.. ok 5 secs gone. u reli need lao hua specs if u can't spot it.

answer: 1st pic taken by khoe, 2nd pic taken by pfong. get it rite? give urself an eye massage to reward ur gud eyesight.

well it worked like this. khoe had to wait for all of us to climb up to the balcony so that he can take the pic for us, then only he can pay 2 euros to come in n join us. but it's his idea anyway muahaha.

cheese factory.

in holland, they produce gouda cheese. which is these round round thingy.

haha! DUTCH LADY! say cheeeeeese=) but she's not milking cows. she's selling cheese made from cow's milk.

i absolutely love cheese! n i bought the original flavour! n i have another story to tell abt the cheese. n i'm not telling ya in this post. nyeh nyeh...

giant clogs! obviously v r now at the clog factory.

this guy demonstrate how to manufacture a pair of clogs.. wif canggih machine. n he finished up a pair in like 2 mins. wow.

n he's trying to tell us that clogs r very durable, n u r supposed to wear it wif a pair of thick wool socks. neh.. imagine wearing clogs to walk around kl, my gudness! not only it's soo damn hard n uncomforable, the kik kik kok kok sound alone is enuf to drive me mad.

ok... time to spend money. i bought 2 pairs of clogs in this shop. no, they r not cheap but i was in a clog collecting frenzy at that moment. after this holland trip, i end up having many pairs of clogs.. of all sizes.. from very big to very small.. tsk tsk waste money!! y din i have the foresight to save some euros so that i can buy more murano glass in italy!!

on the evening, v catch a bus from amsterdam city to a fishing village... volendam.

v had a nice seafood dinner in 1 of the cosy restaurnats here. i only said it's nice, bcos personally i don like fresh seafood to b battered n deep fried. damn sayang u know.

omg.. if only pulau ketam can look like this...

n that's it. i love countryside day!! those photos don reli do justice to the beauty of these places.. luckily i stil had those picturesque moments in my mind=)

I AMsterdam

2008-10-23T13:48:00.016+08:00

9th April 2008

after almoz 4 hrs of train ride from brussels, I AMsterdam!!! yeh!!!
prostitution.. LEGAL! marijuana.. LEGAL!
netherland... a paradise for many. n is by far the moz liberal country that i've been to.
where u get weed from COFFEEshop n a cuppa coffee from KOFFIEshop. cool heh!

i know wat's in ur mind? did i go in to those COFFEEshop rite? haha i wud.. if i'm alone. well ed had warned me not to.. cos he tot i'm not emotionally stable for that. but i was wif 5 gud n clean companions hehe.. so no peer influence. n mom can stil b proud of me.

now wat's the best way to get around amsterdam city??

BICYCLE, of course!! pls make sure that u reli know how to ride a bike.. life's at stake hey!

ignore that ugly pouch. rent a bike from mac bike for abt 7 euros. weee... this is the 1st time i ride on a bike since... erm.. standard 4.
23-10=13.
ahh.. 13 yrs!! i doubted whether this acquired skill is stil anywhere in my limbic system.

needless to say, i was riding like a chicken. scared of crowd, scared of slowing down. sth's amissed. the bikers either showed us angry faces, funny faces, rude gestures or honking away, like wat's wrong wif asians huh??

apala tu khoe. he led us to riding on a opposite direction at a jln sehala. oii all bike lanes r jln sehala!! so to get it rite, v need to cross the road. it's red light for bike n sumhow every1 crossed except for me n shan.

it's a super super busy road!! v have cars, trams, pedestrians, bikes from every possible direction. waited for it to turn green. shan managed to cross bfor the tram came, bfor i prepared myself. so i told myself to cross once the tram passed. n yes, MY TURN!! juz when i pedalled across, OH-MY-GOD!! the cars were coming from another direction!! n they r vroooming closerrrr!! they r honking me like mad!!

ahhhh!!! i don wan to die at amsterdam!!!
ahhhh!!! i don wan to get injured!!!
gao meng ahhhh!!!

*fight n flight situation.. adrenaline pumping to the max** i pedalled wif ALL MY MIGHT like org gila n sped across the road.

phew! I'M SAFE!!!
they saw me frantically pedalling wif all my might n their heart skip a beat too. muahaha... v had a great laugh after that.

ok enuf of drama... here r the pics v took while v cycled around.

everywhere there r bicycles! every street there's a canal...

ain't it beautiful?

the houses have cute designs. houses r narrow bcos land is scarse. they have small doors. so every house has a hook at the top to hoist their furniture n let it get in thru the window. n sum houses r very senget.. bcos of the weight of those hoisted stuff n the pilings r swept by undergound water. oh.. interesting! i nvr know until the cosmos tour guide said that during the europe trip wif parents.

boo.. i don have a nice pic on this bridge.

at Vondelpark

finally a group photo wif every member in it

gee... my favourite place. I AMsterdam. defly a place to camwhore.

it started wif khoe. where he held the words wif both hands. n dunno y... every1 follows suit.

see.. 4 of them! i know it's a stupid pose. but unfortunately i was influenced too. oii evil khoe!

n there i go, kanasai! so UGLY!

n sadly, this is the only pic i took..wth.

except for pfong

so darren n i felt like kacau-ing her bcos of her lack of team spirit.

n yeh! another group photo! i love this 1 alot alot alot.

daren clinging on the a, me popping out from the a, shan between a n m, pfong n koon in the arches of m, n khoe lying on the platform... mengada-ly.

D for Damn!

M for mamma me-ah.

squeezing myself between t n e. so i form another word. TIE. hehe.

issh told ya i need wider lens.

cramming on a bicycle in front of Rijksmusuem.

Anne Frank House. BORING! don go. waste money.

it's basically the house where Anne Frank hid during the Nazi persecution. she's a jewish, she wrote a diary. n now the house is converted into a musuem. that's it. if u wan to know abt this part of history, better go germany la kan.

see, i took a nice pic for them.

bloody hell, see how they take for me instead.

bumping into nice church A

happily bumping into nice church B

Dam Square

yep there's madame tussaud in amsterdam. not only london.

v ended the day by feasting our eyes at red light district. giggling away seeing those porno stuff n asking darren wat r the uses of those sex toys. *jakun gals*

they have all kinds of prostitutes, posing themselves in bikinis behind transparent glass doors. got tall n short fat n skinny pretty n ugly old n young wild n tame, juz choose according to ur taste. n u'll c hamsap lou walking up n down. no wonder there r less sexual criminals in netherland. msia shud seriously consider abt this approach.

n it's reli funny to walk around these kinda places wif the vey pious khoe, he looked so shy n uneasy muahaha. well if not for him, we'd have watched a live sex show!

omg v r so evil! n ham sap.

KANASAI!

2008-10-21T01:35:00.002+08:00

laporkan diri kepada kementerian kesihatan negeri JOHOR.. 3 november..

Souvenirs from Brussels

2008-10-14T01:27:00.014+08:00

back in june, mom n dad came to scotland to attend my convo. mom packed all the souvenirs i bought in a handcarry. n she had to sacrifice shopping during the europe tour so she cud take this OVERstuffed handcarry home to relieve the weight of MY luggage. aww=)

after waving gudbye to us at heathrow, mom went thru the security check at the departure hall. unfortunately the handcarry failed the scan. mom was like... huh? impossible leh! i knew abt the 100ml rules. i had packed those containing liquid in my check-in luggage.. how can anything go wrong?

n the officers took the hand carry for a THOROUGH search.*totally freak my mom out* *her effort in packing the hand carry went down the drain* **NOOOOO!**

they ransack every corner, unwrap every paper to check out wat dangerous stuff my mom was carrying so that she can threaten the air stewardess to upgrade her to 1st class and.. AND take home wif her more mas blankets muahaha. well u may not understand this joke until u go to my house n find not 1 but 2 mas blankets n ask for urself how the heck did the 2 mas blankets end up in my house?! yeh si lai power!!

back to the story, the officer found this.

hi i'm manneken pis! i know where u r looking...

curious to know y does it look so strange over there heh? tsk tsk.. pervert!

here's another angle.

u r rite... i'm a bottle opener cum corkscrew! 2-in-1.. ain't i a wonderful creation?

n look at me sideways, ain't i SHARP?

ahhh... ya ya ya... u r SOO SHARP!!

so obviously there's a sharp object in my hand carry! sharp enuf for my mom to poke the air stewardess' butt until she bleed n make her obey my mom's request. hence the need for scanning n the tight security.

gah! how cud i carelessly forget abt this?

poor mom.. she din know abt this boy. cos i had wrapped it nicely wif sponge n newspapers.

that totally corkSCREWed my mom's mood. bcos she had spent the nite bfor packing very systematically, neatly n optimising every possible space.

the officer insisted it's his job to repack but my mom insisted that he can't pack it the way she'd packed it n she wans to pack it by her own... i dunno how she settled it but she muz b grumbling in her mind...

ah gal~ ah! y din u tell me earlier? c la c la everytime do things so careless 1... c la c la u caused such a big mess again. nx time ah~ u muz b more careful u know... muz rmb u know... now small matter... nx day big matter how?! i ask u how?! haiyo cannot forever lidat 1 la. muz change ur attitude la~~

ahhhh... gosh! i was glad i was not there keke. hmm but she's got her point. stop being so clumsy lin-sama!

oh wait. i missed the important part. well given such situation, v had to say byebye to manneken pis n he had to r.without.p in the bin. BUT the officer is such a nice guy, i think he's a leng chai, he told my mom it's cute n if any1's out there to pass it to.

AND thanx to pfong who craved for coffee suddenly n took sum time to buy a cuppa costa coffee... v were stil at the airport while dad called me. so the manneken pis was safely passed to my hand. thanx pfong, u saved my manneken pis.... TWICE! ah u deserve this... MUAKKS!

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this is the box containing 400g of leonidas chocolates, nicely tied wif leonidas ribbon.

so lovely rite?

so tempting rite?

since ed din follow us to this brussels-amsterdam trip... i told him i wud share the whole box of chocs wif him but v need to space out, bcos it's too sinful to have them all in 1 go.

everytime he came to my place he wud grab that box of choc n ask.. can v? wif a mengada face. how cud u resist those chocs rite? so v wud each take 1 pc.. take a bite n savour it to our heart's content. mmMMMM~~~!!! every lil piece is a pleasant surprise=) u dunno wat flavour u'll get. n u dunno wat filling wil BURST into ur mouth n MELT onto ur palate when u take that 1st bite.

sumtimes v were so conviced that the other got the tastier 1 so v wud forcefully snatch a bite bfor it's too late. but if i chose 1 which is so-so to my liking, i'll volunteerily gave him the remainder half.. keke. very gan leh. wat to do... only bought 1 box... so precious!! n v finished it in like 3 days. wahh such discipline!

i've seen leonidas in other countries but they sell at much higher price. isshh! see i'm a person wif no foresight! i shud've bought more than 1 box in belgium! well i stumbed upon leonidas at mvalley last month so if 1 day i have the urge to savour those chocolates again, i don need to go to belgium. but the price shud b omg-ly expensive... so, have to work hard!

now y am i employed but stil not working???

Brussels... for mussels!

2008-10-12T00:43:00.013+08:00

yeh it rhymes!

tot i'd blog chronologically on my trips. the last 1 was romantic paree... omg that's soo last yr!! the following trip was inverness but i'm more interested to blog abt brussels-amsterdam!!

i luv this trip bcos it's after handing in my research project. i luv it bcos it's short n less tiring. i luv it bcos it's amsterdam!! but i'm gonna talk abt brussels 1st, cos v were there for a day due to our direct flight from glasgow. oh i luv direct flights.

8th april 2008:

once v get out of the underground, 6 of us turn round n round n round to look for a COCA COLA NEON LIGHT as a guide to walk to our hostel, as told by hostelworld. tho it claimed to b HUGE enuf to catch our sight easily, v stil cudn't find that damn thing. so it's down to street names, common sense n luck. yes v found the hostel.

well actually, this is the 1st building v saw in brussels after getting out of the underground. damn zha dou rite? issh!

so there's the coca cola neon light. halo! common sense pls! how to c that damn thing so HIGH up there when u r few metres away from the building??!! nobody wil have the habit of tilting their head to an impossible angle everytime they get off an underground ok! arrghh...
stupid direction guide = precious time wasted.

when any gal thinks abt belgium, she'll think abt belgian chocolates. wat's a trip to belgium w/o tasting n shopping for those finest sho-ko-lah rite? wee~ i'm not sure abt those theories regarding flavonoids, but chocs do make me feel gud, n feel fatter.
and.. the darker the better!

at leonidas... pfong n i were so fascinated by this leng chai who tie beautiful ribbons on each box of chocs like a robot... such precision n speed! *drooling* both at the chocs n the leng chai=)

choco-licious belgian waffle on the street... omg!! look at my greedy face!! my eyes totally lit up n that grin... so membencikan tsk tsk.

nx 4 photos r buildings that surround the grand place or the market square.

guild houses

i love this part of the square the most.

king's house

the gothic town hall.. aikks camera lens not wide enuf=(

there r way too many squares in europe until u cudn't rmb which is which bcos they tend to look the same ughh. this square is by far 1 of those MEMORABLE ones, it's beautiful=)

strolling around... v found this oh-so tempting CHOC FOUNTAIN!! ahh 6 of us got so excited so v took turns in pairs to camwhore wif it.. outside the shop.. like kindergarten kids.. wth.

khoe is the tallest in our batch but he's definitely a kid at heart. n i have to NG many times juz to get my tongue sticking out at this lengh.. as if it's licking the choc. that's a tiring feat.

v had to drag our tired feet to walk down several streets bcos there's stil a muz see tourist attraction that we've yet to see. when v finally found it... v were like... harh! wat?! so small only ah?! how can it b soo famous? ya ya this is our impression of manneken pis - a SMALL fountain wif the statue of a LITTLE boy... PEEING.

n if u r 'not so lucky', u'll see him dressed up in various costumes. v were 'lucky' that day to see him naked.

manneken pis is EVERYWHERE in the souvenir shops.. from postcards to fridge magnet to corkscrew... we've seen it, took pic wif it, bought the postcard AND the fridge magnet AND the corkscrew (omg y am i so touristy?!), but stil don understand y the the hell izzit so famous...

hah now this is the town hall again. managed to capture the highest point of the tower n my gempal face tgt=) thanx to shan who had to squat hoho.

cool graffiti.. kong king vs lion king... rawwwrrrr!

bump into this eerie church on our way to hunt mussels for dinner.

after walking few streets to compare prices (even when our stomach n feet cudn't tahan any longer n on the brink of fainting, we, the cheapskate msian students alwiz alwiz have the strong WILLPOWER do this! haiyo.. i tell u! ) v found the rite places for dinner yeh!

n they even had this big screen showing liverpool vs chelsea i guess. woohoo go liverpool! cheh like i care. i only wan mussels! v ordered 5kg of mussels in 4 kind of flavours if i'm not mistaken. n v 4 housemates ate so fast n so furious while darren n khoe had their eyes glued on tv. great isn't it? if not for that match... v gals wudn't have eaten so many mussels keke.

mussel-licious! soo big n fresh that they make those served at glasgow's mussel inn look like premature babies...

chocolates n mussels... so this our trip in brussels... short but sweet=)

coming up: amsterdam!!

2008-10-01T03:23:00.000+08:00

will there b rainbow after the rain? i don think so. not this time.

i miss... GLASGOW

2008-09-29T01:15:00.017+08:00

my emotion had been taking a rollercoaster ride for these past few weeks... well moz part of the ride actually felt more like a deep plunge, n my heart's sinking.

n juz like any ride.. i wan to SCREAM!!! ahhhhhh.. until my lungs burn.

like that's not enuf to crush my insanity, here i am.. facing the fact that i'm gonna move to another stage of my life. being the chicken wif battered self esteem n diminishing confidence.. yes, i do fear. the only reason that's keeping me enthusiastic abt work is.. financial independence. aikks where's the passion of a noble pharmacist who's willing to go to ulu places to serve the underprivileged ones?? passion. enthusiam. wth..

heard frens kena kelantan, sarawak. n juz when u so gan jiong where u'll b posted, u got another update that those r invalid. no more news on posting. u juz gotta wait. WAIT. y am i put in such helpless position again?

huuuuu..... things r not moving on the rite track.

u seek solace.. in those ppl u trust n oso.. in the beautiful past.

whether they make me move on or stay stagnant in my life, i do cling on to memories. n the beautiful memories that i have in this recent yr r... the many wonderful trips around europe, the road to graduation n of course, the place that i grew fond of after staying for a yr...

THAT ROOM.. small, untidy, but warm n cosy=) oh, n wif a WINDOW=)

susah payah cari my pic folders but can't find a photo of my luvly window! arrggh.. how can i take my luvly window for granted?? i shud've camwhore wif it to my heart's content!

luckily i stil have pics of the VIEW from my luvly window.

the sky at summer 9.30pm.

autumn

winter

one day after watching drama... my eyes got tired so i turned around. rmb i was in room3 so the window wil b on the left. whoa!! *i was exclaiming* *full of surprise~* the trees out there suddenly caught my eyes. since when the leaves grow back again??!!

n that's when i smell the arrival of sweet spring.

such r the wonders of my luvly window. it's not a mere window, it's my connection to the outer world... sunny day, gloomy day, peaceful night, chilly night. i kiss the sun, the rain, the breeze, the wind, the gale, the hail n the snow. looking at the luvly sky n breathing in fresh air, it either sent me daydreaming, or pondering over random to intimate thoughts. BLISS=)

i felt that i was embraced by nature's arms even when i was in my pig sty. i nvr draw my blinds. the moon n the stars accompany me to sleep. n my soul wil wander into slumberland once i curl inside my duvet. the sun shines in the morning, it's luvly but i nvr bother, i was juz so reluctant to leave my bed. BLISS=) oh.. i miss that bed.

ahh.. baka! yet again.. i took that bed for granted n don have a pic of it.

#a conversation wif peiling today had reminded me that i reli saw bigger n rounder moon in glasgow. as the saying goes, wai guo de yue liang bi jiao yuan. it's true! muahaha~#

n i hate the fact that i din reli take time to walk n get lost in glasgow. i've nvr taken other paths in glasgow apart from those leading me to grocery n clothes shopping. i wish i can get to know this city n the ppl more. in fact, i wish i can have more time in scotland. more time to check out other quaint towns. more time for adventurous trips to explore the scottish highland.. the isles, the lochs n the mountains. i let this 1 yr slip past me so easily. i regretted, i juz can't get enuf of scotland. regret. wth.

i wish i can lie on the green carpety grassland more often. i miss the grass.

blame the speedy internet connection. i was so thrilled by the speed of loading movies n drama series n youtube that i was so glued to my laptop.

my beloved cup

my workplace/ entertainment corner

hehe... illegal stuff.. like hanging sockes over heater. showing ya socks instead of the usual panties. don wan to make my entry look tak senonoh.... well act, i damn paiseh to let ppl c my auntie panties wakaka!

fooling wif the light wif my cacat toes. had get used to studying under yellow light by then.

look!! that snackie rack!! forever stock up wif walkers n pringles! nvr empty. ahh watching drama while munching chips.. BLISS=)

MIRROR mirror on the wall.. who's the late to class queen of P105??

tadah!! she's the late to class queen of P105. (as quoted from ti3nd.blogspot.com). kekeke....

wa so ugly... i mean the jackets hanging on the papan! ok i oso mean the perempuan in the mirror.

ah got a glimpse of my bed... so precious.

1st time got mirror in my room. so convenient! can squeeze pimples whenever i turn my head to the left.

i miss life in G7-3, jbc, glasgow, scotland.

i miss the freedom.

i miss the time i had wif the gals. i miss gossiping wif them.

i miss the time i had wif dear. i miss seeing him everyday.

BACK TO KL

there was time when i fill up my water bottle wif tap water only realising later that i was no longer in scotland.

i miss that luxury of drinking fresh water from the tap.

n then... there's this inefficient transport network. waiting for the lrt or ktm is reli pain in the arse. when i'm out on the streets, i'll b so paranoid, either clutching my handbag tightly or observing whether there r any sickening goldfish man lurking around the dark corner. *stress gao gao*

i miss the days i roam abt sauchiehall, buchanan n argyll then back to jbc alone... n feeling secured. oh talk abt security.

these r all my precious memories which i can't afford to lose. it's been 2 months since i bid farewell to scotland. but it felt like so long ago. i'm afraid that i'll forget this part of my life, few yrs or even months down the road. i hope i can eternalise this piece of memory in my heart n in this entry. in case 1 day i have senile dementia.

it's too beautiful to forget.

Paralympics n Olympics

2008-09-20T23:46:00.008+08:00

this morning read the star, came to know that msia won a bronze medal tru powerlifter siow lee chan. *clap clap!*

hoo-hah frontpage material wif catchy line like POWER BRONZElifter in big big font..

lei zau siong..

it's featured at page 2 nia. cos nowadays definitely effortlessly got bigger n more shocking news. but nvmla she got 100k. not bad wor.

well act i got an unfinished entry abt olympics i wrote at sum bloody hot afternoon back then. but i din finish it long after the olympics so decided not to finish it anyway. like wat for rite.. posting super duper outdated entry takda feel la, jin beh syok.

hence the birth of this entry. at least those bits din go to waste kaka. see i'm gud at RECYCLING.... not only plastic bottles n papers.. hoho so proud of myself.

btw, i tot astro wil show bits of the paralympics... if not the event itself at least highlights of the events la or at least opening ceremony. so hook on to opening ceremonies since BEIJING OLYMPICS... absolutely flawless display of artsy bigsy performances.

i luv:

.. the opening where they countdown wif the beatings of those square drums.

.. 5 olympic rings was lifted from 2D to 3D.

.. scroll unfolds.

.. the dancers draw wif they body as they move gracefully.

.. the boxes shuffle to form the word 'he' n the youths pop out in the end.

.. the taichi mega circle .

.. the mega ship wif the mega oar.

.. those cute lil children sing.. it's kinda controversial... the super duper cute gal was act lip synching. n the poor gal who act sang was not chosen cos she's not cute enuf. aww... like so sad rite.. i think it's unhealthy.. to this lil gal who grow up wif this thing haunting her.. n to the entire image-obsessed society. so the best thing is.. let both gals take the centrestage tgt la keke.

.. that every athlete lent their footsteps to finish up the pc of drawing which was drawn bits by bits from the beginning.

.. the dramatic torchlighting.

.. the li yi xiao jie in the finest gowns.

.. zhang yi mou. luv him since the days of 'yi ge dou bu neng shao' up til 'hero' but lost respect to him when he caught the martial art fever, esp that golden glittery flashy cleavage-overloaded flick (forgot wat name).

all held in this jawdropping bird's nest. i'm not an architect, but after watching on tv how it was build.. i can say this is architecture brilliance!

all in all.. at this enourrrmous scale.. it's pure magic!!

this is wat a nation wif population of dunno how many billion can do when every1 unites!
n this is where my ancestors come from.. wo de zu guo.. *bangga bangga*

was glued to the tv everyday watching artistic then rhythmic gymnastics. dreamt to b a gymnast since i was a lil gal haha, graceful n yet full of thrills kan. mom say wil break bones wor. so i had to forget abt it when i aged n all i can manage is a yat zi ma.. boo. anyway i was soo attracted to the poise of nastia liukin.

n oso basketball!!.. only when either all star dream team usa or wo de zu guo china was playing. man it's ever so entertaining to see power lebron james up against yao ming.. whom the broadcaster described as a WALKING great wall of china. muahaha.

n of course following n supporting lee chong wei tru to the finals. chance for gold is quite slim la but i expect it to b like 21-19, 19-21, 21-19 which wud send my adrenaline pumping to the max fuyoh.

unfortunately it's not even close. lcw is fun to watch, consider moz talented n all rounded in my time, pandai 'yam' haha. but he's up against the dynamito.. lin dan! that cockiness. that perfect skillz. powerr gilerr. samo had to wear bicep-showing shortsleeves! wa *drools drools drools!*

but the fate of paralympics is not so gud. less sponsors. no live telecast, not even delayed. frankly, am i interested to watch any paralympic event? i dunno, nvr watch bfor. but 1 thing's for sure tho, there r no heartthrobs or superstars to attract viewership. *sigh* this is reality. hope that sum day they deserve more than this.

cuteness n stupidity

2008-09-16T00:58:00.007+08:00

bsides BOREDOM, guess these r the nouns that pretty much wrap up my past week. eh~~ i act blog almoz on a weekly basis hehe.

oh n oso HAPPY MID AUTUMN FESTIVAL!!

suggested mom to cook asam laksa on this merry day. yalar it's bit of going against tradition but who cares, it's the semangat of tuen yuen that counts. n hor mom's buntut dah kembang teehee... cos her asam laksa tastes like those famous penang asam laksa che wah n wat's more.. it's so fishy! ah the beauty of homecook food... ZHENG.

let's get to the cutesy part.

1. wall.e=cute=sweet=lovey dovey

i luv the movie.. don reli care abt the msg, duh like i dunno! i wud've become an environmental campaigner had i not study pharmacy. wat strike me was the chemistry between wall.e n eve.

it's so simple! thumbs up for pixar AGAIN! n y'know wat.. u don need long witty dialogues to make the characters come to live! all those actions n gestures juz speak it all... even fire extinguisher can b a tool de amour kaka! n wth, even robots can b more romantic than ur bf. how la lidat.

2. my cousin- daniel. lil kids r alwiz cute but he's EXTRA cute. imagine a 3 yr old sneeze 'hah chee' n in a moz cutesiest tone, he said oh~ excuse me wif an innocent smile.

aww.. sooo amusing!!! aih make me wanna melt.

the manners, is wat's missing in many grown ups n the innocence, is wat's lost in every grown up. oh kids r juz so enlightening sumtimes...

++++

went to hkl for medical check up cos it's foc, cos my parents pay tax. smart consumer yeh i am. i tot i was even smarter to bring along a mag. n gee... it was my turn after i've read only 1 page! *surprise surprise.

stupidity

1. ms. nurse gave me a papan wif this shape.
apa ni?

then she brought me to a small room for eye check up. was told to close my left eye n read the alphabets on the board. so i used my HAND to cover my eyes.

ms. nurse: eh bukan guna tangan!! *wif the look that she's not seen such stupid ppl for a very long time*

ahhhh~~~ soh desu neh. so that's the function of that papan i was holding all this while. kakaka. i'm not blonde nor busty, y am i so stupid????

2. i peed into the 2 bottles. tighten the cap. shait! i haven't fill up my name. aikks writing ur name on a cylindrical surface which may b contaminated by ur own urine was juz arrgghh!

3. primary skool fren ajak me to have tea, literally. after calling n searching, his car was finally at my doorstep. i saw his car, waved n open the grill door. then i continued watching a taiwanese entertainment show.

......................

20 mins passed.

ya he called. n at that very moment i realised... ALAMAK! so there's a miscommunication.. or rather.. my stupidity. i was expecting my fren to COME IN my house for tea haha n i juz din care y he hadn't come in all this while.. i was juz glued to the tv show.

n for that 20 mins, 1st he tot i was changing. but wth changing won take THAT long.. takkan i put on makeup rite.. so he tot i muz b having a shower, since he knew i damn muka tembok can let fren wait lidat haha.

finally he lost his patience at the 20th min ~~his bladder was on the brink of BURSTING~~. i think he reli wan to bang his head on the stering when i said i was act watching tv show while waiting him to come in. WAKAKA.

aiyoyo... i grow fungus at home. lost touch wif msian culture. lack exposure to buzzling life of kl. lack the communication wif ppl. see i forgot that have tea wif fren act means GO OUT n have tea wif fren.

anyway no matter how stupid i've become, given the scenario of a yong soi lou who label chinese akin to jewish, a reporter who reports that, an MP n a blogger, at least i can stil tell who shud b thrown to ISA detention. now who's threatening racial harmony? n who's being more stupid? *a big sigh*

++++++

BOREDOM is like poison. it slows ur organs' function. it burns ur neurones. it numbs ur senses. it took away my COMMON SENSE.

man i'm alwiz afraid to come back to this state of life... mundane, powerless. i got no money no car no full control in life. i'll go berserk depressed jaded! HELP! ya whining patheticly like a loser that's all i know. LOoooSER!

916: wil the government change? i hope. sum batchmates wil start work, i wish them luck. more badminton session wif neng, but she's back to taiwan. more steamboat session wif secondary skool frens, but they r bz. anyhow theres' stil many things to look forward to.

i shall b a motivated person tmrw=)

rainy saturday n the tale of luen mou lin

2008-09-06T17:19:00.009+08:00

gloomy, lazy n stil sick. after back in kl, i alwiz feel BLOATED, itchy n sleepy. n on the 4th week, my immune system kena k.0-ed by flu bug. been healthy truout a yr abroad, but shui tu bu fu in my own country?!.. how farnee is that ~issh~

dear's opinion: i've been eating frozen, almoz expired or expired food for a yr n suddenly now i'm eating nice fresh food, my GI system has a hard time adapting... ya rite.
i think: cos i din bring back glasgow's yummy water to campur wif kl water... HA-HA. (my fren once told me that drinking the mixture is the way to cure shui tu bu fu, like.. R U SERIOUS??!!).

i blog today for a sole purpose - to keep me from sleeping (got up at 12pm sleep again at 3pm) keke. yalar i reli got nth better to do in life. arrgghh damn sien lo! THEN..
i rmb a request by minti3n, that name who unintentionally cause so many confusions n jokes. here's his comment on my previous previous post... ei show one picture of your new image :P

dang! it juz hit me that i'm such a LOUSY blogger!

moz bloggers have photos for EVERY lil detail, it's like they already have the entire blogpost in their mind the moment they start to take those shots! n they have a topic to write cos their life is so eventful. *salute salute. see..

1. usually, there's not even 1 miserable photo in my post, cos:

a) LAZY.. adding photos is damn ma fan! slows me down n wastes my time.

b) i juz feel very kekok taking pics of myself.

i shy shy camwhoring is defly not my kinda thing y'know. that oso explain y am i so impatient when i c ppl spending soo much time taking pics wif the SAME damn background. wat for??!!
i reli don understand lo! like how kim hoe n darren can nvr understand y v go toilet every half hr in amsterdam wakaka...

2. usually, i don have a clear point on wat i wan to write. so the beginning of my post may not b related to the ending of my post. sumtimes i read back i like to add in bits that i forgot.. cos i luv to rmb those lil details in life. randomness, i like=) alas it turns out to b another cheong hei rojak post.

ok ok watever, back to tien's request.

here's a story.

Once upon a time, there's a short hair gal called luen mou lin who had several encounters where ppl mistaken her as a BOY! my gudness. but can't blame those lao hua uncle auntie cos she's got no big boobs to prove them wrong wth. when she finished secondary skool she decided to keep long hair. however those unruly frizzy long hair failed to boost her feminity, it's only gud as a low grade broom. *sigh*

1 day she was introduced to rebonding n holy shait, it worked wonders! yeh whoever who created this thing called rebonding, THANK U! u saved luen mou lin from the days of siu fong fong-in-her-80's!! ppl.. don u dare laugh at luen mou lin again muahaha.

well yrs later, she got tired of flat straight hair. n now, luen mou lin is back to being luen mou lin again!... wif bigger n puffier curls. woohoo.

-THE END-

ta-dah!

shan, u say u din get to c the bear bouquet, here's it. keke... cute kan? i bought it from shan's auntie, cos v dah fren sangat after 19 days of touring tgt kaka... the moz sampat florist i've ever known. oiii this sound so advertorial... i shud b paid for this man!!

wif a level ji muis at pavillion.

i have 3 similar photos here. it's bcos i wan u to look at them, stare at them, NEH~ these r those naughty fan cheongs who laugh at luen mou lin 1 lo. so bad hor...

n bfor that i alwiz wonder y my curls r so messy n out of place. yalar those frizz r inborn 1, i know i can't have smooth silky sleek hair, that's oredi a fact that i can't bother to change. even s'teng was curious how come my curls turn out to b so different. notice that 2 big SPRINGS hanging there??

after sum discussions wif pfong n guys, mystery solved. *jeng jeng* the reason lies in the way i make my hair everyday after i shower!! i tot, to maintain those curls i need to twist them wif my lil finger. so i TWIST vigorously, hence the 2 big springs wakaka! all i need to do is simply crunch my hair, not twist wif fingers for god's sake. muahaha... sumtimes i can b very stupid.

hmm does the word crunch even exist. i assume it does, cudn't bother to check dicitonary.

=luenmouLin=

so called interview

2008-08-29T00:04:00.005+08:00

it has to be situated at the vicinity of dataran merdeka.
it has to fall on 28th aug, 3 days bfor our national day.

that's wat i'm in for... hari kemerdekaan REHEARSAL = roadS CLOSURE = JAM!!!

the route cudn't work as planned, trapped in a massive jam, daughter may b late for a job interview, search desperately for alternative route, this.. was wat my dad felt when he saw the 4 orange cones blocking the damn road which he totally din foresee.. super BEK CHEK!!!

yeh was late for 20 mins, but luckily it's nth.

moz batchmates who had gone tru the interviews gave the same remark.. juz go in n chat only la.. wa seh like damn relaxed.

ahhh hrs past... damn... i juz hate to wait.
the more i wait, the more nervous n restless i got!

hence i've accumulated heaps of nerves truout the 4 hrs or more. my chill attitude don apply to such occasions?! wat.. my confidence n self-esteem r diminishing?

then su ann came out.. MY TURN!! gosh... my nerves got up to my throat the moment i open the door n greet the interviewers. man the environment inside was soo tense. i dunno it's bcos of me or the 2 non-smiling interviewers.

'chuen' lady interviewer: apa no. ic?
me: lapan lima........

'chuen' lady interviewer: KUAT SIKIT!! *in a stern voice*
me: hah... *stunned for awhile*

wei i din c that coming lo, everybody bfor this said CHAT only! tot they shud b nice n frenly. NO... she's not!!! eh don scare ppl lidat can anot... my 1st job interview leh, have sum mercy pls!

then... i forgot it's bfor or during my introduction... i was suddenly told to STAND UP. as if there's not enuf to scare the shit out of me, i was told to TURN AROUND.

oiii apa ni? this is not auditioning for malaysian dreamgirls ok! i don need to turnaround for u to c my uninteresting figure n stats.

OMG that means there muz b sth so SALAH wif me!!

i had no choice but to stand up. i was like.. turnaround?.. shait.. did i stain my pants? n at that moment did i realise sth.

c, my shirt was tucked into my pants nicely. but bcos the cutting is bit short, so when i sit, the tucked in-part of my shirt was pulled out unintentionally.
she act noticed that!! my gawd!! wat sharp eyes she got.

so when i was told to stand, the tuck-in part of my shirt naughtily slipped out of my pants, as if i din tuck in my shirt at all. this is BAD impression, i don wan to b commented as tak sopan or tak senonoh or watever. i simply tucked in sum bits of my shirt wif my fingers. *while showing an embarassed smile*

well she din say a word.. but i pretty much think this is my mistake la. takkan she fancy my butt rite? n hor bfor tat she mentioned that peiling's baju kurung is the proper attire for interview.

anyway my panic attack was in full mode dah. i muster all the energy i got to SUPPRESS it, act cool je la. seriously the panic attack had burnt out many neurones in my brain. i can't explain my final yr research project fluently even in english!! was desperately stringing the key words blindly into sentences. drug disscovery. virtual screening. anti-inflammatory drugs. MAPK pathway. MEK1 inhibitor. woosh wat a hard time i had!

nx Q was wat do i think abt recreational drugs.. glad that it's not a difficult question. managed to answer it wif my pathetic vocab ability. i warm myself up. this leads to the nx question... how do v stop ppl from taking those recreational drugs? unexpectedly i gave them the kinda answer that soothes their ear, yee juz when i tot it's juz typical essay style answers. having said that, they hoped that i'm willing to serve in rural areas where ppl r deprived of basic healthcare education. *how stupid of me to lead them to this part of the converstion!!* gosh afterwhich i made another heroic statement which pleased them so much they praised me it was the 1st time they heard such answer!

wait... i answered entirely w/o my mind filtering wat i was saying. man i myself think that for that moment i reli mean it.. i sound so sincere! like whoa... i can b so noble actually! i reli don mind to go to those ulu places? but i tot all the while i wan to b in kl n nowhere else?! man am i producing these answers juz bcos i was under pressure n my brain was not able to function properly n i'm juz a hypocrit who wans to impress.. i used to loathe hypocrite n wth... i may b juz 1 of them! my my... which is me? honest or hypocrit? suddenly i got this identity crisis.

end of interview. surprisingly my session was shorter. anyway juz rite after i stepped out of the room, RELIEF! i can no longer hold on the panick attack that i've suppressed, while my inner self was battling, cos i dunno which is me, plus hormones raging...

huuuuuuuu i'm going to sabah! my tears juz spilled out, in front of my batchmates!! don ask me y.. it's juz complicated. haha i think i frightened peiling cos she yelled for edmond while comforting me. wa damn sia sueh lo! y do i have to do such embarrasing thing?

it's nth to cry for.. it's juz a so-called interview... it's juz a formality... v were pretty sure to work for government watever it may be... y do i succumb to such emotions... dang!!! i have very low EQ lo. control, gal... CONTROL!

haih....
hahaha...
i'm all calm n peaceful now.. when i looked back at wat happened this morning... i reli had a gud laugh... i damn stupid sumtimes la.

=PMSPenny=

lee chong wei

2008-08-21T02:42:00.002+08:00

yoohoo!! MALAYSIA's 1st ever olympic SILVER medallist in men's badminton singles!!
like fuyoh, his historical y'know, not an abc feat where any ali ah kau or muthu can achieve.

but it's so sad to c how he's being USED. it's juz cheap n dirty.

pity this guy. he's back to his home soil.. at the wrong time. hope he can b back to his family n get a gudnite's sleep.

update on my life.. back in kl for 17 days..

2008-08-17T23:24:00.007+08:00

my lifestyle for these past 2 weeks was like an apple.. left to rot.. at home. when there's only me rotting, i'll go.. man i gotta get out of this place! but when there r 2 fella rotting tgt (me n bro), getting all crappy n lame, when u feel the scorching sun out there, when ur kaki s r working or not in kl, when u look at the toyota that u can't get it moving.. ok better rot at home!

17 days... n look wat i've done!

CHANGE HAIRSTYLE

.. after a yr of crappy hair.. *life as a poor student in glasgow hoho. i've permed my hair but it's frizzy n the curls r all out of place cos i seriously dunno how to maintain lo! y can i nvr wake up to a gud hair day?? y my hair can nvr look like a celebrity other than siu fong fong in her 80's??

FACIAL

i looked like indonesian maid when i touched down klia. to all indonesian maids i'm not being derogatory here, juz to associate myself wif dark complexion n skinny. huh sterotyping! bad me! haha gone too far, juz wanna say that i went for a facial. lin-sama went for a facial! like.. whoa! it did make my face feel better seriously, albeit not looking better.

ANYWAY

i'm juz getting used to it. i've nvr reli look gud n dress gud truout my alevel n imu n strathclyde days. alwiz rush to class w/o even brushing my teeth n scrubbing my face properly, w/o combing my hair, simply put on any shirt n pants which i manage to grab in a sea of jumbled cloths, forget to look into the mirror when i get out. OMG!!! y am i like this?? when can i learn to b more ladylike??

##i'm sry to my classmates n batchmates, if i look so bad n became an eyesore that kill ur mood for a luvly morning, i sincerely apologize here.##

SHOPPING

i've went to jaya jusco, carrefour, times square, pavillion, gardens mid valley, each once.

WATCH MOVIE

i've only watched 1 movie-the Dark Knight. salute Heath Ledger, he's got himself adsorbed into Joker.. "Y SO SERIOUS?" eeks so creepy but u can't help but sympatize him for his traumatic past at the same time. superhero movies nowadays r no more saving damsel in distress, they r deep, n there r certain elements that u can identify wif. this is 1 cool superhero movie hey! but need to watch again to grasp more of it cos it's too long, mind went blank sumtimes.

COUCH POTATO

been tortured by the lack of variety n creativity wif national tv until 8TV came along. n then there's this luxury called astro that i've deprived of all these yrs. my parents act pasang astro AFTER i graduate n kononnya they say it's bcos they wan to watch olympic's live telecast. anyway now that i have all the time in the world, if being a couch potato is sth u'll get paid for, i millionaire dah! watch all the live olympics events n browse tru all the channels until cock-eyed. watch gao gao, damn siao!

i even make sure i don miss any episode of tong sam fong bou tho i've oredi watched it in glasgow. dak dak dei is so cute! chung ka yan is sooo likeable... damn jealous lo so pretty adi summore got long legs summore look gud in formal wear summore can act! wa unfair!

##thanks daddy n mommy, luckily u guys can tahan the temptation to pasang astro for so many yrs, if not i reli can't get ANY of my assignment done.##

PACK MY ROOM

i dunno where to start. there r clothes everywhere, accesories from big to small scattering here n there. n if u r to barge into my room, u'll b punished by stepping on 1 of my earrings that hurt u so bad u'll cry for mommy. c, i don have the rite furnitures to start wif. i need a rack so instead of sweeping everything under the carpet, i can shove it all in the rack n slam the door shut n say bye bye to mess nyeh nyeh nyeh. waiting for any1 willing to fetch me to ikea. *hint hint

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OMG! such himono-onna-ness... sheez!

ok ENUF! i've lazed too much until my backbone crooked. sagittarian in me... unleashed!!!
i'm gonna live a better tmrw, n of course, get outta the house n straighten my backbone.

i'll blog abt olympics, blog abt how i miss glasgow, sort out photos of previous trips, get my travelogue going n b a better person. haha these r sum reminders for myself.. cos i'm even lazy to on my comp now. i sleep til 12pm almoz everyday n lie on the sofa moz of the time n stil don feel fresh. save me!

of 1 lousy morning, an apology n a stressful event

2008-08-04T11:50:00.005+08:00

got up at 8.30am today. huh? n wat's more, i don even need my freaking alarm clock wif the wake-the-whole-kampung-up-except-me ringtone. that's WAY too strange for anybody who knows me well.

ok it's the damn electricity cut. the fan went off out of a sudden n my hypothalamus sensed a rise in temperature n send sum impulse to my brain to wake me up so that i can get out of my sauna-ish pigsty in time. to put simply, i'm a heat-sensitive person.

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n i guess there's this thing in my genes, my temper wil flare n anxiety wil strike for no reason when it gets HOT n STUFFY! i can't stand even the tiniest weeniest silliest kinda mistake.

then i grumble n nag like a post-menopausal auntie wif sagging boobs wth.

yes, there were victims, few of them. since i'm writing this, i wan to say SORRY guys. n esp U, SORRY. i think this fella is not interested in reading my blog. serves this fella rite, cos i damn ego to say it once more. here's it!

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anyway life become so meaningless w/o electricity. LOST! i was. walk to the tv set only to realise the tv won work. get my laptop, thinking that i can blog abt it only to realise that the batt was not charged. wanted to call sumbody but it's too early to do so. wanted to read newspapers but the natural light source was not bright enuf. oiii wat can i do??!! damn mou liu. it's not a gud thing when ur life is TOO dependent on sth, but y'know, it's ELECTRICITY. *sigh*

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ytrday went to that fella's popo's bday. alamak damn gan jiong bfor attending THE occasion. well to many ppl it's nth much to stress abt, it's not even blogworthy. not that i wan to strike an impression of a prim n proper guai guai lui or wat, juz wan to keep mistakes down to a zero. but hey, i don sound likeable, i don look likeable n i don behave likeably, this quite an uphill task ok!!

jeng jeng jeng... the time came n i was in the restaurant. i forgot did i even call po po. damn a lot of ppl stress kao kao... i juz stretch my lips sideways to the max heeeeee=) b polite ma.. heeeeee=)

n of course shut my mouth so i won risk saying anything wrong. since i have a bad habit of blurting out sum words out of nowhere that wil offend ppl w/o me knowing it.. gone case.

it's quite uneasy at 1st... i look at the ceiling i look left look rite finding a sight that i can rest my eyes on.. i fidget a bit... finding a sitting position that i'm comfortable wif... play wif my fingers a bit...

then i rest my eyes on the uncle to my rite... HUH omg!! UNCLE!! wahpiang i nvr realise uncle (that fella's dad)is sitting RITE BSIDE ME ALL THE TIME. i quickly turned to him n greeted, hi uncle, giggling like mad at the same time. not funny meh?!
oh wait... shait! i was giggling like mad! now that i think of it i can c a cloud popping out from uncle's head..

this is not gud.

anyway thank god the food was served n that's when i can channel all my attn on food which means, less stress. i eat n eat n eat like nobody's business. 8 or 9 course later, v called it a day.

mommy n daddy, u both have groomed me well since i was a baby, juz that i'm not that kinda material sum times. hope i don sat lai u guys in front of other ppl.

=fidgetyFiona=

pain in the arse

2008-07-24T08:38:00.007+08:00

teehee... 2 entries in a row. sheez i muz have missed blogging so much. *bliss.

it's a great day at isle of cumbrae... a tiny island wif nth much to do. it's so damn tiny that u can cover the entire island by cycling around for 4 hrs which include many LONG photostops. by long i mean VERY LONG. y? cos there r few ~~leceh aunties~~ camwhoring perfectionistas in da house.
thank gudness i'm cool wif that today hehe. cos i'm reli chilling myself out in the beautiful sceneries. mountains n sea... typical scottish sceneries but stil luvly. *post photos later.

but wth... i got a seriously uncomfortable bike!! i need to slouch a lot until my back ached n omg i reli pity my fleshless butt. anyway 2 hrs riding a bike is sweet. 3 hrs... tiring. 4 hrs... that's killing me!!

treated myself to dinner at rumours again. curry mee again. hohoho. my frens may not agree but after trying out so many curry mee in msia, judging the tasty har-mai aroma n the rich coconut cream plus the accompaniments... rumour's curry mee can chin-chai beat many curry mee in KL! too bad it lacks the bit of spiciness-oomph for my stds.

so i think the best is stil in taiping n kuala sepatang!! omg when's cny??

i need to pack a bit. but i reli dread to have another p&s session again. cos i have lotsa stuff scattering here n there. n of course... it's hard to think that i'm leaving scotland in 3 days' time. sad isn't it? cos i grew to luv this place more each day. the water. the air. tho not the ppl n not the food la. *sobs*

very complicated feeling. only avril lavigne can understand. cos an hr ago in the previous post i was happy of going back to my food paradise n few mins ago i was talking abt going to perak for n now i damn berat hati to leave glasgow. how la u tell me...!!!
ah beauty sleep 1st.

watever izzit... it's reli pain in MY arse now. i mean it! literally.

WEEee rhapodisiac's BACK!!!

2008-07-24T06:03:00.008+08:00

... after a long hibernation. well y during the summer? cos she's ain't a polar bear! ok. HA-HA-HA.

gee feels so gud to blog again. that means i finally have the LUXURY to sit in front of the comp to type a bunch of crap.. to watch hotaru no hikari (it's so damn HILARIOUS wakaka! n tengmuzhiren n the oh-so-sweet ayase haruka r such tyummy eye candys!). gosh when lin-sama calls that a LUXURY, she muz have been away from a place she calls HOME for like a decade!!

indeed... i've gone tru the craziest travel-thon EvER since my final paper.

1. spain + portugal. back to glasgow. pack & shift.

2. italy. back to glasgow. p&s.

3. ireland. back to glasgow. p&s.

4. parents come. jln-jln bit of scotland.

5. convo. p&s

6. cosmos tour to 6 countries in 13 days (WTH!!!). truely nomadic lifestyle.

7. london. back to glasgow.

8. st. andrews

9. scottish highland tour.

this is MADNESS!!! do sum math wif the miles i've travelled n oso the number of p&s.. siao!!!

in such a short time i've been to many places. i reli appreciate it.. considering how lucky n privileged of me to have done so at a young age. of course, much thanx to daddy n mommy. i've seen a lot. learnt a lot. n enjoyed a whole lot more.

haha in the near future... rhapsodisiac is gonna turn to a travelogue.. sounds cool eh! stay tune.

anyway the travelling plus the p&s from room to room block to block had taken a toll on me. omg y can't my contract wif james blyth court last forever?! tired is not reli the word. i guess exhausted describes my condition better. i look so horrible now.

bad n dark apuneneh complexion! frizzy fuzzy messy hair wif yucky split ends!

wth i look like indonesian maid now. how now brown cow....
how i wish i'm rich enuf to treat myself to a luxurious spa n expensive hair treatment.

not only that. i have developed a sense of disliking towards certain stuff.

1. no more hostel pls. i wan comfortable hot shower n clean bed. may all bed bugs b sent to hell.

2. i cannot stand bus or train or watever ride more than an hr. ahhhh.... it's reli pain in the arse!!!

3. my stomach wil selectively reject foods like breads, croissants, fried stuff, McD, burgers, cold ham, n last but not least
CHIPS!!! i hereby declare i HATE french fries!!! i'm sick sick sick of them!!!

anyway 30th july wil b the day i step on the soil of FOOD PARADISE again. asam laksa!! cheerios=)

=relaxedRuby=

Yes I did it!

2008-06-05T09:36:00.006+08:00

yoohoo!

yeh yeh yeh!

yes yes yes!

i can go on wif all sorta screams of relief n joy la dee da=)

wat a day. it's 4 sth n piercing screams filled thruout the G7. v all make it!

i'm so glad i achieved wat i aimed for. merit wahaha!!! bfor that when i was doing a 1 week crashcourse in the study break, i say that if i don do well i wanna bang my head on great wall of china cos i put myself in this shit. i don need to do that now hohoho.

i juz called mommy. alamak. bfor calling i feel like crying adi. u know y i was thinking abt picking my parents up at glasgow international airport cos they'll b attending my convo... thinking abt my whole family n my extended family all pegi studio take studio photo wif me wearing the robe mortar board, holding a scroll n every1 smiling wide open. cheese=) then i'll have this beautiful portrait hanging on the wall of my house.. n then few yrs down the road another similar portrait wif my bro being the 1 in the robe mortar board wif the scroll. awwwww...

when i talked to mommy n she congratulated me n she said she juz messaged my sam ku lok poh sok pak heng tai to convey this gud news... i juz.... huuuu.... i cried. teehee allow me to b emo for a sec...

it's like walking down this long winding path called education. i've hiked up the last stop called university n i've accomplished it. now my parents can fly all the way to uk to c me wearing a robe n receiving a scroll. sharing wif them such pride n honour... wow! n i can tell daddy that's like the best ever investment he had made, using the money for my education instead of a big bungalow. u say la how can i hold back my tears.

i've worried the shit out of my research project. if only u can rmb the emo post on my research project. so pissed wif myself. i was a greedy person n yes i dreamt of getting distinction wa like so cool lidat. dream la can anot i'm sure every1 wans to get high marks 1 ok. the moment i pass up my pharmcare i knew i screw bit of it n then the moment i pass up my research project, i knew it's as gud as gone.

i left all researching n understanding n writing in 1 week, risking the subject which carries the most weightage in this degree! w/o editing samo! it's like handing in a hastely produced 1st draft to the supervisor thinking that the devil was blind n wud b foolish enuf to give me gud marks wth! i had nitemares abt it that i rmb vaguely by now.

then 2nd time, worried the shit out of my cpp. i left at least blanks which worth at least 15 marks n answer others like crap. then a lot of WAT IFs crept into my mind that i was pretty down n stressed out that time, i'm sure moz of us felt that way after the freaking scary cpp paper.

then that day when i was having a great time in spain, in a cold barcelona hostel (wth no blanket samo), i juz had to dreamt that i failed my research project when every1 else passed. it was SOOO REAL in the dream that i instantly felt so lost in my life! thinking that i've let myself n my parents down, the frustration was so intense that i cudn't take it. then suddenly i woke up, gosh i heaved a sigh of great relief n almoz broke into tears cos IT'S JUZ A DREAM. OMG! damn scary wei. how can it b so real??!!

then check status for viva. i got a 'no'. so i pretty much confirm i pass cpp. hurray! after that i got greedy. i'm not satisfied wif a pass to b frank. yes i wan a merit. n then on 4th june i reli got a merit. wahaha! thanx whoever up there who has been watching me all this while n help me sail tru all major examinations in my life even when i've not been a gud gal. i'm very thankful, reli, if only u read my blog.

n of course i've nvr been happier knowing that 2 fella close to me got a distinction. 1 paranoid fella who nvr had much luck in life n 1 fella who worried sick of failing cpp that v sia2 waste our saliva comforting her. hahaha... congrats! i wil nvr forget that hug n the tears of joy.

of course a pat on my shoulder too. hee hee....

=pharmacistTan=

once in a purple moon

2008-05-21T06:30:00.003+08:00

ya i alwiz said that instead of once in a blue moon.

n huh?! rite now, looking out of my luvly window, i saw purple moon! whoa! though at sum point it looked orange to me. omg purple n orange... 2 totally distictive colors takkan i can't tell the difference rite? sry i reli can't. anyway things juz do not alwiz have absolute answers in life.

it seems that the incidence of purple moon is higher than blue moon. so to imply higher rarity, i shall use back the good o' phrase... once in a blue moon nx time haha.

drilling my brain wif heavy metal n looking at the moon tru my luvly window. awww i'm gonna part wif u my room this fri. huuuuuuu i'm so so sad.

ya i'm stressed out. i'm having a hard time memorising those 4 topics. watch series nonstop la, slack la, padan muka!!! ya only 4 topics, decided to leave out sandy gray's topic for my own gud.

omg wat a totally irrelevant post.
ahhh~ have a break! have a.. err.. i don have kit kat.

=stressedSheryl=

sry ma, i spin out of control again.

2008-05-20T07:14:00.006+08:00

after randomly looking out for dramas in crunchyroll ytrday i bump into tata hitotsu no koi... to jap illiterate, it means juz one love. cliche as it sounds, haiyo i tell u ah *my typical auntie tone*, it's the same old poor guy rich gal ala romeo n juliet story. gee tot i'm not gonna fall for this kinda formulaic drama

BUT THEN...

i finished the Entire series within 24 hrs!!

omg this is SIAO! wat's wrong wif me?! i know i'm a drama freak but this is 1 heck of a feat that shud qualify for lin's book of records.

well i guess it's none other than the charm of kamenashi kazuya. yalar i admit he's a guy wif girlish features, ill! totally not my type. i only drool over manly man ok. but wth he's so damn cool in those dramas n the characters he played absolutely enhance his manliness like a million fold whoa... i think i gotta tell mr lee that i'll luv him less these few days cos i need to channel my luv to kame.

kame! aishiteru!

anyway ayase haruka was soo preety she melt ma heart though i don have a y chromosome. tgt they make such a gorgeous couple. geee i think i'll make a cute couple wif kame oso wat. *fantasizing fantasizing. if i have time i'll paste my photo rite bside him to prove u that.

jdrama being jdrama, helluva tearjerker. ahh sucky me fall for that too, tot i'm a macho person haha. nah only jdrama n tvbdrama appeal to me i dunno y. i'll puke overnite rice if it's a taiwanese or korean production. i can't stand it!! they've spun the kawaii factor n drama factor overboard it's utterly nonsensically ridiculous!!

personal perference, no offence.

hmm i find that i enjoy lotsa 'light' stuff nowadays, err sry can't get a better adjective. it's gud that i'm not being too 'extreme'. there.. shoot. this is gonna turn into a reflection post.

there was 1 point in life

... where i think love story should b depicted in a subtle way, wif minimal conservation, wif extensive character layering, wif inconclusive-abrupt-leaves-u-room-to-think aka yat tau mou soi kinda ending r gud movies. ooh sounds like tan chui mui's love conquers all. haha.

... where i luv all things 'underground' n 'dark' n shun many things deemed to b commercialized.

whether is my luv of this kinda stuff or izzit my rebellious mind doing the trick i dunno. so it's pretty much a chicken n egg question, but yeah non-conformity surely appeals to me. being a jadedJude back then was in a way, depressing. i juz tot.. i wil nvr understand ppl i don care if they gonna understand me cos i don understand myself either. but when it comes to communication n relationship wif ppl, dang i'm in deep shit.

if i were to go on having the idongiveadamnonwateverthatidonfeellikegivingadamn kinda thinking, it's gonna b destructive, emotionally n socially. ya i pretty much realise that.

for now, i enjoy being a more balanced individual=)

=kiddoKate= to =emoEmily= don freak out.

i juz feel like blogging

2008-05-17T08:04:00.006+08:00

wooff.. it's been 2 days i keep myself away from module notes. teeheehee~~ feels like exam's over. been daydreaming abt my spain trip. how many singlets shud i pack.. erm.. wahaha finally no need to bao ba zhang adi, it's spring! i feel so sprightlySue!
chotomate! this day nx weel i'll b in seville. whoa!!! omg omg i can't wait.

*slap*

ok there's stil 1 final paper to go... which require 50 marks to pass wth but carries only double the credit of the totally irrelevant personal skills development lagi wth n then no mcq samo lagi lagi wth. presenting... advanced drug discovery! *touch wood* shud b my final exam paper as a student. *pray hard*

haha eyes stil bit watery now. i've juz finished over time, the jdrama wif fan ding long shi in it. yep yep yep i super duper gila abt fan ding long shi, he's my man!!! omg i cudn't have ask for a better ending. it's such a cool way to end the show when natsuki decided to go to new york wif the doctor, awww another cute guy=) the relationship btw natsuki n soichiro is juz so beautiful n extraordinary, it's more than frens lovers n siblings. if they were to b tgt in the end they r juz so gonna kill it, luckily the scriptwriter has the same thinking wif me phew. shit y i keep digging old jdrama to watch lately??

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so sry my dear blog, i've decided to abandon u for quite sum time. u know i had enuf of writing essays that make my eyes tired yes i was born to have weak eyes, blogging an entry is kinda like writing an essay minus the formality minus the stress but wil make my eyes tired too. to conserve my eye power for studying , i spend much of my time taking naps, watching drama... which perfectly re-energise my eyes. yes i need all the time i have to bond wif my dear bed n my dear room. huu i don wan birbeck, i had fell so deeeeply in luv wif this lil pigsty n the luvly window.. awww..

yeah i keep saying that i don wan to go back msia so fast. but another part of me is oso counting down the days left to pick my parents up at glasgow international airport *run to parents wif arms wide open.. slow-mo * n i know the moment i touch down klia (too bad la i'll b going back wif my bf if not can drama abit oso), i wanna go to sum hawker stall n eat a plate of hokkien mee.
n of course, i know i'll b so glad to b wif my family n dearie dearie frens again. weee~

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ytrday juz had lunch at chokukun? chikokun? chukokun? bwahahaha my oh-so-cute housemate ms cheong juz can't get it rite. hoiii apa-la ni... it's CHUKOKU! CHUKOKU! drrrrill it into ur cerebrum yo.

juz like that flip-floppers, flop-flippers, flippy-flopper, flop-flip.... f f f f all sorta possible combination in the world... but not FLIP FLOP!! bwahahahahahahahahahahahah.

anyway the nite ended wif a lil party for mingying at J9. plus a reli sweet video (che wah globalised samo damn yeng) that touched deep into her heart *wink wink... n apparently her lacrimal duct haha.

then ms cheong had to kena again ngeh ngeh cos she forgot to tell us that our house need to record a video for mingying too! v were left out! anyway that video n the heated debate (not reli heated la, juz that 1 fickle-minded fella keep blabbing n changing her opinion every 5 mins) over it gave me a light bulb! after adding sugar n soya sos whoala, G7 had 1 video for mingying too.

HAPPY 2*th (sensitive stuff) BIRTHDAY to my MEK1 inhibitor partner!

"boobiemingying" signing off.

FINAL EXAM

2008-05-07T19:06:00.005+08:00

ok this is the time of the yr n this is the time of my life.

final exam of MPharm couse. a degree at stake. don play play.

had my 1st paper ytrday. receptor-mediated endocytosis, don even wanna talk abt it. bet v were so stressed out for the past week. after exam, housemates n i chatted til midnite. siao! but feels gud. gals... this species is hopelessly n uncontrollably chatty n gossipy at times.

anyway the scariest paper of all is on this fri. clinical pharmacology n prescribing. read journal n answering questions IN OWN WORDS. there's nth much to do to prepare for this. scary!!!

bet moz of us who can't write comprehensive answers r pretty worried abt this paper. i'm oso worried abt my attn span, i juz can't sit down n read n understand the whole thing attentively in 1 hr, i'll alwiz go blank for seconds *zooop*, n there's no way i can do star jump in the exam hall when i have a brain jam. u think so easy to focus n digest ah!

enough abt that, i juz hope that i can make it for all these 5 papers n graduate on june 30th 2008. i hope to share this pride n joy wif my parents on that day. they don come here juz for europe tour, they come for my convo. fingers crossed!

i pray, i pray n i pray. pls let me pass this final exam. gud luck to myself n all my batchmates.

ZHA DOU!!!

2008-05-02T02:13:00.007+08:00

i think i'm destined to do things last min.

i think i'm destined to b a person w/o sense of urgency.

mayb, i shud alwiz let things take its own course.

if... i can juz b myself.

mayb, things wil sumhow work its way out.

middle of final week of study break: haih this stupid booking of virgin train tickets. there's sum technical probs n since it's related to address, i'm so freaking scared that i'll not receive those 14 tickets by postal delivery. i'm not talking abt 4, i'm talking abt 14 tickets ok! then spent my whole afternoon calling few times n sending a couple of emails. at the end of the day, there's NO reassurance that things r gonna b fine n there's NO clear solution for it. gek sei ngo!

next day: went to dear's place for awhile. when i came back i found a piece of paper in the pigeon hole. omg this cudn't b it rite?! my train tickets have reached the village office?! i quickly dashed to the village office to collect my stuff. n omg it's RELI those 14 train tickets!! when i get hold of the envelope it was such a great sense of relief... aahhhhhHH~~~

but this sense of relief was later overshadowed by a zha dou feeling. i mean IF only i'll juz wait n c for 1 more day!! i wil not go tru all the hassle n waste my time doing things that i shudn't have done in the 1st place!! lagi gek sei ngo!!

then i suddenly found out that on the envelope, the date written by vo was ytrday's date!!! at this pt i almoz vomit blood.. @#$%&* DENG! i don even need to wait n c for 1 more day.

IF only any1 of us can juz walk downstairs n check the pigeon hole ytrday... yes, there wil b no phone calls, no emails, no worries, no time n energy wasted. super zha dou!

well y does this even trigger me to blog abt it... cos it din happen once or twice, it happen thrice!

after amsterdam trip, was planning on the route for spain trip. damn susah payah finally drafted a route that can accomodate lisbon. so happy. then suddenly 1 day, that ticket price for dublin-barcelona suddenly naik dunno how many fold. BASKET!

change route.

then the booking involving vueling.com failed for no reason, no matter how many times v tried. n this particular flight juz has to affect the outcome of the entire route. WTH!!

so change route again.

n luckily it worked. but bcos i was a lil obsessive compulsive on the whole planning back then, all these changes had costed me quite sum time. gek sei ngo!!

i mean IF only i'll juz look it up 1 or 2 days bfor the day v book.

then the italy trip. things r easier this time cos i'm sure of the 3 cities i wan to go. after coordinating wif the new accomodation contract, yeah got a plan. juz when i tot v r supposed to check in on fri, actually it's sat!!

wahpiang.. difference of 1 day, diff price for flight ticket, plus that damn kacau graduate ball has to stuck in the middle, fine.. that means gotta find a different route. BASKET!!

IF only i'll juz plan later, after i know abt the check in date.

given any ordinary day when i'm bumped into all these stupid situations, no big deal. but hey they all juz have to fall during my study break, which is cut short a week due to the amsterdam trip, so stressed out lo!!

middle of the 2nd week of the study break, i finally set my hands on those module notes. when i realised that i'm looking at sum alien wordings, ahh how much i regreted for sleeping in lectures n not revising earlier, i got panic! then on the other side need to crack head on accommodation contract n planning everything when parents come over for convo. only get to concentrate on the middle of 3rd week but things stil get in the way.

bcos there's a hurry to get things done, i get a lil pushy on stuff, yeah so not me. sumhow when i'm FINALLY, for ONCE, enthusiastic at getting things done, things juz didn't work my way. wat the heck! y punish me like that? i tot it's a gud thing to at least have sum sense of urgency which i usually don have. instead of getting things done quickly, i screw things up.

i mean if i can juz b myself n let things take its course, i wudn't have wasted my time n energy on NTH! time was silver back then but time is gold now!! i mean for gudness sake this is my last exam that determines heavily whether i deserve an MPharm degree n become a pharmacist in the future, i need all the time i have to study REAL HARD!! i need to focus!! that's y those lil incidents juz drive me so mad, arrgghhHH! yes i'm not friendly when i'm stressed out, i bite, rawrrrrrrr!i'm gonna bang my head on great wall of china if all these gonna affect my exam results.

IF only the time wasted can b used to study.

see how things had worked against me when i finally had sum sense of urgency n was enthusiastically getting things done.

i've nvr been an organised person in my life n i nvr will.

i'm juz gonna b the usual =selambaStella= n let things take its own course.

life wil b much better this way=)

=madMargeret=

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decided not to post this when i was stil breathing fire. sumhow i realised that if it weren't spent on doing these things, i'll stil b doing other non-study related stuff. cos there's no way i'm gonna lay my attn to sth continuously (sum1 muz b so worried abt this haha), wat more study. i can't! i'm a sagittarian. (when there's nth to blame, juz blame it on zodiac sign keke.) so lin-sama, there's totally no reason for u to b so uptight wif those time wasted.

i'm bored!

2008-04-25T09:01:00.005+08:00

so bored until at the spur of the moment, i transformed my boredom into basin + toilet bowl scrubbing. yes i'm that bored. 1 more look into the module notes n the =HannahHulk= in me is gonna tear up the pages apart. so i blog.

there was a bbq gathering n a bday celebration. sum time to breathe fresh air, destress, detox, de-watever.. but when they ended, stress level shoot up cos u realised that ah so much time lost!

the bbq gathering was a product of many misunderstandings haha. anyway the chicken wings n the desserts were yummy! 1st time i act shiver in a bbq, 1st time i don need a fan to brow of the drop of sweat trickling down my nose to the chicken haha. it's diff in glasgow, the damn convenient disposal bbq kit juz n help from a gush of glasgow wind, whoala the flame was set in few nanoseconds.

then i thoroughly exposed my poor reflex to a mass audience n had to gulp down yucky smell-and-taste-like-air-longkang mixture. eeeewwwww! the yuckiest part of all, the mixture contained DURIANS! walao.... the stinkiest fruit on earth, i seriously don understand y ppl like it so much lo! ya this malaysian gene is sumhow missing in me, ok so wat i don need love-durian-gene replacement therapy to b a msian ok! the nite was stil young n was ended wif a pillow-talk session talking abt sum1 ngeh ngeh ngeh *wink wink.

it's neigbour jasmin's bday ytrday. here in jbc, ppl gather to celebrate bday. whether it's a high profile or quiet affair. lotsa ppl gather in my lounge for her big day n awww.. guitars n songs juz make my messy n dirty lounge into a cosy n heartwarming area, meltzz ma heart=) when they started to sing..
it's amazing how u can speak rite to my heart... awww.. pop songs r not my cup of tea but dunno y this reli touches me everytime i hear it.. when u say nth at all... awww... those were the times i act tot ronan keating very leng chai. ahh it brought back the fond memories of the penang trip wif my alevel frens when i was 18. gah jas min's juz celebrating her 21st bday! (yee jelez!! my 21st bday was long ago wuuhuu...) n u know wat... jas min can sing! think her voice's the best i've heard so far in my batch no kiddin'.

this past week has been stressful. alamak it's like 3 4 or 5 events bsshh bam boom come crashing at u until u can't breathe properly. so wat u juz can't sit on ur butt n those things to solve by their own. it was made harder when 1 decision does not revolve around u alone, it involves the root of all evil n oso, a lot of ppl. it's totally diff from studies-related stress. dahlah failed miserably in time management. now have a hard time juggling btw 2 things. 1) urgent but not that important. 2) important but not that urgent, which is stuying for exam, duh.
i can't breathe.

2 week's gone. 1st for amsterdam n battery charging. 2nd week was crazy. can u blif it?! it's only 2 weeks to my final yr exam of MPharm degree. bwah! that's way too short to cover everything man! shoot. i seriously dunno how. samo got short attention span, can't concentrate for more than 30 mins. i can juz stare at the word blankly n brain melayang to spain then to msia then where to bring parents around if they r in scotland. daydream syndrome... issh. stop daydreaming lin-sama, the world is nvr gonna b ideal!
if not i'll juz get sooo fidgety n started doing star jump n shook the whole block G. whoever's staying rite below me, paiseh=P

=boredBebo=

research project

2008-04-17T08:28:00.007+08:00

uh another post left to rot. sheez i defly can't make a life out of blogging.
anyway shoo! if u r allergic to bore-u-to-death reflection kinda post.

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wat a relief to shove the end product into the metal cabinet! by that i mean immense relief. in fact that's how i felt everytime i passed up an assignment last min plus the adrenaline rush, but this surely meant a lot as it's the last in my uni life, cud b the last research project in my entire life.

n fulamak, that's the 1st time in my life i stay awake the whole nite! juz to get that damn thing done! y'know to put those tables in place was such a pain in the arse.

gosh been so comfortable wif the exam-oriented education system all this while, miss those a level days when v only need to study when exam's round the corner.
...assignment? ...WAT?! *shrugs bimbotically*
that oso i did miserably for my bio. cos i hate it n din finish covering the syllabus. i WAS a terrible student.

researching n writing up essays r my biggest weaknesses. i barely finish my cpp essay in a week, n 2 pharmcare essays in 10 days... but a week to write up a discussion n complete the entire research project?! boy was i out of my mind??!! i've got not time to read over wat i wrote. no final editing, i let it happen AGAIN, on my final yr research project! c, i'm STILL a terrible student.

juz when i tot the books that i borrowed from library r gonna help me out, wth only a 4th yr chem student can understand that i bet. 1st the complicated cellular signaling, then the complicated chemistry of ligand-receptor binding n then the complicated computer softwares which all drove me bonkers!

moz of the time i had fun playing wif my molecules than act answering the questions. n sumtimes, =perfectionistPaige= merasuk n i'd rotate my molecule for hrs juz to get a nice, clear image. (duh in the end i delete moz of it!) well it's bcos of this i bump into a new finding, my hit's a competitive inhibitor when i wan it to b non-competitive.. DENG! *panic*
since then i've been presenting my datas n answering those questions in a diplomatic way, hoping to keep it safe. well sry for my partner who have to deal wif my last min finding, v pulled it tru anyway. hey ms. ku... i complimented u gau gau in my acknowledgement ok!! muahaha... by gau gau i mean 1 sentence.

n then i tried to read up on GOLD docking program to have more understanding on my project, wahpiang!! imagine a comp software has sth to do wif chromosome, mutation n evolution, WTH it's totally out of my scope ok!! i even had a hard time figuring out van der waals forces n hydrophobic interaction. it's not defined as wat i've alwiz tot it is. *scratch head

gave up on understanding n attempt to answer the questions straight. n i've wasted precious time by looking up materials that didn't fit into my discussion. let's say..
y do we delete water molecules. bet i search long enuf for this, but moz literature r on retaining water molecules. sumhow my gut feeling juz tell me it has sth to do wif entropy so i started crapping my own answer, only after passing up that i realised i misphrased it in such a way that sounds like Hbonds r thermodynamically unfavourable.. when act many things in this universe interact by Hbonds! i'm DOOMED! i can totally imagine simon wif his hahthisisrubbish kinda look when marking my half past 6 work.

ya pt is i knew clearly that i needed more than a week, given that i had zero knowledge on the crazy stuff that i'm dealing wif. wat's more it carries the moz credits! but heck i din put in the effort that i was supposed to. i shud've started researching since the lab session, esp since i've got the privilege of having a relaxed 1.

no matter how much i hate researching, i'm a 4th yr undergraduate. i shud at least allocate more time on research, write things up, final edit, n hand in a decent project. sumtimes i tot.. as long as i pass it doesn't matter wat class i got, v r all gonna graduate as pharmacist sumday. but then, i'm slowly swallowed by guilt when i think of how much my dad have paid to put me here, n mayb by putting a lil more effort i can act make them very proud. it's reli my responsibility to get a gud pass.

shoot. i'm inorganised, hopelessly playful, n unable to prioritise things. it's totally understandable now y my parents can nvr trust me, n y my bf can nvr stop worrying of me (he's playing my parent's role now that i'm abroad haha). i've yet to reach that level of maturity n serves u rite lin-sama for failing to earn their trust. i'm either stucked wif peterpan in neverland syndrome or this rebellious teen thingy. i pretty much screw this myself. DAMMIT!

boy am i regretting this? i can't turn back time. well hope that by studying hard for the final exams i can salvage the situation. shit not like they carry lotsa credits. omg can i even pass cpp? let's cross fingers that i'll graduate at 30th jun. good luck to every1 too=)

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haha it's kinda weird when posting this entry which i've written like 2 weeks ago. cos sadly i hasn't changed a bit. my guilt n motivation are overshadowed by my obsessive compulsive trip plannings n watching desperate housewifes. wth, get those concentration n enthusiasm on those module notes pls!!!!

=guiltyGwen=

i baked cakes! no high expectation pls.

2008-03-30T10:04:00.004+08:00

gosh totally forgot abt this post n let it rot for a long long time... so convenience sake, i'll juz wrap 2 events in 1 post.. since it's all abt CAKE.

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25th march: our body system is such a wonderful piece of god's creation. as if i don know after yrs of studying that complicated n yawn-induced biology.

was rushing my arse off at last min. sympathetic activity predominates in my body. heart beating faster n harder, don feel hungry, don feel like going to jamban, armpit's sweat glands gone hyper (yerrr!) yeah my body is practically in fight or flight mode... all to prepare myself for writing up the last bit of words n hand in my assignment.

previously, my adrenaline rush ceased rite at the moment i pass up my cpp essay. so after pharmcare essay deadline, tot i'll juz k.0 on my bed, instead i was tossing n turning... strange... my body was stil pumping adrenaline to bind the adrenoceptors. i got up, wander in the kitchen for awhile. at the spur of the moment, hey let's bake a cake!

went to aldi to get sum stuff. passed by kebab shop. at the spur of the moment, shan suggested to da bau kebab. i quicky agreed cos i din have a proper lunch. when the kebab was ready, at the spur of the moment, v ate there straightaway instead of da bau. mmm~~

total RANDOMNESS. i'm loving it=)

gee back to the cake part.
bug jenny, the cake sifu for the simplest recipe possible. our 1st cake.. BUTTER CAKE!
this was our 1st baking session, while moz of our multi-talented batchmates cum future super wives cum future loving moms r oredi cake sifu. *malu

1. melt 250g butter n 190g sugar.

oh jenny even added that the recipe is fool-roof. wow.. in the hands of 3 clumsy stooges, nth is fool-proof man. stressed!

2. beat the mixture wif 4 eggs, cocoa powder n a quarter of milk.

3. pfong: hey how much milk?

me: 250ml.

4. 250ml of milk was poured into the mixture.

v beat n chat for a very long time. then v realise that hey there's sth wrong wif the consistency. y izzit stil so WATERY? oh gosh did i juz splash too much saliva into the mixture?

it muz b the milk! too much milk la.

me: jenny reli said 1 quarter de wor.

shan: ya it's 1 quarter. but jenny said it's 1 quarter of a normal cup o.

me: *faint.
my brain: 1 quarter= 1 quarter of 1 litre= 250mL. walao how can i ever assume like that?? 250mL= 2 normal cups! no wonder so watery la. oopsie!

well the moz za dou thing is that... yes yes i hope u've spotted it... that ms cheong hor... she witnessed us measuring the 250ml of milk n pouring into the mixture, AND she's the 1 who knew that it's 1 quarter of a normal cup. how come she din stop us?? well her answer was.. i can't connect both things tgt.

*.............

*sweat!

then v started to dump more raising flour, more eggs, more butter, more sugar, more cocoa butter.. more of everything! oh no.. our 1st time baking a cake... y so cruel? foolproof oso boleh jadi macam ni. MALU!

it took us hrs n finally.... freshly baked from oven.

i named it 天崩地裂. it's obvious!

mmm... luv the crust.. very crunchy. i alwiz like to eat crust! inside... aiya bit too moist. but overall, after the mistakes n chaos, n everything out of proportion.. v stil can come out wif this. pat on the shoulder~~~

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5th april: gosh that 1st cake was after my pharmcare essay deadline n now time for the 2nd cake, after my research project deadline. well it either proves how fast time passes or how inefficient of me in updating my blog.

oh did i juz say 2nd cake??

so this time it's shan who took the initiative to find recipe.
MARBLE CAKE. n weirdly they have vague instructions on choc frosting.

so everything went well this time. measurements ALL correct!! consistency.. nice. n v alternate the mixture to get the marble effect.. nice.

tho v kinda doubt that frosting. it looks so watery that v keep adding more choc n bit of flour. well... it's reli risky, n intuition juz got me that it'll do better w/o that frosting. anyway juz give it a go! it shud turn out ok.

so halfway when the cake's almoz ready, (well it looks 'done' to me. gosh it has this nice marble pattern in it , v were sooo happy!!), v poured the choc frosting over the cake n shoved into the oven.

n erm... times up! so eager to c wat we've got. n oh-my-god...

DISASTROUS!!

the supposedly nice-looking n nice-tasting cake juz turn to this horrible choc shit! ill!

c.. the marble effect was gone!!

sadla... thanx to that STUPID CHOC FROSTING. the instruction juz ended at the pt when the mixture was done n din told us wat to do wif it! n ppl who r noob in cake-baking juz don have the sense to do the rite thing.

well v did finish a lot of it anyway haha.

pls pls pls no more failure ok. that's so demoralising n resource-wasting. guess v r stil not the multi-talented batchmate cum gud future super wive cum future lovin' mom material muahaha. cheh like i wan to b 1..

=PMSPenny=

of youtube n deadlines.

2008-03-28T05:10:00.007+08:00

it's interchange btw winter n spring. felt pretty gud. however it's oso the deadlines' season, or rather the Deadliest season in MPharm degree. damn!

i know i know i can't do assignments any earlier... i juz have to do it last min AGAIN!

so i tot... gotta cut down the time on cooking, bathing, fat ngau dau, grocery shopping, pak toh, talk crap bla bla... n i did! so that i can stay more in my room n get focused wif my pharmcare essays.. note the S.

... which is totally STUPID! since i've got an awfully short attention span, i shud've known it CAN'T work!

so instead of reading more journals, i was blog-hopping, youtube-ing n anime-ing EXCESSIVELY, the rate rising exponentially samo. well at least i know i'm not alone =)

n then i discovered sth! haha not a big thing unless u r a fan.

i was watching LMF's videos on youtube, not the S again keke. gosh i luv LMF since my secondary skool days! *nostalgic* they were the ones i listened to in the hk scene.. bsides beyond n king lychee. but i din buy their album, 1. i was juz a kong shue sang,
(c i don buy ciplak lou fan, i stand on high moral grounds, kerana gua punya moral dapat A1 muahaha )
2. i was too chicken to play songs like h** g* l**g rite into mummy's ears. how sinful is that!
(c i respect my parents... ppl who listen to 1 or 2 foul language songs r not bad kids ok.. LMF is educational)

STOP! *the trademark pfong way**
i think i swayed away from my main pt. i said i discovered sth rite?

while watching 1 of the LMF's video... i spotted a guy. i tot to myself. "hey this guy look like 李灿森 la so funny 1"... secs later... "waa reli look like him wor"...

WAIT A MIN! it IS sam lee! according to my observant eyes.

yeh it's this comical dude playing comical roles in slap-stick hk movies.

so i decided to googled a bit n CONFIRMed.. this dude was once a member of LMF!!

shame on u lin-sama... how dare u claim urself a LMF fan!

sheez i nvr know abt this until few days ago, long after they disbanded... i'm so outdated weh. only know of MC Yan rapping in that pervert edison's songs.. wasted wasted.

o' skool metal rap rocks man!

buy ORI! this is a community msg, brought to u by rhapsodisiac.

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n i made a promise to myself not to fool around anymore... it's final yr project. it's hell lotsa credits don play play.

after making that promise... i slept at 4am ytrday. i watch anime non-stop for hrs... n then went on to finish up manga.. that's it! no more anime/ manga til 4th april. of course stil can watch tvb drama la.. if ban that oso wil b too cruel to myself liao.

n then today, went to library wif pfong. can u blif it?! i went to the LIBRARY! borrowed sum books on molecular modelling n drug design. shit i don even know how to borrow books, gud that i went wif pfong, well she din know how to return books either.. muahaha.

BOOKS! tsk tsk so proud of myself n yes... =hardworkingHillary= is in da house.

SLAP ME!!

2008-03-20T21:35:00.001+08:00

=stressedSheryl= : omg omg anime tvb drama entertainment shows... episode after episode... r u out of ur mind??? u have 1 1/4 essay + 3 portfolios to go!!!

=selambaStella= : relak la sheryl-sama... damn whoever who postponed the deadline to nx tues, made me lost all sense of urgency n sense of crisis liao...

=stressedSheryl= : @#$%^&*#
*pokes a needle into stella's butt
5 mg/ml sense of urgency i.v
ngek ngek ngek!!

oops stil blogging crap... gtg!

FOOD food food...

2008-03-15T09:17:00.007+08:00

lauders
o'neills
counting house
the goose
drums n monkeys
tiger-tiger

oh wait i'm not having a trip to the ZOO ok.

these r pubs/bars that v dined in truout our stay in glasgow- places that v can afford (named after animals samo). but nth is more satisfying than having a meal with Fantabulous Food from our homeland... esp when u r abroad for soo many months n u miss the food haven that u hailed from so dearly...

n whoala... on 8th march: a lunch outing to a newly opened msian restaurant near our area...
RUMOURS! i forgot to wrap this up in my weekly rhapsodee of 3rd - 9th march.

v were in time for the set lunch. 6.50 pounds for starter, main plus tea.

cute rooster tea set... aww i miss hiong pin, gok bou n long jeng...

recommended starter: satay!! tho it looked more like chicken skewer, the sos! my gudness! reli satay sos yo, dun play play.

the sambal egg n acar were very nice too. juz not as dai as the satay. dah la the egg n shredded vege r cheaper than chicken meat, they samo served in smaller portion pulak!

ta-dah~ my dish.. pineapple fried rice. tot it's gonna b sth exotic.. served in a real pineapple wif very rich thai taste to it. dsshh... too high expectation =( but surely taste much better than my own fried rice keke.

c.. got prawn n fish cake... mmmm!!

shan's nasi lemak. sambal up to msian std in ang moh country! wat a rare gem. muz try!

char kuey teow... not bad too!

the way the si tau po switched effortlessly btw mandarin n cantonese ... ahhh confirm kaki-nang la... it felt SOOO GOOD to b in the cosy cafe that after finishing the food, v juz chatted n chatted like any ordinary yam cha session in kl. it shud b named GOSSIPS la~

when v asked for the bill, found that the si tau po gai cho sou. since v r kaki-nang, v pointed out that she counted 1 set less, damn HONEST weh!! if it's in a pub/bar, v wud've fled the place like road runnner as soon as v paid the bill. *beep beep

yeh defly gonna go back again!

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10th march: movie outing at cineworld. v watched national treasure. wa long time din watch movie adi, 2nd movie outing in glasgow since transformers haha! n here, the movies r WAY outdated compared to msia. pathetic! anyway the movie boleh tahan la.

well gud things alwiz come later. after that, v went to MUSSEL INN! yes, they served mussels. n yes, i ordered half kilo of mussels in cheese, bacon n cream. (5.30 pounds, gud deal!). waaa damn deprived of seafood weh!!! so me n dear decided to add on half dozen of oysters. u hear me rite... chilled oysters!

the mussels went reli well wif the flavour! v were hoping that they wil serve extra bread since our batchmates said they wil, but dunno la.. mayb v yong soih.. v din get extra bread=(

the oysters were so yummi-ly fresh! it's so smooth.. juz 1 slurp n felt like it melted in my mouth... WOW! that was a great dinner.

12th march: dear had diarrhoea until fatigue got over him, his hands n legs went numb. time to nurse a big baby... tho my porridge cooking skill hasn't reli improve haha...
so cud it b the oysters on 10th march?? hmm...

=waisekMeow=

Election 2008!

2008-03-10T03:09:00.004+08:00

for 50 yrs of independence in a so called 'democratic' country, 1st time... v get a sweet taste of DEMOCRACY! as a msian citizen, v have all the reasons to rejoice! *pops champagne

libra's 2/3 majority was denied, 5 states were conceded to the oppostition party. wat a crazy crazy feat man! muahaha it's the AGE of INTERNET!

hah so wat, u think u can stop raja petra, u think u can sue namewee, even if u bought over all the mainstream media in msia, u can't hide wat u did, ppl wil know, bcos this is the age of internet!!!

u think u can shut the mouths of the bloggers... look where's jeffooi, hah azalina ur turn to shut up!
u think u can suppress the voice of a mass rally by spraying tear gas n detaining the leader... well manoharan tastes victory while laying his ass in kamunting detention camp.

pak lala n gang muz b dumbfounded.
mr. semi-value has not much of value left.
guan eng waves gudbye to koh (shu) koon.
chew si lai goes home n bake cookies.

n moz rakyat malaysia hollered, yeh!!!

well of course it's too early to say anything since the government is not formed n v have yet to see how the opposition parties perform to serve the rakyat. or wil they too b corrupted by power n wealth? don disappoint us la weh. v'll c.

*i heard michael buble singing ---> it's a new dawn, it's a new day, it's a new life~~~~*

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5am!! wat a record! damn siao. this is the 2nd FIRE ALARM that went off in the WEEEE hrs IN A WEEK! the 1st time pfong n i were very excited, indeed v were the 1st to rush out of the building (am i dreaming or wat?) n find it even funnier when v c the smoke came out of our living room window haha. *dup dup heart skipped a bit. oh gosh it cudn't b us who cause every1 walking out in the pjs rite?! 2 chickens so afraid to b cursed by fellow batchmates. phew luckily not us haha. but hey 2nd time in a week is no more fun ok, ya ya curse the angmoh downstairs!

=excitedElisa=

of SNOW! n CPP essay...

2008-03-03T08:50:00.011+08:00

weekly rhapsodee: 3rd - 9th march

3rd march: it snowed in glasgow! damn excited since the moment i crawl out of bed. in n out, in n out... v went out of the house 3 times for the SNOW! semangat~

1st time: not snowing adi but everywhere was covered wif a thin layer of snow... stil happy.

snowman n sexy snowbabe ini bikini.. wiu-wit!

2nd time: bfor i cud settle down, omg... it snowed again!

me n 38 housemates (except the si gu gu 1) ran out to play wif the snow. v ran abt, taste the snow... n got excited like budak kecik.

haha competing to c who collect the moz snow flakes on their hair.

n yeh... i got a lot! i think i won!

well if there is 1 moment that i shud rmb abt snowing in glasgow... this is it! it's such a wonderful feeling to b embraced by nature!! it's freedom n tranquility that i felt while sitting on the grass n let the snow shower all over me... from my gloomy n confused 'transition state' in imu days, i'm glad that i slowly find myself during my stay abroad. n this snow shower juz happen to remind me of this.

bfor i cud open my comp, WHOA yau lei!! this time it's a heavier.

waa luckily my window was repaired rite in time.

*catch catch catch... aww damn fun catching the snow flakes. juz a tip for u guys how to recognise my hand. c my last finger FOREVER cacat 1, don ask me y i dunno!

in case u wonder wat's this... i'm sticking my head out of the window to collect snow flakes. "the stunt was performed by well-trained professional. don try this at home."

the snow gets heavier n heavier n FUYOH! look at this...

can't tahan adi... went out 3rd time for more pics.

tralalalala... byk-nya bintik-bintik putih! so beautiful!

ill ill ill.. PINK! oh wth the fact that i was in this oversized liong pink jacket n oily hair killed the beauty of the pic.

wahaha that helmet hair was a bigger laughing stock compared to my pink jacket. it made me =barberBarbara= ytrday.

then v compact the snow into a snowball... no, not having snowball fight. instead v attacked the J2 windows muahaha... yeh yeh it's so FUN but too bad my snowballs were alwiz not on target *eesshh!

- 3 eskimos posing wif phone booths

on the way to tesco... weee stil snowing!

the whole day was pretty much distracted by the snow n not much progress on cpp essay. mayb it's the mind-cleansing effect of the snow, my cpp headache (literally) was gone!

this was the enjoyable kind of heavy snow... not the crazy blizzard at cairngorm mountain that made u crying for home! oh reminds me that i stil i haven't write on my skiing trip ahhhhhh...

=kiddoKate=

4th march: i look into the the mirror n i look like shit, i look around my room n my room look like shit.

i feel like a junkie... *harh... a seaweed junkie la. can't stop eating it. when i get so sick of my CPP essay i have to eat it!!... psychological dependence...

luckily it's a healthy snack.

pretty stressed out wif cpp cos i dunno which shud b my recommended therapy since i don have enuf info to help me decide! it's reli insecure to think that i may head the wrong direction how how how?!

finally, my mind was set to support drug A.

5th march: i was rite behind that pepsiholic but *bam the door was locked! thanx to hsheong, i got in the classroom at last tho it took quite awhile. it muz b that day of the month for mr. pepsiholic... kesian the presenters. he later punished the absentees to write an essay abt professionalism n apology letters for those who were present.

*ptui!

y izzit that only my group was punished? other grps leh? yalar yalar my grp don have ang moh, don have nagging murray, don have sushi bday gal. alwiz so inorganised n likes to make changes at short notice! c'mon who shud b writing an essay abt professionalism...

on that nite itself... i suddenly came across a finding that made me switch to drug B... harh after all the research i done on drug A... =stressedSheryl=

6th march: mind finally set on drug B.

7th march: changed my mind to no absolute recommendation. A or B, depends on the patient la. due to my fickle-mindedness throughout the entire week, swirling between 2 options, i only managed to pass up w/o final editing by 4.40pm. that was close! gan cheong like hell! luckily it's only a 2 mins walk to uni.

when i got home, the adrenaline rush ceased n so did the adrenaline effect. off to bed... k. o. -ed.

=relievedRiley=

LOCK ur DOORS!

2008-02-28T09:53:00.006+08:00

last fri: full stop to cny celebration. it ended wif a diff note tho.

was rushing my research project results (last min again) til 6 sth. *gan cheong. even a bitch yelling at a mathafarkin decibel outside the block din quite bother me, ah another blardy drunkard again i tot.

later only i found out that it ain't a blardy drunkard! there's reli a commotion outside involving sum of our batchmates wif balls n... 3 THIEFs!!

so there's a THEFT in JBC!

n GAH... 1 of the theft victims was actually MY BF!!! (usually in those drama series, the gf shud have an instinct suddenly to open the window n check out wat's going on outside... nah, it's tested n it's not true.)

below is a summary of the incident. they may not b in order. i'm not a witness n the victim suck in giving full account of the incident.

dear found that he's laptop was closed. he's sure he left the laptop open. *sniff sniff* sth's fishy!

confirm housemates din touch laptop. PJ go check his room.

laptop's gone!!! window left open n he saw a man lying uncounsious outside, AH the THIEF! (harh 3 metres away from ground only wor... padan muka!)

dear n guys ran out to confront the baddies.

dear ran back to room to check whether he lost anything. sei foh! his wallet n lau beh handphone gone!

PJ's laptop recovered from the unconsious baddy. dear cudn't find his stuff.

commotion got more chaotic!

dangerous-looking baddy came shooing the guys off by threatening them wif a big glass beer bottle.

female baddy helped the slowly-regaining-consciousness baddy to flee

dangerous-looking baddy followed suit

the guys chased down different paths but lost track of the baddies

patrol car came. dear n PJ hop on patrol car hoping to track down the baddies

then the WEIRDEST thing happen!!!

the dangerous-looking baddy with the beer bottle REAPPEAR rite bside the patrol car!!

POLICE ARRESTED THE BADDY.

but WHY? why did he came back to the crime scene? even the stupidest thief on earth won do that! is he on drug influence? or is there sth in his mind that v dunno? WEIRD!!!

dear's wallet n sum contents were found in the laundry.

according to every1's detective-ish mind, the thief' muz've been hiding in the LAUNDRY. WY even claimed that he cudn't go into the laundry at 4.30pm that day cos sum! was blocking the door from inside! the laundry gives easy access to the units above! the thiefs muz've been eyeing on dear's unit for sum time. juz happen that many ppl went in n out, nobody bother to lock the door that day n so the baddies had chance to sneak in!! 1 of them went back to the laundry after stealing the wallet. either same/different baddie went into PJ's room n upon hearing sumbody's coming in, he clumsily jumped off the window as fast as possible n *boom.. hence the bad landing.

a team of very yeng CID. gives ppl impression that they r very efficient.. yi ga mm hai si bit yiu lei gong, dan lei soh gong geh yat chai jiong wui seng wai cheng tong zheng gong.

1 by 1 had their statement recorded... word by word.

dear's losses-IC, driving license, sum valuable cards, a box of coins, lau beh handphone.

PJ-laptop, 1 handphone n 1 camera retrieved. he din know that he's camera was stolen until he saw it in the evidence bag wahaha. another handphone lost.

lesson to learn: LOCK ur DOOR. LOCK ur LAPTOP (that's y dear's laptop was safe).

after that i treated my poor stomach wif a great steamboat dinner, yippie got prawns n porridge-based steamboat!. ala it's supposed to b a perfect postponed chap goh meh celebration if not marred by that crazy incident. it's stil a merry affair nonetheless.

i sincerely pray that u get all ur belongings back.. esp the IC n the driving license. wu wu who to chauffeur me around nx time... haih juz when i tot that the glasgow police department is very efficient.... v'll c!

=hungryHillary=

人日

2008-02-17T09:17:00.006+08:00

amidst of our stressful schedule, v stil find time to celebrate this very meaningful day (*ahem like i know wat's the meaning behind it). partly for the meriah-ness of lou sang, partly bcos v haven't reli had a decent dinner wif our neighbour of 9 months.

come evening, every1's at the kitchen bz wif sth. yes preparation is an important process.. to ignite the cheery cny mood in every1! sth i've learnt during this cny celeration abroad. so ppl go bake sum cookies nx time n stop complaining y no cny feel geh.

after a very long time, v were finally ready for a great meal. i mean GREAT!

main course of the nite.. ASAM LAKSA.. oh after 9 months! chi mou chi yong wor. lotsa sardine, serai, lime, cili padi. of course, thanx to the laksa paste that mom parcelled me. yummy!!!

nx v have sambal trimmed beans. the sambal super delicious n chi gek omg!

that's not all. presenting u a sexily tanned booty-licious babe.

ta-dah!

dish of the nite... SIEW GAI! by my luvly neighbours. this is even better than wat i had in msia. every1 knows i'm a fan of chicken breast. don call me stupid for this again ok! bcos this time even the boobs were sooo tender, tasty n JUICYlicious!

half way tru the meal, every1's stomach was overloaded til the extent that v felt sum kinda chest block kaka... v haven't even finish our bowl of laksa. so wat?!

v stil have tong yuen, loh hon goh n lou sang!

boy the tongyuen were like bouncy ping pong balls! very yi ngan, summore got peanuts n black sesame paste as fillings de wor don play play.

n alas, dish of the nite was... oh wait i oredi had dish of the nite. anyway wat's 人日 w/o lou sang rite?

人日之星

as our biggest plate was not big enuf for our lou sang ingredients (green apples, purple cabbage, carrots, timun, grapefruits, ground peanuts n crisps in plum sauce).. v had to use our biggest wok instead.

wa reli choi gor dai gat lai si.. don u get it?

DAI WOK!! = BIG TROUBLE in cantonese muahaha.

had a gud laugh at it, v kat ang moh country tak da pantang la... it's called big frying pan here anyway haha.

v lou n lou n lou (wif fork, choi! again), blabbering stuff like muz pass exam la muz graduate la n *uummph....

omg!
i nvr know that homemade lou sang can taste SO GOOOOOD it put those readymade lou sang kit at supermarkets to shame. muahaha ni panggil self satisfaction.

at sum pt v had to stop eating bfore v burst like a balloon. so v sat in our unusually clean n tidy lounge for sum games instead. joanne taught us how to play monalisa banana tree. it not only sounds silly, the game itself IS silly! it's drop dead simple but our muscles tend to get confused all the time, v reli laugh our lungs out wakaka!

well of course there muz b punishment for the losers, hohoho it's noneother than eating our disastrous fried mushrooms. it's failure of the day cos the batter won turn crispy no matter how, wth! wasted la...

v ended the day by playing ala tvb style 辣辣寿司边个食. how can sushi b a punishment when u r in glasgow. so the game was aptly renamed as 油油蘑菇边个食. muahaha!

it was soo fun! i shud start celebrating 人日 when i'm back to msia.

oh too bad i had to miss bai tin gong this yr.

=stressedSheryl= biopharm on mon. y do i feel like the things that i've studied were flushed down the toilet bowl tgt wif my poo poo....

oh oh n not forgetting HAPPY VALENTINE's DAY ppl!

ah bosco wong zhong zhak, can thee b ma valentino?!

年初一

2008-02-10T23:36:00.000+08:00

ahh woke up in the morning knowing it's 年初一, yippie!! but too bad this yr i din find myself in taiping, i din put on new clothes, i din receive ang paus from the elder ones. *sobs

instead v went to ss house to bai nin.

they have a variety of cny cookies n OMG! BA GUA!! ahh pineapple tarts! i cud've gobbled up the whole tin! it's precious over here, so kena control sikit la.. it's not nice to let ppl curse u on nin cho yat y'know. so i munch this n munch that like nobody's business.

yes u r rite, i unashamedly admit that i came for the cookies=)

check out the G7 gals, soo damn tam jiak tsk tsk!

only 1 house to go bai nin this yr. *sobs

in the afternoon, skype wif cousin bro in TAIPING. n awww.. every1's there! waving halo tru a comp screen juz made me feel sth's terribly missing! no la i din go to the extent that i need to hold back my tears. oh i played card games wif my uncle n bet over the computer screen kaka, wif my cousin sis showing me my cards. it was reli funny. i won!!! ya so wat.. like i'll get the money. i think my uncle manipulated the cards juz to make me happy haha. no time to get emo after the call, had to rush to a class dammit.

at nite v open up our apartment for a cny potluck dinner, where the home students n sum lecturers were invited to come over.

the preparation was fun. i was cutting n pasting 新年快乐 out of red xmas crackers. juz then jenny n the neighbours joined in wif tanglungs, lotsa MICKEY & JERRY angpaus (it's yr of RAT!) n fishes. oh luckily v don rear cat in my unit muahaha.

v all started sticking all these lil cute decos in place n whoala... the once messy, unsightly living & dining room was gone. it's now nicely decorated, filled wif cny mood. so hepi!!!

let's get the party started!!!

cheongsam delight.. ooh babelicious! gives me the urge to go tailormake a cheongsam for myself.

oh sheez i think i need a boobie transplant to fit prettily into a cheongsam.

wif lecturer .. he's a sweet guy, alwiz looking for glutinous rice kaka.

wif home students.. they were taught how to play heart attack haha. noob betul.

n among ourselves...

i bet it's a merry affair truout the nite. food, card games, laughters, every1 was having fun. after abouts of unit-hopping, the party sumhow ended. this was definitely the way to celebrate cny when u r abroad.. wat a bang!

back to my own living & dining room, can't stop admiring our work, wahaha v cud've won best decorated unit ngek ngek! oh juz in case u dunno the 新年快乐 i made 1 ok!! wat a great piece of artwork...

i mean the gold tanglung. i know i know the size n strokes of those 4 words cacat de ma.

=prosperousPamela= in her cosy living room, filled wif cny joy.

wish u all a properous yr ahead!!

恭喜发财

2008-02-09T10:20:00.000+08:00

to blog on skiing trip/ cny celebration 1st?

skiing trip or cny celebration?

... n the last petal goes to... ah it's obvious. so in cny mood now, my brain got no place for biopharm. my post today...

除夕

issh been too pampered as a msian all these yrs, 1 week holiday for cny n oso holiday for other festival that's totally none of ur business, fulamak so muhibah! ang moh only know how to celebrate xmas.. too bad so sad. wth 1st time in my life i had class on 除夕!

tu pun it's not an ordinary class, i had a presentation.. 20 marks de weh dun play play.. make me so gan cheong. thank gudness was in the morning slot n i escaped being assessed by that pepsi-holic. boy i was so lucky phew!

i wan to go taiping!!!
i wan to have dinner wif my family n relatives. i wan to get many many ang paus.
i wan to chat n play card games wif my cousins.
i wan to eat big big prawns, grilled chicken, ba kien, 酸辣菜. i wan to drink 胡椒猪肚汤 (w/o the pork intestine but abalone instead), well the list goes on...
i wan to visit my relatives, finish up a tinful of 黄梨酥 n kueh ka pek n drink yeo's crysanthemum tea.
i wan to c illegal but openly displayed fire crackers n fireworks!!!
i wan to listen to formulaic dok dok chang cny songs playing non stop everywhere.
i wan to watch those outdated tvb awards n charity shows on national tv!!!

i'm at glasgow... *sobs.

as for this yr reunion dinner...

8 pretty gals from G7 n J9 (the house that sell cornflakes n cereals) in cny mood,
a pot of tom yam n a pot of 清汤,
a table full of ingredients bought from chung ying,
wif cny songs non-stop playing in the background...

omg so long i din eat such big PRAWNS wif SHELL attached! so yummy.. summore la la meat n all the fish balls, crab sticks n stuff. my gudness... heavenly!!

whoalala... a perfect STEAMBOAT reunion dinner million miles away from home.

as usual the amount of food was overestimated n as usual i juz stuff my stomach til bloated like i had starved for a month. ahhh... syokness!

of course v had other entertainment truout while v digest our food... like taking a couple of nonsensical pics keke.

hoho i put my man u jersey to gud use.

in the silly face photoshoot session, every1 was champion in their own rite haha. lazy la, it's all at mying's n schoo's blog. n the loser of the day goes to...

shan's face but choo's hands. ngek ngek!

alwiz claimed that her muscle STIFF wor.. padahal wan to JAGA IMAGE ma.. chiu! soo typical of yishan. beh tahan her tsk tsk.

that nite was a cure to watever homesickness v had bfor this. a different but enjoyable reunion dinner.

新年快乐!!!

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i miss u guys back home.

THANK U yvonne n tien hong!!! it's very totful of u guys. i have NVR been so DELIGHTED to receive red red CNY CARDS bfor in my life haha. blessings that travel million miles by airmail, aww so precious=)

n on that very day i received a parcel of cookies sent by mom!!! omg my fav 黄梨酥!! i was so touched.
*
ah CRAP how i wish this is true. seems like my ba gua 'colder than water'.

anyway glad that my neighbour jenny n batchmates mun can make reli gud cookies.

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i feel very sry for ah giu. i think that gal wil have her worst ever cny in her life. kesian.

=万事如意=

rojak

2008-02-03T08:23:00.000+08:00

few days ago i came across a forwarded email that reli made my day.

pre-sen-ting....

ta-dah!

SPONGEBOB KAT MASJID INDIA!!!

BWAhahahahaha...
i was so amused by this pic that wth, my mouth almoz spray water to the keyboard. yep spongebob is 1 of my fav cartoon characters that nvr fail to make me rofl=) other than shin chan keke.

yeh yeh had a great day at aviemore, seeing snow capped mountain n skiing for the 1st time. gotta sleep now so stay tune for this!

ah my neighbours were baking cookies juz now. as usual, when there's food, there's alwiz me. tsk tsk so tam jiak! u know wat it's not only the smell of those delicious cookies, it's the smell of CNY. ahhhh~

so 1 day's gone n deng! i stil haven't draw out my pharmacetical care plan! my presentation wil b this coming wed, test on 18th n 4 essays due in march... my gudness! can sumbody pls inject me wif

5mg/ml sense of urgency, i.v 100ml, stat!

indication: last minute mentality, laziness.

s/e: stress

yes, i reli need sum stress to keep me going!

dammit. i'm NOT getting anywhere NEAR to my new yr resolution.

=GuiltyGwen=

of New Sem n Angel in the Lab...

2008-01-29T10:26:00.000+08:00

don feel like doing anything hence time for sum random crapping.

1. new sem. lectures resume in SIBS101. same old story. 1st u get bored. then ur mind wil wander sumwhere else. then u feel sleepy. then u doze off. as for ytrday, out of total randomness, i was

imagining the sensation of digging out a large chunk of earwax??!!

my gudness, damn WEIRD la weh!

2. 2 sems' gone! wth time flies like nobody business n i'm now in my final sem! on how i fully utilized my holiday.. very satisfied. as for my studies.. ADOI masih slack sangat. dump that attitude gal!

3. it's been 8 months in glasgow! 1 yr is not enuf, stil many things n places UNEXPLORED. how i wish this twinning programme is 2 yrs abroad.

4. n i'm not feeling homesick yet! guess it's a sweet taste of this newfound FREEDOM. except that i tend to get bit sentimental on a relaxed fri nite, alone in the room listening to.. well mayb once's soundtrack. i'll think abt morning walk, dim sum n dinner outings wif family. think abt yam cha wif my dear frens/ fan cheongs. those spicy food n seafood.. aww.. hehe.

5. lab session ended last week. i feel so LUCKY that i had a casual n STRESS-less session plus an ANGEL (dang he's not even MY supervisor). reli a big contrast wif wat other batchmates were going tru, kesian.

howz our computer lab? u wonder...
-feel free to go at 10am n have lunch when u wan to.
-12 of us packing in a small room, not even space for a star jump, so pathetic.
-taking photos or snacking, as u wish.

n oso, blurring wif mingying (2 comp illiterates dealing wif sickening canggih softwares=LOST).

it's all too canggih-manggih that i don reli understand wat i'm doing. every step was guided. juz blindly run jobs, save files, n alwiz the last pair to go back home cos there MUZ b a prob everyday haha.

the best part was WHENEVER v r lost, angel was alwiz there, nvr hesitate to help us tru. this angel come in the form of a tall man wif a charming grin.. professional n frenly AND

~~a pair of revealing CK WHITE boxers when he bends over to help us... *ooh blood oozing from nose~~

aww don u juz luv this angel?

=imissblair=

Paris - Day 4

2008-01-21T23:51:00.000+08:00

23rd Dec: aww... it's the last day of our paris trip...

jardin du luxembourg

the grand bassin

palais du luxembourg, built for Marie de Medicis, Louis XIII's mother. was a palace, was a prison, now.. for the senate.

hoho they've got a weighing scale in the park?! to monitor how much weight they've lost after laps around the grand bassin.

oh so this is wat they do bfor weighing themselves on the cute weighing scale.

wat a serene picture... winter morning n trees w/o foliage...beautiful but somber.
hope to come again in the summer where flowers bloom everywhere

Pantheon of paris, not rome

was an abbey, is a burial place for sum french heroes

seriously v stil can't have enuf of eiffel tower. this time viewing from trocadero.
hey this is no photoshop.. it's very foggy in paris that day. well.. there's more to the story than this.
anyway we've got dayview, niteview n foggyview of eiffel tower in this trip. how abt that keke...

v marched from trocadero to below eiffy to champs de mars back to the peace monument v went on the 2nd day.. it's a long stretch.. all for the sake of eiffel tower from dif distance n dif angle. sot geh!

from trocadero

getting nearer

below.. looking towards palais de chaillot

on champ de mars.. yo lean again!

back to peace monument.. haha!

THE inverted pyramid

act v saw this on Day 2 oredi, in a shoping complex a floor below musee du louvre.
"look dear, there's the inverted pyramid! tom hanks claimed that mary magdelene lies underneath it haha."

that fella juz shrugged me off. "ga ge la.. dou mm hai zan geh!"

puzzled! huh so this is juz a replica? r u sure? this looks so real!

well he's so confident abt it so i stupidly BLIF him that THE inverted pyramid is sumwhere else.
manatau that's actually THE inverted pyramid. shit la u! so v went back on Day 4 juz to take pics of it muahaha.

since v gotta board a flight back to glasgow that nite, can't reli make it anywhere far so we had a stroll at rue de moufferard, the street where our hostel is situated.

after days of baguettes, paninis n crepes (ah no complaints... i seriously luv crepes, they r soo yummy!), time for sum french cuisine.

my starter.. shrimp wif avocado. it'll b a luvly combination if served wif fresh big prawns caught from kuala selangor.. aiks! this is gud enuf.

escargots!

then i have cod for main course. erm taste like frozen cod je! mom's steam cod better. then dear had duck confit.. not bad but bit salty.

dessert. tarte pommes.. ok it's apple pie. eggy-licious!

further down the st... boy there r many lil surprises here n there.

vin

omg fresh seafood everywhere!

fromagerie... cheese!

boucherie... omg those hanging there were HARES!

then off v went to the airport, au revoir paree!

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rmb the foggy pic juz now? unfortunately, ALL flights that nite were cancelled due to the stupid FOG. like that's not causing chaos n panic enuf for the passengers, they suddenly announced that ALL flight r FULLY booked for the NX 1 WEEK n there's a free bus to shuttle passengers back to paris. wth!!!

u c it's xmas eve the nx day. chaos n panic were everywhere in the airport! many ppl left.
get a flight of other airline or train or v r frigging stranded in this small airport!
enquired for other airlines n the cheapest v can get was a whopping 300 euros!!! no way!

this was the 1st time i encountered such a not-so-ordinary incident. as the usual me w/o sense of urgency, i find this experience kinda syok haha (siao!), the tot that i'm gonna b stranded here for 1 week nvr occur in my mind at all. hang around in the airport aimlessly, don quite know wat to do.

when the crowd had pretty much dispersed, went to try my luck n request them to put us on waiting list for the nx flight (am a fan of amazing race keke). SURPRISINGly...

they offer us us a flight to DUBLIN then transit back to GLASGOW the nx day, free of charge! huh?! can't reli blif my ears... so there's a way OUT, totally FREE. v quickly said YES to the offer.. phew! tin dou gong sai=)

had to put a nite in the airport. i saw ppl setting up foldable BEDS.. wa sai mm sai gam soh fu ah.. then ony i realised that the airport staffs r giving out the beds so i quickly ran to the other side of the airport to grab 1 for myself.

too bad, the beds were taken n wat's left were blankets.. jiu sat!

v lay the blanket on the floor. the ahpek bside us was kind enuf to offer another blanket for us to keep us warm. aww so sweet=) then the airport was closed, locked n lights off. beds n blankets.. so this is paris afterall, all equipped for a strike haha. seriously, nvr so sound asleep in an airport bfor.

i dozed off not long after that. then in the middle of the nite, i was half awakened by sounds. sheez few airport staffs standing rite in front of us were saying sth while looking at us. then they turn to the bed bside us. then move our blanket or watever...

was in a haze n cudn't care wat's going on as long as they were not eyeing for our belongings, juz continue sleeping like a PIG zzzzzzzzzzzzz....
nx day, i woke up n found myself covered in a THICK GREEN blanket instead of the thin GREY blanket. huh?!

then i vaguely recall wat happened in the middle of the nite. ah~ha, the airport staffs muz have seen 2 poor souls shivering (oh did i?). so they exchange the THICK GREEN blanket of the guy bside us on the nice warm bed wif the thin GREY blanket that v have. so that's how i got the WARM green blanket. awww.. so thoughtful ppl=) thanks!

boarded a flight to dublin.. mou duen duen step on irish soil. alas, back to glasgow. stil, a nice ending to our memorable paris trip.

=happyHalle=

Paris - Day 3 - Disney!

2008-01-15T09:41:00.000+08:00

once upon a time, i was kinda disturbed by the ladybird version of 'the little MERMAID' , where in the end she was turned to FOAM n disappear in the vast blue sea. that melancholy was bit too much to take for a tiny weeny kid. but under the magic touch of walt disney, ARIEL was happily married to her prince charming n LIVED HAPPILY EVER AFTER on land.

now don u juz luv disney n all the happily ever afters packaged wif saccharine sweet soundtracks?

from disney cartoons... HAPPY ending
to
jack-n-rose-u-jump-i-jump-jack-died... SAD ending
to
complicated rectangular relationship in Closer... OPEN ending.

sheez i've aged.

so ppl get more complicated as they grow. where else to offer escapism, dream, n bring back that bit of innocence in u?
.... DISNEYLAND!!!!

22nd DEC: juz when i tot i've avoided lotsa queueing up in this paris trip, heck! the q to get in disneyland was crazy. v bought the 1 day ticket for 1 park. brilliant decision! cos found out later that it's impossible to even cover 1 park in a day.

can u spot mickey??

WEEee~ off i went to disney park.

spotted this huge, luvly xmas tree.

aww goofey!

main street

as i focused my view further straight down main street, omg look at this!

n there stood this castle where princess aurora was awakened by a kiss from prince philip! it's juz a fairytale~ ya so wat... dang! it's such a LUVLY castle.

exploring each land.

adventureland

pirates of the carribbean... took this ride. pirates burnt down houses, lotsa treasure but it's juz a slow boat ride wif 2 slides. anyway when a RIDE inspires a MOVIE, it can't b that bad after all!

fantasyland. where all the sweet fairytales came to life n within ur touch.

alice in wonderland-themed... reli a wonderland. LONG Q.. *sigh

it's a small world... recommended ride but LONG Q... damn!

donald! quack quack quack quack

discoveryland.

they've got 1 or 2 crazy rides over here like this space mountain but LONG Q, Again!... @#%* wth!!!

buzz lightyear kinda dominate this land.

this is when i switched from =sprightlysue= to =grumpyGeraldine=. oredi half a day gone n JUZ 1 RIDE, THAT'S ALL?! that din justifiy for wat i've paid! frust gilerr...

then i c many ppl munching on a bloody red apple like the 1 that got snow white poisoned. grabbed 1 for myself n no, i din faint, that bloody TOFFEE apple did cheer me up a bit=)

look, rudolf in discoveryland!

later on v bump into the lion king musical... but there's like sooo far away... i had to do bit of giraff-ing... ah watever! i'll watch that in london muahaha.

frontierland

it's more like a COWBOYland. so no prezzies for guessing that WOODY is da man in this land.

v kiasu-ly left this land for the parade in main street but uh it's oredi crowded wif ppl. i waited, not very patiently, n after sum time... ta-dah! the parade started wif the ever so famous MICKEY n DONALD on the 1st float.

it's all weird n sweet to c the princes n princesses turned 3D, totally alive n waved to me. not forgetting Timon, Pumbaa, Simba and the cute n cuddly Pooh Pooh. the floats were all elaborately decorated. the parade ended wif SANTA n his REINDEERS... betul2 reindeers ni.

hey baldy, get outta my way! (sry ppl, lazy to post videos)

went back to frontierland n v joined the q for a ride. don care la, there muz b a 2nd RIDE today!!! woohoo it's FUN fun fun. not regrets.. defly way more ADRENALINE rush than the 1st 1.

then v headed back to the centrestage for another show- the CANDLELABRATION. pluto, goofey, donald, daisy, minnie were so excited that mickey's coming to town. the atmosphere was all so merry merrry xmas-ey n finally mickey's arrived. the whole main street wif the princesses LAMP POSTS straight down to the huge xmas tree was then beautifully lit... wow! v knew that there's not all cos mickey kept saying, look closer n the attn was directed to the SLEEPING BEAUTY CASTLE.

the TORCH held by each cartoon character statue on the castle was lit 1 by 1 UPwards. when all 15 candles lit up to mark the 15th anniversary, TINKERBELL at the tip of the castle sprinkled her FAIRY DUST n sth truly MAGICAL happened... part by part... within a min... the entire sleeping beauty castle transformed into this ENCHANTING castle....

guess it sparked my inner.. sth.. watever! it was soo awesome until it took me awhile to stop saying, gao meng ah! hou leng ah!...

halooo glasgow radiance, this is wat i call LIGHT festival!

well there's 1 more parade bfor v called it a day. this time wif flashy, sparkling floats fetching either famous villains or a royal couple plus sum enjoyable disney anthem in the background. whoalala! (again, lazy to post videos.)

it's a wonderful feeling to feel like a kid again. disneyland.. wat a damn commercialised themepark that offers nth but ILLUSION.

v stupidly paid for this illusion but at the end of the day, it's worth it! don u juz wan to b in an illusion once in awhile? i think v all do.. for watever reason

or izzit like wat's said in THE MATRIX, v r all living in a world of illusion.

ok, i've gone too far. haha actually, romance is not reli the genre that i'm in to.

=kiddoKate=

Paris - Day 2

2008-01-11T06:57:00.000+08:00

21st DEC: here's bit on paris' moz famous monument. got its name from the designer Gustave Eiffel, built for the International Exhibition of Paris 1889 n initially parisians juz hated it. wat's wrong wif u ppl?! how can u hate sth so spectacular?! anyway the antenna on top saved it from demolition. imagine paris w/o eiffel tower....

then our paris trip wil take up MUCH lesser memory space. the nite view wasn't enuf to whet our appetite for photos so in the morning v went to champs de mars.

the sight of eiffel tower juz put me in AWE!

a rock chick for world peace. wo peng yu ngoi. beyond jing san bat sei!
this is for ga kui.

wif dear.. 1 of our many many attempts, by tripod/ helpful tourists.

unlike the usual me, i tak habis-habis POSING.. like a model in a photoshoot session except i ain't model quality haha.

ta-dah!

me touching eiffy!

me leaning on eiffy!

ENUF!! not gonna show all here. but hey it's Oh so FUN!

nx..opera garnier. it's a super grand opera house but sayang din get the whole picture, cos it has this MAJESTIC GREEN DOME that can only b seen if u walk further down the street.

Montmartre. i luv this place.

the cafes n studios make this area feel very very PARIS-ey to me. it's the place to tan sai gai, free ur mind, get a taste of foie gras, buy a sketch or get urself sketched...

...that wil all make u feel so spirited!

anyway a baguette n pain du chocolat r all i can afford.

at the peak of this area stands the Basilique du Sacré-Cœur.

true as it sound, the basilica is very much a SACRED place in ppl's HEART owing to the ivory white facade.

a magnificent white structure wif domes n towers.

n u'll get a great view of paris at that pt.

then off v went in search for hunchback of notre dame. instead of quasimodo n esmeralda, v were welcomed by an AMAZING gothic building-Cathédrale Notre Dame.

the architecture of the cathedral is quite dif from those that i've visited. i din pay to go up but a walk AROUND the cathedral is a MUZ cos the BACKview of Cathédrale Notre Dame is no less amazing! (sry short of adjectives. yes! everything is simply amazing in paris haha..)

flying buttress giving support n uniqueness to the structure.

as for the sideview, u'll c scary-looking GARGOYLES.

but i don quite understand y a sacred cathedral is decorated wif ugly gargoyles.

in the evening, FREE entry to musee du louvre. TIP!-access from subway station to beat the q. u know.. looking at all these artsy stuff.. fan fu zhok zi like me juz can't interpret the underlying msg or appreciate the beauty in it so it's alwiz recommended to get an audio guide.

1st n foremost, presenting the moz valuable piece in musee du lovre n a Leonardo Da Vinci's masterpiece... La Joconde! ..behind a bullet proof glass.

ahhh i was enlightened... CRAP! anyway it looks natural n that's STH wif the eyes w/o eyebrows. her GAZE juz FOLLOWS me no matter which direction i walk to! again the advantage of visiting in winter.. no shoo-ing by guards. u have all the time to scrutinise the portrait.

my fav piece.. note the X shape n the tension btw the lips of CUPID n PSYCHE.. can u feel their luv? tragic.

hoho do u know cupid has a gf n his mom is act venus! dunno leh~

from buku sejarah.. hammurabi code. tamadun awal. mesopotamia. familiar? it's rite in front of me!

there's a gazillion of collection in this freaking huge musuem, bfor v can cover much, the musuem was closed. get a taste of grand exit from the glass pyramid designed by I.M.Pei.
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tired legs n fond memories...
it's been a great day n alas, kiss paris gudnite...

=happyHalle=